Betrayal of the heart

I sat at the extreme end of the restaurant just close to the window. Looking out to the night sky while my coffee still remained untouched. So deep in thought that I didn't notice it was already late and the coffee I ordered earlier were now cold. Trying to control the tears that was finding it way out of my eyes, I continuously bit my lips. Showing no mercy to my poor lips which am sure were now swollen with slight bruises. I didn't want to believe what I saw earlier today. I was hoping he could at least explain himself or maybe beg me with the claim that it was a foolish mistake on his part. Maybe i wouldn't be feeling the way I am right now. But all my thought were thrown aside when he showed me the divorce papers. That moment i felt my body turn rigid. So many questions ran through my mind that instant. Did i do something wrong? What suddenly changed? I couldn't even bring myself to ask if i offended him in anyway. Because am sure i didn't. The whole thing happened as if he already had the intention of divorcing me all these while. It was just a week ago, I traveled abroad for a business trip. At first I was doubtful about leaving home because i wouldn't want to leave Nicklaus alone managing the small company we had managed to raise together. We could have sent a representative over there, But Nicklaus insisted I go myself. I thought he was just being careful and wanted the contract to go as planned. As this will definitely elevate the company to a much higher position. Who would have thought this was his plan after all. I had returned home early this morning hoping to surprise Nicklaus. It never occurred to me that i would be the one to receive a surprise instead. I had gotten myself into the house using my spare key. The parlor was empty as well as the kitchen. My instinct was that he could be in the bedroom still sleeping. It weekend after all. My intention was to shout surprise immediately i opened the door but instead I was welcomed with the greatest shock of my life. I still found it to believe. But it true. Every thing happened right before my very own eyes. A lady laying naked on our bed. With a white duvet covering herself. Her hair was a bit messy, lips swollen and love bite was visible on her exposed neck. Seems they just finished doing it. My gaze fell on Nicklaus who held no surprise look upon my sudden arrival. Did he despise me that much. Even though he wanted to cheat why do it in our home. I felt tear struggling to push their way out of my eyes. But i was resistant enough to hold it back. I don't want Nicklaus thinking am at his mercy. "Welcome back home Abigail". He said with a mischievous grin. Standing up from the bed he took some papers from the table stand beside the bed. Handing them over to me. Abigail? I can't even remember the last time he called that. "Here sign this". He said. My gaze fell on the papers on his hand and I felt all the cells in my body popping out of my brain. He want a divorce all of a sudden. We never had any misunderstanding. I remembered the day when I left for the airport, he was resistant to let me go. What then happened all of a sudden. For a moment there I wanted to believe maybe he was possessed by something. But then I received another mind blowing shock that made me felt like a living dead. The lady on the bed was his secretary whom I had hired due to pity. She had approached me that day at the cafeteria where I went for my lunch break, Pleading that i help her secure a job in the company. Yes I was really impressed by her asset and modesty. That was the main reason why I employed her after all. Who would have thought she could stoop so low to be a mistress. and to cap it all both of them had being lovers for over five months. I couldn't believe Nicklaus had being cheating on me for over five f*****g month. I have being so foolish. So foolish and blinded. All these while i thought i was the only woman in his eyes. My gaze swept through him again then back to the lady on the bed. Pretending as if i had seen nothing. I took my luggage and burst out of the building. I AM DONE TRUSTING MEN. I said within myself. A statement I pledged to never go against. Ma'am it morning already. You've being here for over Seven hours is everything alright. A voice sounding with a bit of concern suddenly brought me out of my thought. I looked at the waitress standing before me. Wearing a peach colored floral dress and a black apron tied around her neck. I won't deny it but she looked so beautiful with her hair parked in a pony tail. She had no make up on, but am sure if she did. She was sure to capture a lot of attention. I gaze swiftly at my wrist watch and discovered it was already morning. A surprise look swept through my face. I didn't know it was this late. My gaze shifted back to the pretty waitress before me who now wore a look of concern on her face. Was she worried about me? Couldn't help asking myself within Ma'am is everything alright? I had her asking. Hemmm..... Yes am fine Sorry for keeping you worried. Was carried away. Ah ah.... I said sounding a bit awkward. Even giving out a fake laughter. Am sure she will think am crazy now. Curse you Nicklaus!! I said within. Hemm I will be on my way now. Thank you. Thank goodness she came over to bring my attention back to the real world. Taking my luggage along with me I walked towards the exist. After walking few distance away I suddenly turned back to the waitress and instantly felt her gaze on me. As if she had anticipated i would turn back to her. " Men are scum. Please don't waste your time on them." I said before leaving. What the!!!!!! Why did i suddenly said that to her? Now she will definitely think am crazy? Arghhhhh Abigail get yourself together you i***t. I cursed my self. Walking down the lonely street along side my luggage. It was winter and so the cold outside felt so unbearable. I clutched my hand inside my warm jacket while the other was exposed outside dragging my luggage. Well, i couldn't stay outside for too long don't wanna end up freezing to death. Although it already morning i still need somewhere to rest. Being awake all night long after all. I went straight to a hotel to spend the rest of the day. "No one needs me anymore" I kept lamenting within. More like I was convincing myself to believe it. After booking an accommodation for two days. I went straight to my room. Locking the door behind. I felt all the tears I was holding all this while suddenly bursting out of my eyes almost blinding me. I couldn't explain why I was crying all of a sudden? Yes i wouldn't deny that I loved Nicklaus Soo much. So much that I had to do something I now regret ever doing.