Find me Falling

Falling for him

AH!!!!!

I'm still shaking. Did Excel actually reply me. Me, silly old me?.

What should I say ?

What should I tell him??

I'm having an emotional meltdown right now, debating over a guy I don't even know, I should remember my past experiences in a relationship which weren't nice

But still this guy is cute. I have to talk to him at least . So I summoned the courage and texted back

°°° It's just human to think of you, I mean we all need to have each other's backs right ??

Anyways I know this man that can be of help if you're still interested, I'm sending you his number now °°°

And then I hit send. Surprisingly he replied immediately

°°°Seems like you're always online ?. Almost as if you're waiting for me to reply ?.

Thanks for the guy's contact I'll send him a message now. I don't really know you, but I know you're a gem , priceless.°°°

"What's this one saying" I found myself talking to nobody and smiling while reading his texts that's when I knew I was finished, OTILOR

Because of a guy I met how many hours ago. Favour get a grip abeg . But what's it with his last sentence, which one is I'm a gem again, ah kiloshele, does he know me from anywhere...

But is this how our conversation is going to end no na, I still have to confess my feelings to him and....

I was cut short from my daydream as my elder sister Glory walked in

" You think as you've written jamb you have it all in life, dey play, you don't know you still have Waec and Neco ahead of you " and with that she left the room.

But she's right oh I still have waec and even Neco to write, I have to buckle up cause it won't be a walk in the park...

I can't just leave him on read na

°°° Waiting for you to reply ke, what are you feeling like this boy I know I'm a gem ?°°°

So we chatted all night and I finally went to bed.

The next morning I woke up bright and early and checked our last message, I posted something on my status and he replied to it with a voice note.

I kept playing the voice note over and over again... I think I'm falling in love, like head over heels in love. This could be dangerous oh .

°°° Good morning ? °°° I sent him a text and anticipated for his reply.

Immediately after our morning devotion, my phone notified me that I had received a new message.

I jumped on the bed where I kept my phone and checked immediately. I was disappointed to see a text from my friend asking how jamb went .

Oh great, just great. I decided to forget about excel and focus on my studies.

Days turned into weeks and weeks turned to a month since we talked last, and slowly I forgot about him.

Well, on to the next phase of my life.

Senior Waec was starting on Monday and today was the night before it. I already ironed my uniform skirt and set out the polo our school gave us to wear for the exam.

Everyone writing Waec always wanted to look their best because cute external students from other schools often came to write with us, it was a chance to flaunt your good looks.

~EXAM DAY ~

Track ¢¢|,Drivers License by Olivia Rodrigo

Marketing here I come. This time I'm not gonna get distracted. I marched in confidently into the school and I felt the wind in my hair like those indian heroines we see on tv, I was practically having my time in the limelight until it suddenly dawned on me that my Ex is also writing this same exam. I almost fell on my face.

What is all this na. Could this day get any worse.

On my way to the exam hall I bumped into someone on the stairs.

Cursed luck.

I was halfway in the apology when I raised my head and realized it was him Emmanuel Ebere, my Ex.

"Favour, how are you doing" He asked surprised at first but regained his composure as soon as our eyes met.

"I'm fine" I replied coldly and shimmied past him.

" Please wait , Can we talk, you didn't even give me a chance to explain myself, you never picked up my calls after the incident, can you just let me make things right??. Favour we've been together for a year now, don't do this, please" He said pretty much begging me to give him a listening ear.

I just walked away pretending like I didn't hear anything, But I heard everything and my heart was breaking inside.

He's right, we've been together for a year now and I don't think I can carry on without him, what's done is done though... I have to pick up the pieces of what's left of my heart and tarry awhile.

The exam was about to commence, we were sited according to our Surnames and mine began with an A so I was part of the front benchers but I didn't mind.

After the exams some people were going through the question paper to check if they answered well while others just chatted or flirted.

