The girl who awakened me

It was 2022, another year looming ahead like a mountain to climb. Inside me, insecurity was a constant presence, a shadow that followed me wherever I went. Sometimes it showed itself forcefully, other times it just made me tremble with relentless questions. I was working at the Bologna station, selling tickets for Italo Treno, an railway company; A temporary job, without passion or deep connections. Yet now I know there was a reason I was there — an undeniable law that had led me to that exact place. One day, as I moved through the passengers, my gaze stumbled upon her. A young figure, always wearing light jeans and a black t-shirt. Silent but extraordinarily alive, she radiated an unusual sense of timelessness. She asked for change naturally, without a smile, and yet she seemed distant- but her eyes were like magnets, impossible to look away from. She is a girl begging for money. Our eyes met, and that moment marked the beginning of something unexpected and profound. In the following days, while I worked alone due to my colleagues quitting, my five-hour shifts at the station turned into a silent sweet obsession. No matter how many people surrounded me, my eyes were always drawn to her. It was as if reality itself bent around her presence, changing the atmosphere and its texture. There was a silent dialogue between us, a language made of glances. Every time she asked for coins, she would turn to see if I was looking. And I was — too intensely. My attraction blended with a mystery I had never experienced before, creating a charged, tense atmosphere. Then, one day, something unexpected happened. While a guy was standing next to me at the station, he gave her a coin. I waited until she left, then told him she asks everyone for money and that he should keep his distance from her because she's wary. And in that moment, I began to mentally repeat the sentences that would later come true because of the Law. My fear that she would say something to me because I warned the guy — a fear I kept reinforcing daily — caused the scene I had replayed in my mind to become real. It was then that my consciousness began sending me signals I would only understand much later: this is the beginning of an awakening.