I'm Your Alpha, not Your Luna

Misunderstandings

Lucy POV

Even though I definitely wanted Sawyer to kiss me and was giving him all the signs, I could not stop myself from stiffening when he pressed his lips against mine. We had been talking about the coincidence of his wolf being named Red and him being the fated mate of the future Alpha of the Red Moon Pack when I was reminded of how the Goddess does everything for a reason. I was happy that she gave me such a good match and grateful that I let Lexa and Indigo talk me into giving him a chance, and I knew the emotions were showing on my face. Sawyer started leaning toward me, and I didn’t stop him. But still, I was shocked at myself for finally letting a guy kiss me, for letting my guard down.

Since this was my first kiss, I did not have a frame of reference to compare it to, but oh my gosh, kissing Sawyer was amazing. Sparks lit up all over my body and my head was spinning. I could not focus on anything but Sawyer. Indigo was howling with happiness in my head and I couldn’t help but agree with her sentiment. Sawyer and I had a lot in common, and he was really trying to show that he was not after my position and that he wanted to support me. I was happy too. I was about to reach up and wrap my arms around Sawyer’s neck when he pulled back suddenly. I was tempted to hide my disappointment, but he had been so open with me, so I wanted to give him the same respect.

“What’s wrong? Why did you pull away?” I asked Sawyer. Maybe after kissing me, he decided he didn’t want me. Or maybe it was a trick all along, just to see if I would fall for his tricks and let him in. My eyes started to sting with the threat of tears full of embarrassment and pain, so I immediately threw my walls back up and turned away from him.

“Lucy, wait-” Sawyer began.

“No, it’s fine. We tried, and it didn’t work. You made that clear. It’s fine.” I babbled, waving away his excuses with my hand and not even really paying attention to what was slipping out of my mouth. Indigo was whimpering in my head, just as confused as I was. This was exactly why I did not want to let anyone in, even my mate, because I knew I would get hurt someway, somehow.

“If you’ll just let me explain-” Sawyer tried again, a flustered look on his face.

“You don’t have to. It’s fine. I understand. We don’t need to talk about it or prolong the awkwardness anymore. Just go ahead and reject me so that we can get it over with. Then you can go home after the meeting and we can both get on with our lives.” I said, crossing my arms and turning back to face him fully.

“Why did your mind instantly go to the worst possible scenario? I was only going to make sure that kissing you was okay before we went any further. I felt you tense up so I was just checking on you!” Sawyer yelled, his anger clear on his face. “Why did you assume I was going to reject you just because I pulled back after kissing you? Is everything okay?” He asked. While his face was still showing anger, I could hear the understanding in his voice.

I sat back down on the rock, mostly because my legs gave out from underneath me. “I…I genuinely am so used to men not believing in me and my strength, with the exception of my dad, it was so easy to believe that you didn’t like kissing me and wanted to reject me. If you haven’t noticed, I really don’t have that much faith in myself. Plus, I was afraid the second I let you in that something bad would happen, so I was already kinda paranoid about the whole thing.” I looked down, fiddling with a piece of grass again. “Do you want to reject me? Was kissing me that awful that you instantly pulled back?” I asked, finally gaining the courage to look him in the eye.

Sawyer looked utterly crushed at my question. “Of course not. I was very much enjoying it and would like to kiss you more-I just wanted to make sure that it was okay with you since I did not ask first. I’m not going to reject you-I find you beautiful and wonderful and I consider myself lucky in being paired with you. I understand why you may have thought that way at first though, and I promise to do better from now on.” He said, plopping down beside me and taking my hand in his.

Dummy! You should have more faith in Sawyer. He is a blessing from the Goddess! Indigo teased me, sticking her tongue out at me.

“I’m really sorry. I should have had more faith in you. Clearly, I have trust issues, but I promise to work on them. Can you forgive me?” I asked, feeling really stupid.

“Of course. You’re my mate; I’m not sure there is anything you could do that I wouldn’t forgive. Plus, I could have handled the situation a little better, so we could both improve.” Sawyer replied with a smile.

