INTREPID

SEMESTER BREAK

It has been a few weeks of new friendships,catching up on school and reading a lot of novels.I am slowly finding myself after that f*******: post and missing my grandmother.I am accepting that she is gone,I should learn to live without her but I will never stop missing her and wishing she were here with me.This week we have a semester break,you can either stay or go home to see your loved ones.As for me,there is no one waiting for me at home.There is just an empty house and I am not ready to go back there just yet.I will be writing my final year in two months anyway,so until then.

I have a plan on how I will spend this week in school.I will do a lot of reading and studying off course,so that I do not fatten the cow on the day of s*******r,you know what I mean.Grace is going home,I will miss her,one week without her is too long.She offered to pay for my transportation,she thought i didn't have money but I actually have a bit of money to get me going for few years,everything my grandmother hard was left in my name. That includes a house,two cars and her saving, but off course she doesn't know that,I haven't talked about my grandmother with Grace since she died.I also did not tell her how I was attacked by the rest of my family for the possessions that my grandmother left me.Even in her death she made sure that I would be okey.

Well, at least I will not be completely alone,I think Mike and his gang will be around.who would have thought we could actually be friends like this,I mean they are crazy but so much fun to be around.Life is unpredictable that's why we have no idea what tomorrow holds.I did not see myself being friends with Mike and I have gotten to know him in past few weeks.He comes from a broken home too,his parents are both doctors and they are on separation.He doesn't have a good relationship with his parents because they have always be busy with work and practically was raised by the workers in the house.I guess that's why he is also staying and not going home during the break.

I just said goodbye to Grace who almost stayed because she felt bad that I was staying in school.I know she knows what I am going through ,she hasn't even asked how I am coping without my grandmother she wants me to talk about it when i am ready .I assured her that I would be okay and Plus Mike is coming over in the evening.I have been reading a book for him called The Promise by Casey Micheals.It is an old book, but the story is beautiful. I just hate the fact that, the characters in the book are falling in love, and I feel like the reader is falling in love, too.It scares the hell out of me,but I am falling madly in love with him.I know he has feelings for me too but I don't know what to do with whatever this is.I wish I could avoid it but not seeing him has become hell for me,I hope he knows that.somehow I feel like what we have,doesn't need words because it can be felt with our hearts and that's very special.

It is getting late,he will be here soon.I have just finished tiding up the place and I have prepared some food.I hear a knock on the door,he is here.When I opened the door his face doesn't look like someone who is coming to lazy around and read a book with me.He said we needed to talk and it did something to my stomach.He told me that,tomorrow will be memorial day for his late sister. I had no idea he lost his sister,I just thought he was an only child.He didn't want to go this semester and I know its because of me and I feel terrible.why would he want to do something like this for me.He is leaving in few hours because I think his parents got upset with him and they have sent a driver to pick him up.

My mouth is still open because of what he has just said:I have to go Zo, but I am not leaving without you,I have told my mother about you and she is okey with you joining us,plus Grace would kill me if I left you here alone, I promised her that, I was going to be around when she came to threaten me before she left.If you refuse I will stay,how can I let him do that. Well, the Grace part put a smile on my face.I have agreed to go with him, and I don't know what I am doing, but I can not let him stay with me.

The ride to his hometown was quiet,and I didn't want to make things any harder.I started listening to my music to calm my nerves down,I don't know these people,how will I stay?.I don't want Mike to know that I am scared so that I can be supportive to him.I closed my eyes while listening to I won't let go by the rascal flats,I decided to put the left side of my headphone in his ear.He lifted his eyes to look at me,I can see that he is very sad.I grabbed his hand as the song was playing assuring him that I will stand by him and I will help him through with everything he is going through.We reached a bit late and went straight to bed.