Diary of Secrets (bxbxbxb)

Chapter 8

We arrived at the movies and were currently in line for snacks and drinks. Dakota picked out some watermelon sour patch kids, Sebastian chose the sweet tart rope things and Damon chose milk duds. I scrunch my nose at all the sugary snacks my brothers picked and stick with good old fashion popcorn for myself. We make our way into the theater and choose our seats. The theater has those nice comfy reclining seats, so I share a set of seats with Damon, while Dakota and Sebastian sit in the ones next to us. The lights dimmed and the previews rolled in. We all commented on upcoming movies we'd either want to see or not by saying 'yay' or 'nay'. All the snacks were basically gone by the end of previews.

Soon the movie started, I'm a big scaredy cat of horror movies, so it's a wonder why I still want to see them. One scene begins the ominous music and I cling on to Damon's arm and tuck my head behind it, peeking over still watching but barely. I feel Damon chuckle and he put his arm around me so I can hide in his chest. I close my eyes and inhale his scent of Ralph Lauren's Polo Black and smiled to myself. All three of my brother's wear different colognes, which all smell sexually delicious might I add, and each of them fit their aesthetic perfectly. Sebastian wears Acqua Di Gio, which is my favorite of the three, and Dakota wears Nautica Voyage.  I open my eyes again when something scary pops on the scream, making me scream...like a girl, we aren't gonna lie, it was not manly at all. 

"I got you" Damon soothed. He shuffled on to his side facing me and just tightened his grip of his arm already around me and then brought his other arm to encase me into his protective shell. I peeked back at the screen and then continued to partially hide myself when the ominous music would start again. Most of the time, I just tucked in for the hell of it, I know it's just a movie but faking being super scared has it's benefits. My sexy protector, nuff said.  

The movie ended and we threw away our trash before making our way back to Damon's truck. 

"It wasn't even that scary" Dakota commented nudging me with his shoulder. 

"Says you" I stuck my tongue out at him and he mocked me by sticking his tongue back at me.

"Oh children, children" Damon tsked. "I am not a child" Dakota retorted and I rolled my eyes climbing in the back seat of Damon's truck. Dakota hopped in on the other side while Sebastian took shot gun. 

"Could've fooled me" Sebastian piped in on the conversation. Dakota scoffed putting a hand to his chest "How dare you, Seb, you're supposed to be on my side" 

"Pfft I'm on my side" Sebastian scoffed back. I chuckled as Damon started the car and we made our way home. I sat against the window thinking and I'd be a hypocrite if I really was upset that Matt kept something from me, because well I am keeping a big thing away from him. So I ended up texting him and asked him about Amber and how they came to be and I guess she was one of the girls he scouted at the mall that one day. He texted her to hang out and bam, next thing you know, boyfriend and girlfriend that same day. The man works fast. I told him he should sleep over tonight and he said he'd ask his parentals and if they said yes he'd be at my house in a couple hours. 

"What are you guys hungry for?" Damon asked as we walked up the steps to the front door. Mom's car wasn't in the drive way so she must be working or on a date. 

"Pizza!" "Chinese!" "Jimmy johns!" Dakota, Sebastian and I all said at the same time. Damon sighed "Pulling sticks it is". When we can't decide on take out, we write what we want on popsicle sticks and put them in a cup where we can't see what is on each stick. We play rock paper scissors to see who chooses the stick and whatever they blindly pick is what we get. I seen a note on the counter from mom saying she was a on a business trip for the next week or so and to call her in emergencies. I showed Damon the note and he nodded.

"Matt may or may not be coming over" I commented quietly as Damon wrote down the places on the popsicle sticks. He made a humming sound before looking to me.

"Jimmy johns a different time then kiddo, okay?" I pouted "Fine" 

"Okay since it's between pizza and chinese, Dakota rock paper scissors with Seb!" Damon called out to the living room where the boys were. They rushed in and did best 2 out of three. Dakota won the first round. Sebastian won the second round. They tied a few times before finally Sebastian won. He shimmied in place while Dakota whined. 

"Can you order some of those crab rangoons?" I turned to Damon as he was googling the number for the chinese place.

"Sure, you cool with orange chicken?" I nodded and told him I was gonna shower then change into pj's. I rushed up stairs and gathered the clothes I was gonna wear and head into the bathroom. I turned the shower on to warm it up before I stripped and stepped in. I sighed in content at the warm water spraying on my back. I hurried and washed myself before stepping out of the shower. I would usually brush my teeth but that would be pretty redundant if I'm waiting to eat. I stepped out into the bedroom drying off my hair and noticed Dakota sitting on his bed, scrolling through his phone. I placed the wet towel in the dirty laundry bin and got out an extra blanket from my dresser in case Matt did come over. 

"Are you a virgin?" Dakota asked from out of the blue. The question took me by suprise "W-what?" I stuttered out, my eyes meeting his. 

"Are you a virgin?" he repeated. My face reddened "Uhm..y-yeah" I cleared my throat "Why?" I asked softly furrowing my eyebrows. He disregarded my question and asked me another. 

"Ever kiss someone?"   What is with these questions?

"No" I said quietly fiddling with my oversized pajama shirt. 

"Hmmm such a shame...that's one of my favorite parts about intimacy" He said thoughtfully standing up. "Why?" I asked curiously.

He smirked "Because the intensity of the want" he took a step toward me "the need" another step causing me to mirror his actions and stepping back myself "the desire" my back hit the wall and he put both of his hands on the wall, caging my head between them, leaning his head down to level with mine "is built up" my breath hitches as he leans in closer, emerald eyes staring into mine and I could feel his breath fan across my face "even before the lips touch" his eyes cast down toward my lips and I followed suit looking at his. I was glued to my spot, could not move even if I tried.