To show my appreciation for him, I leaned forward and took Sawyer's face in my hands, pulling his lips fiercely against mine.

“Mine!” he whispered against my lips before deepening the kiss and placing his hands on my hips. I moaned softly against his mouth as sparks lit up everywhere he touched. I found myself pressing closer against his body, further demonstrating that the Goddess made us for each other because we fit together absolutely perfectly. Being a little daring if I do say so myself, I slipped my tongue into his mouth and explored it. Sawyer let out a soft growl at my action and tightened his hands on my waist. He was a really good kisser, and it was already so easy to get lost in his touch. I guess it was because of the mate bond, but all I could think about was Sawyer; his lips on mine, his hands on my hips, body pressed against mine. Everything felt right, and suddenly I was no longer worried about the Alpha position being taken away from me. The future felt safe and secure because I would have the support of my mate, and it felt amazing.

I gasped in surprise as suddenly I was being lifted into the air. Like clockwork and without breaking the kiss, I automatically wrapped my legs around his waist, causing Sawyer to moan against my lips. As we continued to make out, I felt a funny sensation that started in my belly and flowed all the way down to my most private area. I felt moisture pool in my panties as Sawyer’s kisses and touch turned me on. I never knew a man could make me feel like this, but my mate made me feel beautiful and sexy.

I felt more than heard another soft groan leave his lips as his p***s began to grow hard beneath me. I found myself wanting to touch it, to stroke it, but did not want to move too fast. Instead, I twined my fingers through his hair at the nape of his neck. This prompted another moan from him, and I felt his erection pulse beneath me.

Sawyer broke the kiss and pulled back to gaze into my eyes, resting his forehead against mine. I left my hands in his hard. We were both panting and just gazed at each other for what felt like hours.

“That was…” I finally started to say.

“You are…” He began at the same time. We both laughed and then he said, “you go ahead.”

“That was…amazing, breathtaking even. I enjoyed that, and I think I would like to do it again sometime. But for now, I think we should be getting back. The meeting will start soon, I’m sure.” I said, although the thought honestly disappointed me a little bit.

“Yeah, I agree. You are beautiful and make me feel so good when you touch me, it’s like you’re an angel or something.” Sawyer said, giving me a cheeky smile and placing me back on my feet. “We should be getting back before people think we were out here having sex.” He laughed as both of our eyes wandered down to the bulge in his pants.

“While you most definitely turned me on, you don’t have to worry about me pushing you into anything until you’re ready. I know I’m ready and I am sure about how I feel about you, so you are in control. You take the lead in everything we do, and I will be waiting for you, my mate.” Sawyer said, giving me an intense but loving look and taking my hand.

“That sounds perfect. Once again, handsome, I appreciate you more than you know.” I said, leading the way out of the woods and back to the packhouse.

“So this may sound silly, but…want a piggyback ride?” Sawyer asked with a boyish grin.

I couldn’t help but give a laugh full of adoration and nodded my head. He knelt down so I could climb onto his back and wrap my arms around his neck. He put his arms under my legs to support them. I should have been afraid of what the pack members would say when we arrived at the packhouse, but honestly, I did not care.

Sawyer, what were you doing to me?

Unknown POV

I sat in the woods near the clearing and watched Lucy and the guy with her, her supposed mate. At first, they just talked, so I had a hard time believing that she had done something as stupid as to accept him as her mate. But then when they kissed, argued, then kissed some more, very intently at that, I knew the information the informant on the inside had given us was true. Lucy had found her mate, and she had very clearly accepted him.

My thoughts were further confirmed when she climbed on his back and rode him piggyback out of the woods. It was extremely uncharacteristic for Lucy, so this male, her mate, was already weakening her. It was perfect news for our plan though, and her mate looked like he could pass as an Alpha.

Snickering maniacally to myself, I dialed the boss's number to tell him what I had just discovered. He was definitely going to make me Beta of the pack after making Lucy’s mate the Alpha for sure after I gave him this mission-saving information.