Diary of Secrets (bxbxbxb)

Chapter 7

Sebastian's P.O.V

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It was bed time and I was sitting on the edge of my bed. Dakota sent a text to Damon and I about needing to talk. My worry gets sent into overdrive, thinking about all the possibilities and outcomes of the simple sentence 'We need to talk'. Did he want to stop seeing Damon and I? The thought saddens me and it must've shown on my face because when Damon entered my room, he rushed over and placed his hands on each side of my face.

"What's wrong love?" he asks with concern flooding his eyes. "Just thinking about what Dakota wants to talk about...What if he wants to leave us Damon?" 

"Although I don't think that's the reason why he wants to talk....we'd have to let him, if that was the case" he admitted as he stroked one side of my face with his knuckles. I felt my eyes brim with tears. Gosh, I feel like a crybaby. Jace says that I remind him of a big teddy bear, looks intimidating but is caring and wears my heart on my sleeve. 

"Oh baby, don't cry. We don't know the reason so don't try to jump to conclusions just yet" he softly said as he brushed some of the hair from my face and tucked it behind my ear. My bedroom door opened quietly and Dakota popped in and shut it just as quiet. We both stared at him in question.

"Jace just fell asleep, I didn't want to wake him" he mentioned when he looked at our faces. He studied my face a little more and instantly came over and dropped to his knees in front of me, eyes filled with worry. "What's wrong Seb?"

"Nothing...just what did you want to talk about Dakota?" I try and crack a small smile but it probably looked more like a grimace. He frowned taking my hands.

"First, tell me what's wrong" 

Damon sighed "He thinks the talk is about you wanting to leave us." Dakota's eyes widened in surprise "Oh heavens no, Sebastian, I wouldn't dream of that" he leaned up and pecked my lips then rested his forehead against mine. He looked into my eyes with so much sincerity and love before adding "I'm never leaving you guys" My heart melted and I smiled before grabbing his face and kissing him with so much feelings into it to show just how much I loved him. 

"Well now that, that is cleared up..What did you want to talk about Dakota?" Damon asked as we parted. Dakota stood up and paced the floor a little before speaking "Right...okay so don't get mad, but I found Jace's diary and read it"

"Dakota, that was wrong" "why would you do that?" Damon and I said at the same time. I didn't even know he had a diary, being seventeen years old. Dakota cringed "I know, I know...but I found some interesting things out" 

We sat patiently watching his movements, waiting for him to continue. He paused his pacing to stand in front of us. "So, he said he's in love with us" 

"What?" I asked in disbelief and I looked over at Damon, his eyebrows raised in surprise "I know, I felt the same way" Dakota let out a chuckle. "He said some other things but then I read that he..caught us" he finished biting his lip.

"What do you mean by caught us?" Damon questioned.

"Well obviously us" he gestured to all three of us before continuing "The morning before we went in the pool, which is probably why he was pissed in the pool" A look of realization crossed Damon and I's face. 

"Oh...Did he say anything else in there?" I asked curiously. He sighed while falling back on the bed behind Damon and I "Well, because he found us out, he thinks that we don't want him since we haven't asked him to join...he also stated that we didn't even know that he was gay but he's still pretty upset by it" 

"We aren't mind readers" Damon thought out loud. I smacked his arm quite hard and he hissed in pain "What?! I love him too but communication is key" 

"Damon Pierce!" I glare at him "Put yourself in his shoes...shy as hell, no one knows your gay, in love with your brothers and said brothers are in secret a love triangle..Do you really think he'd just outright ask questions?" 

"Ugh, why do you have to be so logical" he groaned before leaning back and laying on Dakota's stomach. Dakota instantly started running his hand through Damon's hair.

"Matt knows" Dakota says out of the blue "About him being gay, I mean"

"Well that's a little more comforting to hear that he confides that part of his life to someone other than a diary" I say. 

"You know, you and Jace are kind of alike with your heightened emotions" Dakota said turning his head toward me.

I rolled my eyes "More like in touch with our emotions, it's not a bad thing, we just feel it differently" I said matter of factly.

"Never said it was a bad thing Seb, just stating an observation...which leads me to suggest you be the one to confront him about this situation" he adds slyly. 

"You're the one who found out" I deadpanned. 

"Plus, you guys are a little closer than he is with us, Dakota" Damon added. 