 I couldn't help but wonder, Is he going to kiss me? Because that sure would be a dream come true. I moistened my lips with my tongue slowly and I could feel my heart thumping erratically in my chest, I swear I could feel it pounding in my ears as well. My eyes snapped to his when he began to whisper "Then when they finally do meet, the blissful state of euphoria envelopes your body" I felt his lips ever so slightly brush against mine as he spoke, a whimper bubbled out of my throat and I reached my hand up to the back of his neck.

*KNOCK KNOCK*

Fuck me while running....Seriously.

I dropped my hand instantly and he groaned loudly, his head fell to my shoulder "Yes?" he called out.

"Matt's here" Sebastian said as he opened the door to peek in. Dakota stepped away toward the door, opening it more before disappearing past Sebastian. 

"Thanks Bash" I smiled to him and moved past his questioning gaze. I skipped down the steps and seen Matt lounging on the sofa with Dakota on the other side. The doorbell rang and Damon rushed from the kitchen to the front door to grab the chinese. He brought it in the dining room and asked me to grab plates and utensils. We set up the table before calling in for everyone to eat. 

After dinner, Matt followed me upstairs.

"I just have to brush my teeth and then we can grab the blankets and go down stairs" I said and he nodded heading up on to my bed. I did my normal routine before bed by brushing my teeth, flossing and then using mouth wash. I smiled to myself in the mirror before stepping out into the room. 

Forgetting how nosey of a s**t Matt is, to my horror, he was reading through my diary. My eyes widened "MATT!" I yelled. He jumped and looked at me with wide eyes. f**k, f**k ,f**k he read it. 

"Jace-" he started 

"What the f**k Matt, why would you read that" I pulled at my hair panicking. Oh my god, there goes my only friend. Fuckity f**k f**k. He quickly got off the bed and came down to me, putting a hand on my shoulder.

"Jace, man, I don't care" I looked at him with a horrified face "No, no I mean I don't care about you being in love with your brothers" he ended on a whisper. Relief flooded me.

"Are you sure? You don't think I'm a freak?" I questioned with tears brimming my eyes. 

"No, dude, you can love who you want...it's not gonna change the fact that you're my best friend, until the very end, Jace" He smiled at me. I wrapped my arms around him in a big hug. 

"I love you Mattsy!" he groaned 

"yeah, yeah I love you too" he chuckled and then I smacked his arm with as much force as I could muster "Ow!"

"That's for reading my private thoughts" I nodded assertively then grabbed the blanket I got out for him and threw it on top of his head. I grabbed mine from my bed and then we went downstairs. 

"Ready for bed?" Damon asked as we entered the living room and I nodded "Alright, we'll be out of your hair, good night boys" Damon cleaned up the empty plates and went into the kitchen. 

"Goodnight Jay" Sebastian said while getting up from the couch and giving me a half hug. Dakota was the last one the couch. He stretched and got up slowly before walking toward me.

"You can have the couch, Matt, I 'll take the recliner" I turned to Matt and he nodded before plopping himself on the couch. 

"You sure do love that recliner, dontcha Jacey" Dakota commented "Mhmm" I said hummed quietly. I feel slightly awkward with what happened less than an hour ago. I almost initiated a kiss with him, or did he? well he kind of just came closer but I was the one about to pull him into me. All of a sudden his arms wrapped around me, I blushed and lightly wrapped mine around him.

"Goodnight Jacey" he whispered into my ear, shivers ran down my spine "Night Kota" I whispered back, he stepped back and gave a smile before turning and heading up the stairs. Damon walked out of the kitchen and nodded toward me before heading up the stairs as well. I walked over and threw my blanket on the recliner before sitting on the floor near Matt's head. 

"I am sorry Jace, I actually thought it was an old diary or something, I figured I already know everything about you that it wouldn't have mattered too much since we tell each other everything" he said while looking through Netflix.

"How far did you read?" I asked him turning my head to look at him.

"The part where you called Damon a 'daddy' " He busted out laughing while my face turned crimson. "Oh god" I covered my face with my hands. "Anyway, there's something else you don't know" I mentioned biting my lip.

"What?" he asked curiously.

"Well I caught all three of them together" he made an 'oh' face and then scrunched his eyebrows.

"Dude, no fair, you'll have three boyfriends soon...well I mean, I'd love to have three girlfriends not boyfriends" I chuckled "Yes, Matt I know you don't swing this way" He is taking this whole thing surprisingly well. So I say just that to him. 

"Jace, it's the 21st century, there are a lot of other things more unusual than that going around"

"Anyway...I don't think they would want me,  I mean I swear Dakota just tried to kiss me upstairs before you came but I could totally be reading into that too much" Matt's eyes widened.

"Don't say that Jace, if I did swing that, you'd be at the top of my list" he winked. I took one of the decorative pillows and whacked him in the face. "Hey! It's a compliment, anywho so he tried to kiss you?" I nodded and explained everything that happened right before he came to the house.

 "Dude, yeah he was definitely trying to kiss you" he confirmed putting a hand on my shoulder "Get it" he wiggled his eyebrows. I whacked him again with the pillow.

"Stoooooop it, I'm sitting here being supportive and you keep hitting me with a damn pillow....I call abuse!" he pouted. I rolled my eyes "Just pick something to watch" I got up and sat in the recliner before extending it, snuggling into my blanket as Matt turned on "Harold and Kumar'. Soon my eyes got heavy and I was out like a light.