Hermit Record

Red lover

I put on my red and white

It's as merry as ever

I quickly share a kiss with myself

Before leaving the house hurriedly.

I look radiant

I look good

He will be proud

I skip around , half jogging and running

I see couples smile down at me

Awe in their eyes

I am swimming in my dream

Only it's real .

It's Valentine, yes .

Nevermind, I'm red cross and I just got a raise .

In my dreams 

I do break down 

Why I hear my heart pounds 

Is really a funny tale

Later or not if I make it 

I want to discover what it means to be happy.

In my head 

I do laugh 

I call my mind Alice

And tell her what I want to be told 

I have friends

I have a home 

Someday later, when I recognise I love them

It'll be too late 

And I'll have to start the third time again 

 I see other kids

Enjoying their timeline

They didn't come too late 

And their mama' wanted them alive .

Their fathers too.

Not some old toddler.

Too young to breath.

To old to run .

In the later days, I hope to smile .