Roses
1562 Words
I lived five years of complete bliss just to have them taken away like nothing. I now have been living three years of hell and torment. I thought I would never write anything down ever again. What for? What was the point? My life meant nothing. I was just the shell of a man. I thought about taking my own life plenty of times but my family looked at me as if I was selfish to even think of that. I was lost and going mad. I needed her. I wanted her. I felt myself longing for her embrace. I removed everything of hers and put it at the other end of this enormous cage. The mere presence of someone unknown brought my devilish soulless beast out. I took great pleasure in torturing these fools who dare to step foot near my land. I ruled with an iron fist. You did not disobey me. My own family was afraid of me. They tried to sit civil and patient at the dinner table. Pretending I cared or gave a damn about their opinion of what I was becoming. My father told me a few times he was disappointed. My mother cried and begged for me to change. She almost tried to bring up my BELOVED. No one mentions her or dares speak her name near me. She was dead and so was I. I felt nothing. I had no emotional connection to anyone. Not even my pack. Either they followed me or they died. Not like they had a choice. They did as I said. They could choose to defy but I really am a scary son of a b***h. My beta Lucas was my closest friend as a child. We both knew what we would become when we grew older. His father was my father's beta. My inner circle, my best warriors, and my personal guards; Perry, Mitch, and Paul. They blindly followed me through thick and thin. They maintained we are a family vibe with the others. I was grateful but really didn't care otherwise. Mitch and Paul were the only ones mated. I didn't mind at first. Mitch was mated 3 months after I found... but after a while, I had to establish a new law. No mated wolves were to come anywhere near the alpha at any point. I couldn't stand their glances and smiles. I didn't want to be reminded of what I had lost. It was only last year I had decided to stop fighting the urge of a certain type of touch I yearned for. I closed off all my senses and slept with numerous women I can't even remember now.
The night my mother brought the invitation she had gotten from the Collins. They were nice people but if I saw them again I would kill them myself. My mother looked at me with warm eyes and pleaded with me to go. I laughed. My father got angry so I just laughed harder. They had brought my younger twin sisters with them. I barely saw them anymore. Katherine and Madelyn. They were seven now. They had beautiful golden brown ringlets. They were sweet and charming young girls. I cared for them deeply and was a very doting older brother. They were good practice for when I ... we had children of our own. I didn't want them to grow up and know me as a monster. They were always afraid of monsters and evil villains from fairy tales. I was now an evil villain and I rather keep them at arm's length then have them witness my madness. They were four when it happened so they didn't really understand it. They just knew I was lonely and sad now without her. My family was still in my office trying to convince me to go meet these people. I became disgusted at the thought of these people having a part of my love in them. I should have her not them. I hated that they took her from me. I ran out of the mansion and ended up in the last place I wanted to be. I had made my way to the clearing and felt a sharp pain in my heart. As I turned around to leave this place I suddenly felt a warmth in my heart. I walked over to the water and saw my reflection. I really had let myself go. My hair was longer along with my beard. I felt the wind brush against my skin. It felt as if it was trying to embrace me. I instantly felt calm. I heard a very low inaudible whisper. It came and went. My wolf who hardly comes out spoke to me. He felt like it was a good idea to go meet these people. Feeling any type of our mate's presence was better than nothing. I felt disgusted again. My wolf never really tried to get me to go back to who we use to be. He didn't mind the beast we had to become. He was in pain too. He decided to live dormant until he got bored and wanted to hurt like he was hurting. The night our mate died we went out and killed humans. It was wolf law to not kill humans unless they interfered with our world even then it was a last resort to kill one. I didn't care I was too powerful to be stopped. I fought back my wolf's thoughts but I felt some type of need to listen as well. I walked back inside and went to the office. I told my mother to make the arrangements and I would go with her.
I decided to go with my mother and we brought along my four most trusted pack members. They would keep my mother safe if needed. I was always very fearful when my family headed anyplace nowadays. I remember approaching the building and already feeling uneasy. I let out a huge breath and kept with this infuriating plan. I really wondered if everyone in my life thought this would ease my pain. The audacity to assume so. We had reached the hallway and I stopped dead in my tracks. I smelled the most heavenly scent. Pure ROSES. It was so intoxicating and delicious. I had to be near it but I fought myself. My wolf came forward and I became upset. I started to argue with my mother. Why did she have to bring me here? Why was this happening now? I wanted to run far far away and never look back. I knew this feeling all to well and my wolf did too. I took a deep breath and punched the wall closest to me. Mr. and Mrs. Collins came out to say hello and they tried to persuade me to come inside and meet the recipients. I felt my heart sink and I growled. I left in such a rage. I didn't even know where I was headed too. My mother had stayed with Faith's family and was going to stay there till we left in the morning. I need to get a drink and distract myself from killing those people in that room and everyone who played a part in today.
My heart came to life as soon as I saw her. She was happy and filled with so much energy. I looked at her from afar. She was drinking a lot and that concerned me. She orders so much food and that made me chuckle I remember the looks my men gave me. They hadn't seen me look delighted in a very long time. When she got up to dance I made my way closer to her. I need to be near her. I need to breathe her in. Her scent was ravishing. The way she moved made me feel like never before. I wanted her to stop because I couldn't stand anyone else witnessing this but I wanted her to keep going. I was mesmerized by her every move. Can she feel the things I feel right now? I wanted to grab her wavy blue-black hair. I wanted to touch her soft skin. She was of average height and quite curvy. Her backside was calling to me. I wanted to make her mine. I hadn't seen her face yet but I didn't care. I reached out to touch her and then she was pulled into the arms of another. I wanted to kill this guy standing in front of me. I looked her in the eyes and those eyes. The iciest blue I had ever seen. I could feel everything inside me completely come undone. I needed her. My wolf and I called out "MATE." I wanted to know her. Know everything about her. One thing I knew for sure is she was bold. She took her two companions and went back to her table just like that. She left me standing there with every urge I had gained in mere seconds of being in her presence. I walked back to the bar with the guys and told them we had a job to do tonight. I think by now they knew what had happened. I didn't claim her as my mate out loud but my attitude was unmistakable. I would take her tonight.
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