Violets Addiction

Chapter 5

As sitting on a chair in the waiting room, The doctor comes up to me and my leg is shaking bad and i jump us as he says my name.

Any news? i asked scared

Im sorry, Not just yet. but i came to ask if you would like to come and see him? The doctor asked

Yes, Yes! I said almost in tears

The doctor leads me in the room to where he was and he was in room 123 and he was just laying there with a tube in his mouth not even a care in the world i started to tear up.

He might not be able to talk back but he can hear what you are saying Ms. Violet. The doctor said

T..Thank you Doctor Dan. I said while crying

As the doctor walked away i go up closer to Daniel and i take his hand and i hold it. I hold it and lay my head on his chest as i cry really hard but im trying to be quiet as i know there are other sick people and didnt want to disturb them. I Hold his hand even tighter and i remember the doctor said he can hear me so i decide to talk to my best friend even though i didnt understand if he cant breathe on his own what makes him think he can hear but i was gonna talk to him anyway no matter what. I Couldnt take the pain anymore i really just wanted the pain to end, i needed my best friend to talk to but he wasnt there anymore he was gone and i couldnt believe this was actually happening. I held in my tears for Daniel so if he could hear me he wouldnt feel bad for making me feel the way i do even though it wasnt his fault in the first place.

" Hoo! Okay, Hey Daniel. How are you doing? I miss you already and you have only been on this thing for 8 hours you have got to wake up. You have got to make it through this, i swear i wont make you go to therapy anymore. All i wanted was for you to stop taking pills and cutting yourself. I thought i was helping you save your life i really did not even mean to end your life. I dont quite understand why you did this i may not know the whole story at all but i just know that i want you to know if its cause of Chris then dont mind him, He doesnt matter okay. Your not a faggot. You are Daniel, i know it is hard to seem like your diffrent from everybody but baby your not you were uniqe in your own way which made me love you, you were funny, weird, smart but all in diffrent occasions. You knew when it was time to play around and you knew when it was time to be serious. Im not trying to make it sound like what you did is a bad thing cause its not god knows you did what you thought was best for you, i understand you were un happy but why not come and talk to me. i was here you know i was always here. We were ride or die buddies and then you go and die on me i cant survive this world without you. You were the only guy that knew me and accepted me with every single flaw. I love you please come back. Please Daniel. Please, please please. Make it through this i need you. i need you so bad you just dont even know. Im sorry for not checking on you earlier then maybe you would be in my arms right now. I dont know what to say but i just want you to know i am sorry if i was any reason to why you killed yourself. I love you, I love you so much. I am sorry."

After i talked to him i kind of just sat down next to him and held his hand with my head down on his hand. I heard the door open but i just figured it was my mom coming with the blanket she said she was gonna bring but as the door slowly opened i didnt dare look at it i wanted to concentrate all my emotion and focus on Daniel. I continued to think of the good times Daniel and i had until the door was completely open and it shut but my head didnt come up until i heard the voice and i immediatly raised mt head and i stood up.

What you doing here? I said kind of angry but still in tears

I just came to give Daniel some flowers and a card. She and he said kind of softly

No, you are the main reason hes in this hospital bed ON LIFE SUPPORT RIGHT NOW! I yelled loudly

Were his parents. They responded back

I DONT GIVE A CRAP IF YOU WERE GOD, IF HE IS IN THIS BED AND YOUR HALF THE REASON THEN NO YOUR NOT WELCOME TAKE YOUR FLOWERS AND CARD AND SHOVE THEM UP YOUR FAKE BUTTS! I said still screaming which led the doctor to come running in here.

What is going on in here? the doctor said

Were his mom and dad and we came to see him and she is yelling at us to get out. She said looking like she was bout to get her way

NO! Sir you see before he killed himself Daniel went to go see his father and they got into a fight cause Daniel was still gay and wasnt straight. To remind you also uhm they kicked him out and he came and stayed with us also my mom has custody over him so no not them. I said with a smart attitude

Okay well i cant tell them to leave but i can tell you that you have a certain amount of minutes to say good bye before you have to go. The doctor said

Were his parents Doctor.

But you dont have custody over him Ms.Violets mom does. so you have 20 minutes we will let you say your goodbyes in peace. Please come with me Ms.Violet. He said holding his hand out

I give daniel a kiss on the head and say ill be right back. as im walking by his parent i stop by the door before walking out and say I hate sorry excuses for parents. The only thing you want is the attention from everybody feeling bad for you cause your son killed himself, you didnt care before why now, Dont answer i know its only for poblicity. Then i walked off into the waiting room and sat down. As i was sitting there 5 minutes pass by and Chris shows up and He stops running in front of me like 2 feet away. I stand up and look at him with puffy eyes from crying so much and a red nose and smeered makeup with running mascarah.

Hey. He says looking at me with worry in his eyes

I wipe my eyes and as what he is doing here?

I came to see Daniel and i know you dont know why cause of what i did but i am sorry truely sorry and i wanna pay my respects and apoligize i want to plead for forgivness.