Secrets

chapter twelve

I agree. I go to open the door further,  but trip over some of his clothes and accidently run straight into him. I turn around to apologise, but find myself kissing him. His lips are soft and taste like grapes, mixed in with a tinge of honey. He pulls away and I feel a bit of me go with him.

"Come here".

I go to him, I want him. He pulls me into him,

"Do you want to sleep with me tonight"?

I nod, because I feel like if I talk I could ruin the moment. He leads me to the bed and I lye down, he whispers something in my ear. I go to say something back and am interrupted.

"I love you and I will you until the day I die and if there is a life after that, I will still love you then".

His eyes are so full of love and hope, that I can never imagine living my life without him.

" I love you, because as long as I can dream, I will dream of you. You mean so much to me Tam, I can't imagine myself loving anybody else but you and I will always love you, no matter what".

I'm worried that I've over done it, all he is doing is looking at me.

"My father once told me, to love is to destroy and to be loved is to be the one destroyed. The thing is, love isn't weak, love is powerful. What I am trying to say is"...

He pauses and looks at me with unwavering love and adoration.

"Rose, will you be mine, will you stay with me and always be mine, forever and after that"?

"Yes, yes I will be yours. I will always be yours, always and forever".

God, I don't know how long I have wanted to hear those words. I love him so much that sometimes it hurts to breath.

"You know what, ever since I was little, I thought that no one would ever love me. All I wanted was to disappear from this world. We live and breath in words, it was books that stopped me from taking my own life. It was books that made me feel that perhaps I was not completely alone".

He gets up and goes to the wardrobe without a word, I hear a loud crash and he comes back out.

"Awe, did you fall"?

I smile and he scowls.

"No, I attacked the floor".

I start laughing and he smiles, that sexy as hell smile of his. The door bursts open and Dimitri storms in, he looks surprised to see me in Tamani's bed and he looks away.

"I should have known that you'd be in his bed, instead of your own".

I can feel my face burning, I want to answer but Tamani beats me to it.

"Well, why are you in here then. This isn't your room now is it"?

Now his face has gone red and I burst out laughing, I don't know why. I can't help it. The boys eyes go to me, but I can't talk. I'm still laughing, so I shrug instead. There is no point in explaining, because there is nothing to explain. I'm happy, I've got the guy I love and I am never letting him go nor will I ever stop loving him, because he is everything to me. He is now apart of me and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else  but here, because he is all I have ever wanted and all that I have ever needed in my life. I would die without him in my life right now, he is my ride or die and everything i hold dear to my heart. I wake up to Tamani staring at me,

"How long have you been awake for"?

He smiles,

" Quite awhile actually, you look so beautiful when you're sleeping".

My smile drops,

"What's wrong"?

My mum used to say that to me

"That's something my mother always used to say to me, whenever she would catch me sleeping in her bed or on the couch".

He gives me a funny look,

"When you lose someone, it stays with you. Always reminding you of how easy it is to get hurt".

I stare at him in astonishment, I didn't think that he would know what I was feeling, but of course he does. He probably knows how I'm feeling, because he has lost people close to him as well. I laugh and kiss him, I could definitely get used to this. Once we have disentangled ourselves from each other, I get up to go back to Tiana's room.

"I love you little miss".

 I look behind me and give him a wide smile,

"I love you too, Mr".

A smile escapes my lips and that is how I find my self the whole way to Tiana's. I walk into the bedroom, but what I find there, is something I never wanted to see.....EVER. Tiana looks up,

"s**t, ah, hi Rose".

My mouth has dropped, I'm standing there speechless, not knowing what to say.

"Um, I will come back later. Bye".

With that, I turn around and head back to Tamani's room. He's still in bed and asleep, I climb in and try not to wake him, but give a little yelp when he talks.

"Well, that was fast".

I look up at him,

"Yeah, that is because as soon as I opened up the door, I found Tiana and Dimitri doing you know what".

He starts laughing and I slap his shoulder.

"What was that for"?

The smile doesn't come off of his perfect lips, as he mocks being hurt.

"So, if we're vampires and all that, then why can we walk in the sun, like aren't we supposed to burn in the sun or something"?

God, he is so beautiful, the light shining off of his hair makes it look more like a chocolate brownie colour.

"We don't burn in the sun, because we aren't normal vampires".

Good thing we aren't, otherwise I wouldn't be alive right now.

"Would you kiss the sun goodbye and give your life to never die. Time is nothing, child of the night".

I turn my head and look up at him,

"Huh, what was that about"?

He smiles, a very sad and painful smile.

"My parents used to read me a book every night and that one was my favourite".