Secrets

Chapter eleven

Well nah dure, isn't it obvious? Isn't she supposed to be the one who can read my thoughts and feel what I am feeling?

"God you two are the same, he came in here before saying he didn't want you to change your mind about him".

Hahaha Who does he think I am? My mother?

"Well that is never going to happen, since all I can think about is him. Wait he came to you to talk about this, why didn't he just come to me"?

She looks at me, thinking for a little bit and then answers.

"I don't know, maybe because he thought that you would laugh at him or something. He's just unsure how you feel about him and that you might think differently of him".

I would never think different of him, I have known him since we were kids. Granted I haven't seen him since we were kids, but that doesn't mean that I don't know him.

"Hey T, do you mind if I talk to him or something. So that we both might not feel this way".

I don't know what to say next, she nods her head in understanding and we say no more. I walk into Tamani's room, he's already in here. It just feels so awkward between us now. I don't if it is just me or the both of us, it scares me and I don't know why. Wait that is a lie, yes I do know why but I just don't want to admit it. Am I going crazy? Or am I already crazy?

"Let me guess, you went to Tiana because you thought that she would understand because of the bond thing; but she just said that she thinks you need to talk about your feelings and that we need to talk about what is on our minds, otherwise our relationship will not work".

I stare at him in amazement, how did he know? Oh right, he also went to Tiana.

"Yeah, that's the exact same thing she said to me. Except we don't have a bond, but other than that we both know she was right. We do need to talk, because otherwise this relationship isn't going to work. So would you like to sit down and talk about it".

Yeah of course I want to talk about it, but what if I tell him and he doesn't want me anymore? Or worse, he never speaks to me again and ends our relationship. What relationship? Are we even in one?  Because we haven't exactly had enough time, mainly because of my parents. s**t,I still haven't said anything yet.

"Yeah, i do want to talk about it, but first promise me one thing".

He looks at me funny, but still says..

"Yeah, sure anything. Name it".

He looks so sure of himself and I'm sitting here in a nervous wreck, forcing myself to tell him everything and lay my heart bare, just hoping that he won't stomp all over it and crush it right in front of my face.

"Please, once I tell you everything, don't leave me. Please don't ever leave me. I love you too much to ever lose you".

"Okay, and rose"?

"Yeah"?

"I love you too and I would hate to lose you, I would die before i ever let that happen".

I can see in his eyes that he does love me, but is it enough when the time comes. By that I mean, will he still love me when the darkness takes over? I can feel it coming, no matter what I do to get away from the feeling, it still stays. Always there, always haunting, just awaiting the right time to strike.

"I love you Tam, but there is something that i think you really should know".

His smile is unsteady for a moment, but still he answers.

"Yeah, sure go ahead. I won't interrupt".

Well here it goes.

"I can feel the darkness, it's trying to take over. Always there, never leaving. I'm scared Tam, I am scared of what is to come and I am scared that it is coming for me, I'm scared that I am going mad. I don't want to be mad, I want to be normal and I want to have a normal life. I keep thinking that this is just a dream and that I am going to wake up one day to find out that I have been asleep this whole time".

I don't know what he is thinking, he isn't letting anything show on his face and I hate reading other peoples minds. It's an invasion of their privacy and It is just plain wrong.

"So, you think that a darkness is coming, or spreading"?

"The darkness has already come, it's here. Inside of me and it's spreading, it's trying to take over and I don't know what to do about it. I need help Tam, I think I am going crazy".

He stares at me for a minute, without answering. Probably deciding whether or not I am joking, there is a lot of staring going on lately.

"No, I don't think you are crazy. You are one of the sanest people I know and I know a lot of sane people, so if you say a darkness is coming then I suggest that we act on it. But for now come and get a bit more sleep, you are going to need it. Because if what you say  is true, we will be searching and fighting. We are about to be in the middle of a war".