Every Day thoughts

I wake up and there I am I look up and then I see a hand I reached for it and to my surprise it pulled away I reached for it again but slipped and it slowly faded away Why did it do this? What have I done? I been good to everyone yet here I am  falling  and no one will help Will someone help me? Anyone I want help. Just from someone But no one will come No one wants to help because no one cares I guess no one will miss me If I disappear I keep falling and only think of my friends Why won't they help? I guess I don't mean anything to them Will they even miss me? Some days they look upon me with laughter or with pity I guess they weren't really friends Maybe this is what I deserve Maybe falling and falling to somewhere deep down My misery will fade and everyone will be happier I keep falling and falling Will my pain ever end? Or will I live in agony My life was the worst and this might be what's best for everyone If I fall and fall until I can't be reached and nowhere anyone will find me. I guess I never realized it but everyone was just waiting for me to fall. For me to slip up. I wanted to pretend everyone liked me and if I was nice it would become reality but I guess some people can never change what they think. Just give up and don't look back Fall and don't say goodbye Cause no one will miss you Maybe if I fall and disappeared from this life everyone's lives will change for the better