"We'll figure out something" Dakota said finally said breaking the silence that swept over us for a few minutes. "Anyway, should probably get to bed, and remember we are going to the movies with Jace tomorrow night" Damon sat up so Dakota could get off the bed.

"Wouldn't miss it for the world, I just have two classes in the morning then I'll be home the rest of the day" I mentioned.

"I just have a shift at work in the morning, carpool?" Damon asks me and I nod in response. I love to carpool as much as possible. Not only to help reduce emissions from use of multiple vehicles but I also love hearing Damon sing in the car. 

"My schedule is wiped clean tomorrow" Dakota mentioned inching toward the door.

"Okay good, just spend time with him...Don't give anything away that tells him that you know anything" he just nods and says "Goodnight, I love you guys" 

 "We love you" we reply before he slips out of the room and shuts the door.

"This is such good news, soon we will have him in our arms" Damon says happily "Goodnight Seb, I love you" he gives a quick kiss "I love you, Damon" I kiss him, lingering a little longer before pulling away to let him leave the room. 

As much as I hate the fact that Dakota read Jace's diary. I am happy to learn that he feels the same way toward us as we do him. 

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Jace's P.O.V

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'Dear Diary,

Today, my brothers and I are going to see the new horror movie that premieres tonight. I am super excited about it. I was gonna go with Matt but in all honesty, going with my brothers sounds more appealing. I can probably get a cuddle or two from being scared. They wouldn't think anything of it since I usually cower into them during horror movies normally anyway. Dakota is currently downstairs making waffles and the twins went out to class or work. Mom is, as usual, at work. So, it's just Dakota and I until the twins get home. I kind of want to go on a walk, hopefully he's up for it. I should text Matt and ask to hang out Friday and explain why the wait. He'd understand. I'm obviously not gonna tell him about my love for my brothers still. I don't know if I'll ever be able to muster up the courage to tell him that part of me. I don't want to risk our friendship. I've known him my whole life and him knowing this part of my life could possibly make all those years of friendship go down the drain and ruin my life. '

I put away my journal and hop down from my bed to get ready for the day. After dressing in my normal attire of a beanie, plaid button up and skinny jeans, I make my way downstairs. The smell of waffles and syrup hit my nose and my mouth waters. I love waffles, they are my favorite breakfast food. 

"Hey Jace, I'm almost done with the waffles, can you get out the butter and milk please?" Dakota asks with his beautiful smile. I nod and go to the fridge to grab the items he asked for before setting them on the counter next to him. "Thank you, Jacey" 

He flips the waffle maker over and opens it steam rolling out, revealing the last waffle, perfectly golden. He plops it on a plate with one already on it, the plate next to it already having two. "You can have the freshest ones" he hands me the plate with the hot waffle on it.

"No, it's okay Kota, you made them you can have the fresh ones" I say with a small smile. 

"I inist" he says seriously pushing the plate more towards my hand. I sigh but accept it "Thank you Kota" 

He grabbed the other plate and spread some butter on the waffles and then drizzled some warm maple syrup to top it off. I did mine next and soon we were sitting at the table digging into the delicious fluffy waffles.

"What do you wanna do today Jacey?" Dakota asks swirling his piece of waffle in the syrup before bringing it to his lips. I lifted my eyes to his mouth and noticed some of the syrup dripped out of his lips. He poked his tongue out and swiped the sugary liquid up. My tongue moved on it's own and licked my bottom lip as I watched him swipe at the spot again to make sure he got it all. His lips turned into a smirk and I flickered my eyes up to his and seen his eyebrows were raised. My face reddened, oh f**k I forgot I needed to answer him too. 

I cleared my throat "Uhm, I was hoping to go for a walk" I said quietly averting my eyes to my plate. 

"Sure, we'll go after breakfast" I heard him say before gulping down, what I assume was his glass of milk. We ate the rest of our waffles in silence. 

After cleaning up the breakfast dishes, we got on our shoes and walked out the front door and down the steps. "Where to?" Dakota asks while we walked aimlessly on to the street.