I felt suffocated so I followed the library stairs which was usually empty, I didn't want to bump into anyone again. On my way down someone grabbed my wrist and I jerked in surprise.

" Bun-bun can you just hear me out "

" Stop calling me that silly pet name you gave me and stop meeting me at inconvenient places like the stairs, just leave me alone Emmanuel" I screamed at him. I didn't even care who was listening in, it's their business if they want to do amebo.

" I already let you go once, and I'll be the biggest fool in the world if I make that stupid mistake again. I..."

" Just save it. I should've known better than to date someone named Emmanuel, it's those with Biblical names that would be doing the most, see where it landed me, Cheated on with a broken heart" I finally gave in to the tears I'd been holding back for some time now.

" Looks like I'm that biggest fool in the world..." I half smiled in pain

" For ever trusting and loving someone like you" I finished as a tear drop rolled down my cheek, he tried to wipe it away but I was quick to slap his hands away.

" Bun-bun I'm so sorry for hurting you the way I did. I'm a big fool for doing that and you can punish me in any way you please but don't leave me in this cruel world to face my demons alone, I can't live without you fay, you changed me and made me a better person, in fact you made me the man I am today. Favour you're the reason I get up in the morning, you're the only real person in this fake world and I can't imagine a life without you by my side. You are the light that brought me out of the darkness. My love you came into my life when I needed you the most and I can never look at the world the same way again, cause you taught me how to appreciate the little things in life like oxygen and my mother's kindness. You are my guardian Angel and I'm sorry love, but I can't let you go even if it's coming from you....." He confessed things he's never told me before even when we were still together.

And wait, is he crying .

I quickly withdrew myself from his hold.

" And you'll be leaving my life now when I need a shoulder to cry on the most. I'm over you " I lied, I don't know if I can ever get over him, we know so much about each other that it's dangerous not to be together. But I'd rather watch the relationship crash and burn than go back to him.

Maybe our destinies were never interwoven after all.

" Don't look at me with those eyes" he said

" What eyes " I asked confused

" Those eyes, I can easily see through those beautiful orbs and decipher every little emotion lacing out of them, I know you all too well" he said while leaning closer and somehow trapping me by stretching his arms by either side of my body.

" What are they saying" my curiosity got the best of me and I just had to ask.

" They're saying come closer, I hate you for hurting me, but I can't breathe when you're not near, I need you..." He said just inches apart from my face, his hot breath fanning me.

What's happening to me, why's my heart racing for this cheater. I mean maybe he had his reasons for doing what he did but it's unforgivable. Then why do I really want to seal the deal. This proximity between us, it's suffocating.

Emma was a half cast,his mum was from Cameroon and his dad was Nigerian. Maybe that's why I felt comfortable around him, he wasn't like other guys, he was different. or so I thought, till he broke my trust.

I still can't figure out why he liked me. I mean we are worlds apart.

He's the heartthrob of the school and I'm just the best friend in Hollywood movies who only exists to continue the story, the girl gets the guy while I'm standing off screen waiting for my que to be comedic releif....

Don't get me wrong I'm not an eye sore but I can't seem to understand why he would want to date me. Anyways, that story is over.

I have to start thinking about my future and get good grades in my external exams and get into a good university, cause if I don't, he's gonna study outside the country, Canada or something and I'll be crying over him doing JUPEB in some polytechnic while he'll be chilling with some white girl in College.

Favour you have to take control of your feelings and emotions and put yourself first this time. Don't give anyone or anything the power to dictate your happiness.

And with that I broke out of my thoughts and out of his reach.

"Emmanuel, we're done. Just act like we never happened" I said while backing him. I didn't want him to see my face, he'd know I'm not being honest and it would give him hope to keep trying harder.

I didn't wait to hear his reply as I sprinted down the stairs and outside the school gate. I put on my black nose mask and quickened my pace, I didn't want anyone following me, not even my friends I walked home with. I needed space.

I'm going home.