Hermit Record

I put on my red and white It's as merry as ever I quickly share a kiss with myself Before leaving the house hurriedly. I look radiant I look good He will be proud I skip around , half jogging and running I see couples smile down at me Awe in their eyes I am swimming in my dream Only it's real . It's Valentine, yes . Nevermind, I'm red cross and I just got a raise . In my dreams  I do break down  Why I hear my heart pounds  Is really a funny tale Later or not if I make it  I want to discover what it means to be happy. In my head  I do laugh  I call my mind Alice And tell her what I want to be told  I have friends I have a home  Someday later, when I recognise I love them It'll be too late  And I'll have to start the third time again   I see other kids Enjoying their timeline They didn't come too late  And their mama' wanted them alive . Their fathers too. Not some old toddler. Too young to breath. To old to run . In the later days, I hope to smile .