Violets Addiction

Chapter 7

Its been 24 hours and i know the decision to take him off life support is coming up in a few minutes. I just dont know if i can basically tell them to kill him completly. He may not be breathing on his own but he can hear me, he can hear me tell him i love him and what about if i tell them to take it off what if he cant ever hear what i got to say again.

I dont know if i can do it Chris. I said pasing the floor scared

Its okay, Do whatever you want, but do whats best for him as well sweet heart. Chris said softly

I know i want him to be free and i know he wants to be free and i want to set him free but it is hard for me. I am gonna miss him so much Chris. I said crying as Chris came walking up to me holding.

Its gonna be okay, He will always be in your heart baby okay? Chris said rubbing my back

I know. i said as the doctor walked in

Have you made the decision yet? The doctor said

i look at Chris, Chris looks at me yes can i ugh can i have some time alone before you take it off i want to make sure he knows some stuff before he goes completely.

Yes of course. The doctor said as Chris walked up to me and kissed my forhead.

" Hey Danni. I dont think im completely ready to let you go but i remember its not only my feelings in this decision. I should care bout yours and i know you want to be let go and be set free. Yes, it will bring pain, sleepless nights, Crying constentley but in the end i know it will be okay cause i know you will be okay, Set free and happy. Thats all i want is to make sure you have a smile on your face all the time. I want you to wake up and smile i want you to go to bed and smile. I never want you to stop smiling and i never want you to shed another tear. Your going up to heaven, I hear life is amazing and peaceful up there. Im gonna let the let you go and im gonna try and stay strong for you but Best friend i cant make any promises that i wont cry but just know im not crying cause im mad or sad im crying cause im happy you are going to find your happiness else where. If its not with me then i want it to be somewhere you are okay I can make it cause i know you will be the angel who looks over me through everything. Im gonna miss you Daniel. I love you so much. "

After i said all that, I held his hand and cried i tried to stop but i just couldnt stop its like the pain was to much to bare and i cant handle letting him go but i was soing it for mecause i cant keep him in the situation that he is right now. I hope he is happy there i really do. A few moments later Chris and the doctor came in and Chris grabbed my hand then took me to the waiting room.