"To that one park with the bridge that goes over the stream" I kicked at a rock, making it fly down the street. Our walk to the park was silence. I didn't mind, it wasn't uncomfortable. It was just peaceful, the birds chirping, squirrels running across the streets and the occasional kid yelling/laughing. In a perfect world, or mine at least, I'd hold Dakota's hand as we strolled these morning streets. It was about a 10 minute walk and now we were leaning against the railing of the bridge observing the water flowing down the stream. A family of ducks passed under the bridge and I smiled at the ducklings following their mom. I love animals, especially baby animals, absolutely adorable. I make a mental note of bringing lettuce the next time I'm here, I learned that bread or rice could actually kill them because it expands in their stomach, so lettuce would be a better option.

"Hey Jace, didn't expect you to be here" I turn and see Matt strolling over to us with his hand connected with a girl's. It was someone I didn't know. She had long sandy blonde hair with brown eyes and was a couple inches shorter than Matt. 

"Hey Matt, I was gonna text you later and ask if you wanted to hang out Friday" I said and then I remembered why it was supposed to be Friday. I told my brothers that he was grounded. 

"Jace said you were grounded, get off on good behavior?" Dakota joked and Matt sent me a questioning look. I tried to make a 'go with the flow' face but I couldn't even figure out where to begin with that. I figure he got the message with all my weird faces. His guest was surely looking at me funny. 

"Oh uh yeah, parentals overreacted anyway" he said with a nervous laugh. "But anyway, I seen you and wanted to introduce you to Amber, my girlfriend"

"Oh, well nice to meet you Amber" I greeted with a small smile. I didn't even know he was interested in someone. It made me feel left out and sad that he had not told me. What is up with people not telling me things lately? I frown a little but shake my thoughts and wish them a goodbye as they left and strolled down the park trail. 

"You alright?" Dakota asked. I looked toward him and nodded. "Just kinda bummed he didn't tell me he had a girlfriend, we tell eachother everything" I shrug.

"Sometimes it's better to wait until the right moment to tell someone news like that Jacey" I bit my lip and wondered if the words had a hidden meaning in them. He pulled me over into a side hug "Plus, he introduced her to you so it's not like he was hiding her away" 

"You have a point..can we stop at the ice cream shop on the way home?" I asked as we turned to head back the way we came. There was an old ma and pa ice cream shop just 4 blocks away from our house, they have the best ice cream. My favorite is Pistachio. I know, what an odd choice but it is extremely delicious. 

"Yes! Oh my gosh, I love that place" Dakota exclaimed happily. We walked all the way to the shop and I ordered my ice cream in a waffle cone and Dakota got cookies 'n cream in a waffle cone. 

"Pistachio doesn't even sound appealing" Dakota commented as we walk out of the shop doors, that jingled when people entered or exited. It was about noon, so we started our journey home.

"I'm pretty sure you say this about every time I get it, Kota" I happily lick up my ice cream humming in delight. 

"Why don't you get something new once in awhile?" he questioned as he licked around his cone. 

"Because I know I like this flavor, I don't want to risk getting something I don't care for" I retort sucking in one of the nut pieces.

"That's why they let you try samples genius" Dakota rolled his eyes "Why don't you try mine?" he stuck his cone in front of my face. I looked up at him with an eyebrow raised.

"Uhm brother cooties" I gently push his hand away. I heard him scoff and mutter under his breath 'like you care' which made my eyebrows furrow. 

"Just try it, please, for me?" he gave some puppy dog eyes and I groan. 

"Fine, a little lick" I slightly blush at my comment. I mentally scold myself, Jace, get your mind out of the damn gutter. He brought it back up to my mouth and I stuck my tongue out and licked up his ice cream. Now mind you, I should not have, but I made direct eye contact while doing it and my face felt on fire at the way he watched me.

"uhm..it's a..g-good" I stutter out and then in a small voice I ask "Did you want to try mine?" He wrapped his hand around my hand that held the cone, I felt tingles on my skin as he brought it up to his mouth. Staring directly at me like I did to him, he took a long lick of my ice cream then closed his eyes and moaned. Well s**t, that was pretty f*****g sexy if I do say so myself. No boners, Jace, none. Not right now. He let go of my hand and dropped it to his side as he brought his cone to return his tongue attack on his ice cream. 

"That tasted better than I thought it would" he commented "Come on, let's get home, the twins should be there soon" he began the stroll to our house. I was still stunned by the actions that it took me a second to finally scramble to catch up with him. Well now I have another thing to think about during my private times.