Every Day thoughts

Falling

I wake up and there I am

I look up and then I see a hand

I reached for it and to my surprise it pulled away

I reached for it again but slipped and it slowly faded away

Why did it do this? What have I done?

I been good to everyone yet here I am  falling  and no one will help

Will someone help me? Anyone

I want help. Just from someone

But no one will come

No one wants to help because no one cares

I guess no one will miss me

If I disappear

I keep falling and only think of my friends

Why won't they help?

I guess I don't mean anything to them

Will they even miss me?

Some days they look upon me with laughter or with pity

I guess they weren't really friends

Maybe this is what I deserve

Maybe falling and falling to somewhere deep down

My misery will fade and everyone will be happier

I keep falling and falling

Will my pain ever end?

Or will I live in agony

My life was the worst and this might be what's best for everyone

If I fall and fall until I can't be reached and nowhere anyone will find me.

I guess I never realized it but everyone was just waiting for me to fall. For me to slip up. I wanted to pretend everyone liked me and if I was nice it would become reality but I guess some people can never change what they think.

Just give up and don't look back

Fall and don't say goodbye

Cause no one will miss you

Maybe if I fall and disappeared from this life everyone's lives will change for the better