Sinful Affair (Book 1) Completed

Dalawang taon na kami namin ni Calvin at sa dalawang taon na kami at magkarelasyon isang taon na rin ako nitong kabit. Hindi ako nakipaghiwalay kay Calvin dahil nangako siya na magfifile siya ng annulment sa asawa kapag umabot sila ng six months. Tinanong ko so Calvin tungkol sa Annulment niya at ni Shiela pero wala akong nakukuhang sagot dito dahil hinahalikan ako nito kaya nakakalimutan ko palagi na itanong ulit dahil nadadala ako sa init ng katawan. Nagkakilala kami ni Calvin sa aming probinsya. Pamangkin si Calvin ng may-ari ng mansyon at isa siya sa engineer ng time na iyon at nagyaya ang aking pinsan na magbenta ako roon ng paninda kong turon at kakanin na niluluto ni nanay. Nitong nakaraan na buwan ay nagiging cold na rin saakin si Calvin at pinagsawalang bahala ko iyon lahat. Ayaw kong magtanong kay Calvin baka lumabas na wala akong tiwala sa kanya. In a relationship trust is a must. I trust Calvin with all my heart but this past few days I am doubting him. When we continue this relationship he set a rule for us. He must be the one who call and text me dahil kung ako ay baka mabasa ng kanyang asawa. I am not proud being a mistress because I can be a wife and not the other woman who see people as an family destroyer. Somethimes people even curse us to death but I understand. I really understand because my dad has his own fair of mistress. But that's the time I wasn't born yet. And then boom my so called dad who only wants pleasure from my mom left my mom after giving birth to me. Men is scared of the word commitment and men only love to f**k. And when they learn that they are having a child they will run. I really hate all my life. I never have a guy friend because I hate them to death because they are all the same. They have balls but they don't have balls. I hate my dad for leaving my mom and he never come back. I pity mom a lot because I know she is still hoping that one day my father will show his demon face. I really pity mom because of the love she have with my father because until her last breath all she thinks is my father. My dad really doesn't deserve my mom. I think my dad didn't really love my mother because if he does he will stay by her side. My mom is secretly looking at him at social media. She even asked our neighbor to search for my father name but I am thinkfil that they didn't find my dad in social media. The truth is my father doesn't have any social media. It took me weeks to find him. I search for his surename in the i********: and I click all the results and luckily one of them is his son. My DM the account and I immediately received a message from my half brother. I know he reply because I have a pretty face just looking at my half brother face picture I know he is a fuckboy. I think I am older than him. I have the same surename to him because I am a self proclaim b***h. I didn't put my surename on my social media instead I put Calvin surename. He was okay about his surename I put in my social media. Not until today I look at him almost crying because he wanted to delete my social media. He even said just change my surename to the original so that I wouldn't delete my social media. "Idedelete ko na lang Calvin, really? Hindi mo naman na kailangan na sigawan ako." Lumandas ang aking luha saaking magkabilang pisngi kung noon at hinahalikan nito ang mga mata ko kapag umiiyak ako ngayon ay hindi na. Galit ako nitong tinignan. Wala talaga akong alam kung anong kasalanan ko sa kanya. Dahil sa totoo lang ay namiss ko ito ng sobra dahil dalawang linggo na rin ako nitong hindi inuwian. Hindi pa man ako nakakayakap rito ay pinagalitan niya ako dahil nagtanong ang kanyang asawa sa kanya kung related ba daw kami dahil hindi niya naman ako nakita ng kasal nila. Ang apelyido nila ay iisa lang ang nagmamay-ari at iyon ang kanilang pamilya. Hindi katulad sa ibang apelyido na marami at hindi tulad ng iba na hindi alam kung magkapamilya sila. Same surename pero hindi na sila magkapamilya. Napabuntong hininga ako at niyakap Ito galing sa kanyang likuran. Nagluluto na kasi Ito ngayon para saaming dinner. Kahit na masama ang aking loob kay Calvin dahil nagalit ito pero dahil isa akong marupok pagdating kay Calvin ay nagpadala na naman ako sa mga halik nito saakin. I feel threatened by his cold attitude that's why I came up with the idea that I wouldn't taking my pills so I'll be pregnant with our child. Calvin don't want me to be pregnant because he said he is still young for having a baby. Naiisip ko rin minsan na baka ayaw lang nito na magkaroon kami ng anak dahil hindi ako ang babaeng pinapangarap niya na pagdadala ng kanyang anak. The thought hurt me. His manly scent invaded my nose. I really love his scent. Nagpatuloy ito sa kanyang pagluluto. "I will not going to stay here." I unwillingly nodded and smile to ease the pain I am feeling right now. I didn't ask because I don't want him to be angry at me. Binigyan ko ang kanyang likod ng halik. Hindi na naman sa bahay na binili niya para saamin. At ang nakakalungkot ay matatagalan na naman ito sa pagbalik. He off the gas stove and he stop from cooking when his phone keeps on ringing. Pinabayaan ko ito at pinananuod ang kanyang likod. Nasaktan ako ng sobra ng nakita ko itong nakangiti ng makita ang caller. Sabi nga nila curiosity kills