Queen ALCA

As I looked behind me, I already knew what was happening .I turned around and felt a strange sentiment entering my heart and overwhelming me. I found it difficult to breath .Was it fear? Was it anger? A bit of each may I say .This is… this feeling… the sadness of betrayal .The sadness of being betrayed by the people you cherished the most .By the people you liked the most .By the ones you were whiling to give your life to. Those people standing right before your eyes .Cold as if they were strangers. I kept on looking silently at the scene happening slowly as if it was unreal. The reality standing before me made it hard to not believe in this supposedly dream. My breath was heavy .My eyes were starting to blur .I touched hardly the sword that was piercing my body and without hesitation leaving it to die. I tried effortlessly to take it off. But… I simply knew it this was the end. The end of this 19 years of suffering. Of hating... of being hurt and hurting others… of trying to look good in your eyes .Of trying to survive in this absurd reality we call life. But bizarrely a voice in my heart kept calling me. Why? Why is it ending this way. “I did all you wanted me to do” “so…why” I whispered slowly trying to hold my emotions in . I tried my best to look up to the person standing in front of me and screamed with difficulty those words again and again. Those words that left me without any answer. In reality, I already knew it all…. But I denied it until the end. I sensed this person approaching me and gently taking my face with his two hands and whispering in his turn into my ears… one word… Useless. I sensed the sword forging its way into my body again . Leaving a blood bath and an empty shell. “is she dead ? ” Where the final word I heard . Without thinking a strange impulse took over myself and I started laughing. Yes, laughing. Why? You ask. Perhaps because I realised that my life was only a joke… a lie. A lie I trusted blindly. I looked one last time in the eyes of this person . The one I loved my entire life .And the one that betrayed me. I smiled, thinking of that pathetic girl lying in the cold and b****y ground and this bastard watching her emotionlessly.  I closed my eyes of exhaustion and a last thought crossed my mind. In the end, we are both monsters… if I had the chance to go back… just in time… would I make the same decisions ? If those people were still here… would I have the chance to protect them one last time…