A walk alone; True life and inspiration

A TRUE LIFE A WALK ALONE AN INSPIRATION WRITTEN BY SHEKANO MUTABI ACKNOWLEDGMENTS It is of great honor that this book is written to be of help in this generation and would like to thank the following people for the help and support they gave to me in one way or another. I would like to thank the MUTABI FAMILY for been there for me especially to my parents JELADI MUTABI and JUDITH SHIMBIYA MUTABI to you GOD bless you. It is indeed because of their support I am here today. I also want to appreciate a good friend of mine who was there for me in my difficult time to give me courage and for being there for me God placed her at that time to help out, her name is GIFT KABWE a nurse by profession and a woman with a zeal for Gods work to you I say thank you very much and God bless you. INTRODUCTION A walk alone is a book inspired by true life events a guide to help others discover the true purpose of life in the phase of being alone. As you read this book may you find the inspiration that you need today to walk through the challenges of life and have the courage to take a walk alone today and in doing so find the strength to stand in all situations you have today. Find comfort in reading this book with understanding of it and it will help you, I pray it does. A brief history I want to give you today a brief history of my growing up when I was but a child it is my understanding that in life there are phases or rather stages that we must g through as people when growing up for this is the cycle of life and we all go through it as long as we still have life today this cycle will never end here on earth. Now in my coming up of age when I had reached a certain stage to start playing with other children that stage to always want to be with friends well I cannot say I had really passed through that stage I did but the kind of passing am talking about is that of being alone most of the times for this is true and had found some sort of comfort. It always seemed to be strange at that time and I am sure the people who were around including my own family members had questioned or asked themselves as to why most of the times I could be alone. In this generation today it is strange to see a child who has freedom to play with other friends and yet the child is still in the company of himself or herself most of the times, people will say this child does not like to play with other children and to it many assumptions arise as to why. Some would say the child has not been brought up well by the parents to some it can be true but to other that’s not the case this you must know of. In my coming up of age I cannot remember all things that used to happen then but my family more especially my mother told me that most of the times when I was a child I spent my time being alone I know it sounds strange but it has been part of me. It is true I had reached a point in my life when I had the opportunity to do whatever I wanted because it was at that stage where most young people back then even now find themselves doing things that they should not do the same is still happening even today as it is , yes am sure you know of this, sometimes I could ask myself as to why am different from the other kids , I did not want the things they liked to do and have. Most of the times I could try to get to be like the others and find interest in what they likes to do and the things they wanted to have but it just couldn’t work out for me, sometimes it could appear strange to me in that this is what most of the things that kids do but how come I seem not to have interest in this. In the normal life of a child as they say that a child has to be playing with toys do what other children are doing well that was not my case. There are times when I could try to be normal like others and by all means try to fit in , sometimes I could just be there as a normal kid playing with others but for only a short period of time I could not sustain it because that wasn’t my true self . This is a brief history that I give to you I could go deeper into my life history but for now this is enough for you so that in it you understand the purpose of this book. ~~ A brief history I give to you~~ Alone we came There is something about life that you must understand today and once you do this, then you will learn to treasure all the moments you spend alone, and not take it as rejection or maybe you are meant to be alone but rather appreciate every moment you are in the company of yourself. This is true and don’t allow people to control the way you live and the way you have to do things but let God be the guide of your life. It amazes me how this generation today will talk all sorts of things behind your back if they notice that most of the times you are alone. This should not bother you at all but be glad because your existence is what causes them to talk or even think of you it is the fact that you are here today that they are even talking about you that is how important you are. There is one thing I want you to know and let it always be with you this one thing is that “ALONE WE CAME” it is only people that understands this principle that know the value found in being alone this is true once you know that you came into this world alone it will then become easy for you to take a walk alone and learn to cherish every moment of it. This world is a busy world and most of the times we spend the day working, it can be in a company at a farm or just with the house still we are always doing something and in doing so this keeps our minds occupied. It is okay but you must learn to spend quite times being alone. The importance and the value that is found in being alone at times cannot be understood by someone who doesn’t know the importance of being alone, to them it is one of the most difficult thing to do that is why at all times they want to be in the company of other people such people always want to be in the crowd. Alone they cannot survive because the fear of being alone scares them and in doing so many today end up in wrong companies of people yes they find themselves in things they never thought they could be in why because they cannot handle the thought of being alone. It is when you get to understand that alone you came and alone you will go can you embrace the idea fo being alone at times and find the value in it once you do this then in difficult situations when people leave you alone you shall not fall but remain firm, you will stand because you have mastered the art of being alone. In this journey of life today it is a journey that will require for you and I to be alone at times so as to have a clear mind and make right decisions that will guide us through this journey. Alone we came and alone we will go this is the cycle of life and there is nothing you and I can do about it the only thing is to enjoy the journey and understand the value that is found in being alone. A different view In my growing up the early stages of my adult wood I have always had a different view on how society says we must do or follow even up to now I still do that is the beauty of it and in doing so I find joy. There is nothing wrong in having a different view from what society perceives things in fat in everything that people say you must learn to question and not just accept things as society says. For example a society says a person above the age of 18 is eligible to take alcohol that is according to society the question is who gave this law, who said it is right to do so but many of us today do things because other people are doing them as for me I have always had a different view of things that is why most of the times I choose to be alone. People with a different view are usually alone most of the times it is so because in being alone that is why in the first place they have a