the cat. I am damned curios right now. With a slow step I followed Calvin and I found him feet away from my direction. I slowly open the door nagtago ako sa isa sa mga haligi. "I'm on my way love. I love you too and I miss you so damn much." I heard him chuckle. Bumalik ako sa kusina. I knees is trembling so bad. Anytime for now I think I will breakdown. I don't want Calvin to notice that I overheard him should I say I am eavesdropping. I smiled sweetly at him and I tried to kiss him on the lips but it landed on his cheek. I am blushing right now because of the embarrassment. I don't want him to feel guilty kaya I giggled like a teenager. I am hoping na sana sa paghagikhik ko ay matakpan ang masakit na ginawa niya. "I need to go." He said. Naglakad ito pataas at ako naman itong timang sinundan Ito. I am watching his every move magkasalubong ang dalawa nitong kilay. Parang kanina ay panay ang halik nito at just a minutes earlier he doesn't want to be kissed. Hinatid ko Ito hanggang sa gate ng two story na bahay na pinangalan niya saakin. I waved my goodbye and U didn't have any reply. He pretended that he didn't see that I am waving at me. Pumasok ako at nilock ang pinto ng gate saka lamang bumuhos ang luha na kanina ko pa pinipigilan. Iyak ako ng iyak at hindi ko na magawang kainin ang niluto nitong ulam saakin. I will just hope that Calvin won't break up with me. Tinignan ko ang dala nitong paper bag kanina. With the heavy heart I smiled when U saw what on the first paper bag. He buy or should I say he ordered his secretary to buy my favorite cookies. I take a small bite of my favorite cookies. This cookies is my stress reliever. Everytime I eat this brand of cookies my stress or problem for a while will fade. The moment I will eat cookies my brain would stop working and my mouth will stop working. I open the second paper bag. I am not materialistic that's why I don't appreciate designer bag, purse and etc. I am okay wearing an ukay and other second hand things. Galing all sa hirap kaya sanay akong magsuot ng mumurahin. Perfume and other such as lacy panties and bra even lingerie is in the paper bag. Calvin love seeing me wearing lingerie and lacy underwear. I am not comfortable but Calvin love seeing me wearing one that's why I am wearing them. Calvin never send me a message or didn't dare to call. Nanood ako ng tv ngayon this is one of my boring day. Kaya nakahilata ako sa kama. Hindi pa naliligo at kumakain ng pop corn. Napabangon ako ng makita ko so Shiela ang asawa ni Calvin na nakangiti sa harap ng camera. "Yes, yes we are expecting a baby eight months from now." Marami pa itong sinabi pero nagiging bingi na yata ako dahil hindi ko na narinig ang iba pa nitong sinasabi ng makita si Calvin na nakangiti sa harap ng Camera at ingat na ingat sa asawa nito. I cried silently. Hanggang sa nakatulog ako sa pagod kakaiyak. Napabangon naman ako kinaumagahan ng maramdaman ang pagkalam ng aking sikmura. Agad akong nagtungo ng banyo ng banyo ng parang may humahalukay saaking tiyan. Naiiyak naako dahil puro laway na lang ang aking nasusuka at masakit na saaking lalamunan. Naghilamos muna ako ng aking mukha bago ako lumabas ng aking silid. Nitong nagdaang araw wala akong ibang gingawa kundi manood ng TV. Ayaw ko naman na galawin ang cellphone ko dahil madi-disappoint ako kapag wala akong natanggap na mensahe rito. Dalawang linggo na rin akong hindi lumalabas kaya ngayong araw ay gusto kong pumunta ng mall. At bumili ng stock sa bahay dahil baka dumating si Calvin at wala akong stock. I am wearing a highwaist short and a white oversize s**t. I will be at the mall real quick baka dumating si Calvin e. Kaya nga ako hindi lumalabas ng bahay ay dahil hinihintay ko so Calvin na umuwi saakin. Baka kapag lumabas ako ay siya namang pagpunta niya saakin. My goodness they are expecting a baby maybe this time I will set Calvin go. Maybe we aren't really meant to be. I really hate the fact that we aren't meant for each other. I just found myself in the grocery store and holding a cart. Marami na rin akong nabili ng huminto ako sa napkins. Dalawang linggo na rin akong delayed baka natagalan lang ito ngayon. Hindi naman bago iyon saakin. Baka buntis ako dali-dali rin akong umiling dahil nagbago na ang isip ko. Gusto ko pa ring magkababy kami ni Calvin pero dahil buntis so Shiela ayokong maging selfish. "Miss Can I ask?" Tumingin ako sa lalaki. Ang kulot nitong buhok ay medyo magulo. Matangkad Ito at meron itong a well tone body. Just looking at his shirt you know that he has a six pack abs . If you are looking to a guy with abs the guy is perfect for you. "Yes?" I smiled to him a friendly one so that he wouldn't be shy asking. "I'm kind of shy but do know the napkin brand." He whispered. Bahagya tuloy akong natawa. The brand he just said is the brand I am wearing when I am in my period. Namula pa ito ngumisi ako sa kanya. "Here." Inabot ko sa kanya ang dalawang pack ng sanitary napkin. "Can you give me more." He pleaded. Kumuha paako hanggang sa makaabot ako ng sampu saka niya palang ako pinahinto sa pagkuha sa shelf. "Thank you very much miss?" "Blessica Amore." Naglahad ako ng kamay dito. "James Heritage. I am very sorry to disturb you my girlfriend ask me to buy her napkins. I am very sorry." I nodded at him and I smiled nagpaalam na itong aalis.