Tempted by the seductress

Chapter one   sunny   “ sunny you’re piece of s**t, the only thing you have to do in your miserable life it’s to take care of the kids and do what I tell you to do that’s all” I hear Nicholas say in my mind over and over again. “you have only one purpose in your life b***h, you know what it is? Yeah, just make me feel go, if you fail to do so, I have no use for you w***e” the more I resisted, the more he hit me. Slap, kick, punch. Slap, kick, punch. Slap, kick, punch.    “You will learn to obey me you piece of crap, if not your children will pay the consequences of your actions” He said throwing me on the floor, blood spilling from my mouth and nose. He slapped my face multiple times. When I was limp on the floor, pulling my hair threw me on the bed. Unbuckled his belt, bit my body all over and forced himself on me.   I ended up with a few broken ribs, black and red eyes, and all my body was beaten black and blue. I never had the courage and audacity to report him to the authorities. No matter how many times he did it over and over again. One simple “I’m sorry” from him was all it took for me to forgive him.   • - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -  I shifted in my sleep Feeling my heart constricting, “No, no, noooo!” I screamed and woke up, all sweaty and my heart pounding in fear. It’s been two years and I still sometimes wake up with the nightmares of Nick’s abuse.   I wish one day I can forget and erase all the damage he inflicted on me. But I doubt one day I will forget the horror I lived with him. I also doubt one day I will give my heart to someone else. I am broken beyond repair and no one can save me.   I’m sunny a 28 years old single mother of two adorable kids. I was 20 years old when I met Nick in the most unexpected of places. One day at the hardware store I was looking for some plants andgardening tools, I had a small garden on the back of the little apartment I rented, but I dreamt and hoped one day I will have my own house with a big backyard where I could plant every type of vegetables and beautiful flowers.   Where my kids can run and play happily andfreely.   When I first saw Nicholas, it was love at first sight.How stupid of me to believe love existed, I was frozen in place admiring that handsome, tall, muscular man, big green eyes, and a naughty smile that could melt any woman, the most beautiful creature I’ve seen in my life. I was young and foolish I gave all of me expecting him to reciprocate the love I gave him, but how wrong I was.   We dated for some time, and everything was perfect. Soon after we move in together, he was charming and caring at first, everything was about me, what I wanted, what I needed. Always trying to make me happy.   But soon everything started to change, he started drinking every day, his attitude towards me wasrude and aggressive, he was always moody. He even started to go out to nigh clubs with his friend frequently, and I wasn’t allowed to go with him because “that’s not a place for a decent woman” nick’s words, then he stared to abuse me physically and mentally until I couldn’t handle it anymore.   What changed? I don’t know, but for sure I’m not interested in finding out after what I went through for so many years.   Thanks to Nicholas I spent 6 precious years of my life stuck in a relationship that ruined my dreams, hopes, confidence, and almost my life.   Now being a single mom of two kids it’s not easy task, especially when you have no one to rely on. I have spent the last two years after I left Nicholas working as a waitress and bartender, working hard, barely spending time with my children, but nothing I earned was enough to support two growing children.     Friday night I was sitting at a bar with my friend Michelle she recommended that I should try working at her work place, I know what she did, but I was not the type of person to judge someone for their jobs “Sunny you have a spectacular body and angelic face” Michelle said. “You can make tons of money, those creeps all they want to seeis big t**s and round big asses” She said and I gasped. “You have it all babe” she said bringing a hand to my cheek Michelle is my best friend and I’m used to her being too close to me.   Never in my life I thought I could do that type of job, not that I criticize women that do that. I respect their decisions, but since Nick, I lost my self -confidence and self -esteem. As a woman I thought I wasn’t worth it of any attention. I don’t feel confident enough to show my semi naked body if front of hungry, s*x crazed men.   Furthermore, I didn’t consider myself a beautiful woman, nothing compared to Michelle. I know, I’m not stupid, to work in that kind of places womenneed to beautiful, sexy, sensual, and strong minded. Full of self- esteem and confidence. To flirt with the clients to be a temptress in order to gain as many customers as possible.   Michelle said the more clients you get, the more money you make.   Moreover, what am I? I woman whose ex-boyfriend used to beat and rape whenever he pleased.   Besides my experience with Nick I haven’t been with anybody else sexually or romantically involved. That simple fact won’t help me achieve my goals, I’ll need to seduce men and give my best smile to my clients, to act confident.   What’s more I’ll need to dance on a pole almost naked. Oh god!! do I even know how to move to entertain hungry men? Do I even want to expose myself to men like that? Do I have what it takes to drive men insane to follow me on every show I perform? “You can do it, you’re sexy as f**k. It’s not that you have to be completely naked or sleep with the clients” Michelle said. “But I don’t think I can do it Michelle, I am not as beautiful as you are and I bet all the girls that work there are same as you” I said and she shook her head “woman your beauty is out of this world you will be the most beautiful girl out there and will drive all men crazy” she winked we had a couple of drinks and dance for a while.   It’s being a while since I’ve being out in fact I haven’t being in bar before when I met Nick I was under aged and then he never allowed me to go out not even have a friend. I met Michelle after I run away from Nick and we have been friends since then, she has helped me when I had nowhere to go or money to support my children. She gave me a place to stay even when she knew nothing about me and I am grateful for that.    That night I tossed and turned for a long time and sleep wouldn’t come, many thoughts in my mind, what would my kids think of me if they were to find out in the future what my job was. Would people look down on me or them? when I doze off it was almost time to go to work. Is it worth it? I asked myself, all the tiredness and time I should be spending with my children. I thought about Michelle’s words. She could make in one weekend what I earn in one month.   But what if Nick finds me and finds out that I work in such a place, what if he tried to take my kids from me? Is he still looking for me after two years?   But I haven’t seen him in almost two years, I have to support my kids on my own, no one is coming on my aid.   That was all the encouragement I needed, the next day I called Michelle to make an appointment with her boss for an interview. She was static, happy she will spend more time with me.   I’m doing this for my kids, the rest of the world would be damned, for all I care.   I changed into one of my favorite black short dress that outline my body perfectly, black high heels. I apply light make up and looked at my refection in the mirror, well I have to admit I look kind of pretty I grabbed my handbag and headed to my interview.   Little did I know that day would change my life forever.