Live while you are alive

       Jane ransacked her entire house and decided to conclude her tragic life with the weapons she prepared for herself . Her favorite Blue stole , a knife and the sleeping pill she bought from pharmacy.She waited for everyone to leave for their daily works and when she knew that she was alone  with her pet Mickey.     She took Mickey for a walk and after returning home she kept enough food and water for mickey and secured  him in the hall.She laid down on her bed and all the incidents of her life came flooding and she couldn't help her tears which burnt her skin like droplets of acid against the wound caused by mom's ill-treatment.After years of this miserable life she thought of putting an end to it by ending her life.Yes you are right .She decided to end her tragic life.     Jane was not born in a wealthy family both her parents had to work  too hard to meet their daily expenses. She lived with her mom,dad and younger brother Carl. She often envied how god it will be to be born as a boy. She felt if she was a guy and then her family would treat her different .She will be free to enjoy her life as per her wishes. She was not allowed to make any decisions of her own from choosing an outfit to choosing her career.Often her protests ended in vain with her parents words saying      "He is a guy and you are a girl " And if she protested even after that they will beat her brutally with literally every object from slipper to kitchen utensils and will humiliate her saying that   " you are speaking like because of some scoundrel and do you think you could live a happy life if you elope with him ??"        Are you kidding ??Jane often thought to herself ,they never allowed her to hang out or interact with anyone after her class . Her dad will accompany her  everywhere she had gone , be it interviews ,internships  and to the university .How could she even have friends with this kind of pestering she thought..         She thought death could end all her pains and sorrows. Not that she haven't had any other options.               She found a piece of paper and wrote :                       " You will all be happy and lucky once I leave .            Goodbye "  Jane secured the note under her reading lamp.               Jane took a bottle of water to her room and had half amount of sleeping pills from the container.    She  tied her stole over her throat in a way that she can no more breath and she cut her hands with the knife and put her bleeding hand in the bath tub and turned on the tap. Soon after that she felt dizzy not sure if its because of sleeping pills or because of loss of blood and then she passed out .          That night her Mom Nino came home and called out for Jane to bring her tea .Nino waited for few more minutes her face flushing from anger that this stupid daugther of hers showing such an attitude even after all those beatings she got from her the earlier day . Nino lost her temper and went straight to Jane room .She heard the sound of running water from the tap. She went to the bathroom. She couldn't believe her eyes and what had her daugther done to herself.    Nino was terrified at the scene and she called an ambulance to take her stupid daughter to hospital but its too late " she is already Passed away " the doctor said.