different view from society people with a different view are the ones actually know what is right at times yes because it is their ability to question things that they see at a different view. It is not wrong to have a different view for in it there is an importance of being alone, the value is seen. It is only when you know the importance of been alone can you have a different view from what society tells you to do. In my walk of life I have lost friends not because I wanted to but because I have a different view, I see things the way they are the truth is that reality will always be reality and the truth will always remain the truth, if the truth is bent then it becomes a lie the truth when changed it cannot remain the truth that I tell you of today. People with a different view are usually alone that is why it is very important to know the value of being alone first for in this you will find strength to stand when everyone will leave you and will have only yourself, I have found myself in such situations where all the friends I trusted left but because of my background which I have given you a brief history on it didn’t bother me so much because I understand the importance of been alone at times, not everyone will always be with you at all times. Remember always that alone you came and alone you will go ~~ A different view~~ A PASSION FOR GOD In my growing up, I am glad to say that I was born in a Christian family thanks to my parents for the faith that made them to dedicate their lives to God, this I am glad of and it makes me glad to think about it with joy. It is because of the Christian home that I grew up in that triggered the passion in me to serve God. In my childhood days way back I have always had a passion for God, I enjoyed attending intercessory prayers this my family can tell you of when a I was young and wanted my family to buy something, I would ask God first to provide for us or to bless the finances of my parents so that they can manage to buy that thing cause back then my parents could not afford much. There was a time in my life when most of our neighbors had satellite dish, so most of the other children could be talking about the kinds of programs they could watch on tv, cartoons, wrestling etc. but I knew then that my family at that time could not afford to buy a satellite dish and this bothered me a lot because I wanted to be watching the cartoons that other children watched so that I too can say to them that I also watched the same kinds of cartoons they did and feel that my family can also afford. There came a time one day I was sitting by the corridor of our house and began to think about the satellite dish {DSTV] so they called it among many other decoders as well. So sitting there I looked up and began to say to God in my heart “God if truly you are who you say you are then give my parents money so that they buy a satellite dish for us, I want also to be watching cartoons like other children”, this day I remember of it like it was just yesterday. For when I was a child I thought like as child this is true, so at that time my focus was that God provides for my parents it was in the evening that I had begun talking to God about this, it took me about a week or so just asking God about the same request, I had faith that this coming month end my parents will buy a satellite dish this I had comforted myself with. Month end came and no satellite dish was bought that day my mood changed because what I was expecting was not bought at that time. I did not lose faith though, I still went back to God and said to him, I still want to have that satellite dish it cannot be now but one day it will definitely come. It was indeed a passion for God that I had developed because I loved speaking to him and that time I was just in the reception class at school before you can proceed to grade one, I was quite young by then. As time went by I had forgotten about the issue of the satellite dish, yes I did and continued with school ad other things, one day to my surprise it was around 17 hrs. I was coming from school very tired and the only thing I could think of was having food and going to bed after that, since there was no satellite dish to watch cartoons. I was tired because school was a bit far from home and I had to walk and by then I was young, so that day arriving home from school going in the house direct to the sitting room I saw to my left side what looked like a satellite dish, at first my eyes could not believe it so I went even closer just to confirm if what my eyes had seen was the actual satellite dish and it was. I can assure you that on that day I was happy filled with joy and happiness. After some time of celebration, after the joy I began to think and remember that I had asked God about this and it had come to pass that day in Gods best own time, in my heart I thanked God for what he did at that time, I know some of you may see this as strange but nothing makes a child who wants a toy happy when that toy is given to him I have more to tell you all but since that day my passion for God developed in me “A PASSION FOR GOD” ALONE IN THE CROWD Way back I have had always a different mindset from the people in the crowd. There were times in my secondary school days even in primary I would go out with my classmates to go and play in the grounds usually most of the Fridays since it was half day and in the afternoon we after knocking off from school and go in the grounds to play football for it was my favorite sport even up to now I still enjoy watching football though I don’t play anymore. There at the ground we could find other people as well and join with them to play football others became friends just there and then I have always had a strange feeling within me that will tell me the character of a particular person and once this had happened I would lose interest in being friends with that person so I would remain in my place regardless of being in the ground with a crowd of people. Though in the crowd of people I would still be alone and at times this had brought questions to some of my classmates they would ask me, why do you like to be alone?, you are a very quiet person they would say and up to now I still get such questions but such does not bother me for when I was like a child I thought like a child. I understand that a few of you will agree with me but there is a saying that goes by “the mind of a person is another world”, this in its meaning has truth in it. I had always this in mind, in my growing up that a day will come for me to be alone that as long as I still have life I will experience of such days that I will be left all alone and even today I could be in a crowd of thousands of people but yet I will still be alone it is not a mental issue science would say, it is not segregating myself from other people no, but it is the fact that I understand that alone I came and alone I will go from this world. Alone in the crowd is what most , if not everyone should understand of and once this is set in your hearts you will learn the art of being alone and in times when you will be left all alone you will survive and stand in the place of being alone. The crowd will not always be there and do not go out looking for the crowd just to feel wanted for such is dangerous, there is a reason to everything and in being alone the idea has to be embraced once this is done you will know the importance of it and the value of having time to yourself. I encourage you today to learn to be alone whilst you are in the crowd understand that alone you came and alone you will go in understanding this, it will be of strength to you when people will leave you alone in that time you need them. To everything there is mastery just like the saying goes “practice makes perfect, it is true learn to be alone amongst the crowd of people.