PRISON OF MY MIND

What are you looking for? What's the point of life and what's missing in your life? How do you think of filling that void? Never understood why the ancestors painted the walls of their caves. It's similar to today's i********:. Look what i hunted/ look at the picture of my meal. Is mind just a prison where you can't get out and let anyone enter? I just want to run away and hide. Go somewhere that no one knows me. Get rid of the very few people that i know, erase from existence. Why is that? Maybe because if you don't try you can't fail. Why would anything matter? Everything is already wrong and you still are afraid of doing wrong and being inadequate. Well you'll never be enough in anything that you do. For some reason i think you can do better than the best. But why do i fail you in taking actions? Why do i fail you at everything? Why can't i just get you started? Why can't i just let you talk? Why can't i just let you ask? Why don't i be there for you? Why can't i co-exist in my self and being? Why do i always leave you alone and never let anyone come near you? Trapped in my existence. Trapped in my being. Trapped in myself.