Diary of Secrets (bxbxbxb)

Chapter 6

!Warning! s****l content ahead!

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The two days of school before break passed by quickly. It was now Tuesday night and I finished my homework.

'Dear Diary,

Ever since the incident I can't keep the image of the three out of my head. I am home alone at the moment. Dakota wouldn't be back from class for another two hours, Damon and Sebastian work until 5. I am nervous as I have not done anything so s****l as putting anything in my ass. But, I've been so horny and my hand can only do so much. My body is yearning for more and I already did the necessary cleaning. So today is the day that I will try the dildo.'

I close the book and grab the item from my pillow. I blush and move to go wash it up before getting back in bed and strip my clothes. I then lay down with the lube bottle next to me. I know I can't just stick it in and go hog wild. Got to take it slow. I take a few breaths and start to stroke myself with thoughts of Dakota, Sebastian and Damon. Once, I'm more in the mood, I situate myself for better access and lube up my fingers. I bring them down to my entrance. f**k, I'm nervous. I take a deep breath and slowly put one in. Weird. It feels weird and uncomfortable. 

The thing that keeps me going is the fact that this is basically necessary for any future s****l encounter I want to have. Better to suck it up now. After a few minutes of fingering myself with one finger, I slowly put in another. I bite my lip, a little painful and a lot more uncomfortable. I spend another few minutes with those two before I add the third finger. Now, that is more painful. I stroke my d**k a couple times to help ease the uncomfortable pain while I get used to the three fingers. And eventually it does start to feel quite pleasurable letting out little moans here and there. 

Okay, I think I'm ready for the toy. Mind over matter. I remove my fingers and lube up the toy extra good. I sit on my knees and bent over one hand on the bed and the other bringing the toy behind me. I press the toy into my entrance and have to bite my lip as a little whimper falls out. Dear goodness, how do people endure this s**t. I breathe and think of my lovely brothers to relax. I continue while imagining words of encouragement from each of them whispering in my ear. It's not a big toy, I want to say average size, so soon enough all of it is in with a hiss of pain, but I start to slowly push it in and out of myself. The pleasure starts to appear more boldly as time goes on and now I'm able to go at a steady pace. I don't know how I'll be able to make my fantasy of both Damon and Sebastian's or any two d***s for that matter filling my hole into a reality but for now this feels good. Soft moans bubble out of my throat as I continue to pleasure myself. I lean down further on my bed and use a different angle and when I thrust it back in, I swear my soul leaves my body. "f**k!" I couldn't help but moan. That feels absolutely amazing. I do it again and again moaning louder each time. My d**k dripping with precum. If this feels this good, I can't wait to feel what actual s*x with someone feels like. It only takes a few more thrusts from the toy before I shoot on to my bed sheets with loud moan. Thank god I'm home alone, moaning like a little w***e. 

I slowly take the toy out and sit up and make my way down my ladder. I enter the bathroom and lock the door. I wash off the toy and then hop in the shower to clean myself up. After, I gather my soiled bedsheets and put them in my dirty laundry bin. I make a mental note of doing my laundry soon. I pull out new bedsheets from the bottom drawer of my dresser and quickly dress my bed again. Ahh, nice and fresh. I hide the toy away in my other pillow again after it dried off. When nothing looks amiss, I head out of the room and downstairs to the living room.

After a few minutes of going through Netflix, I lounge on the sofa and start watching Shameless. I haven't seen much of Damon and Sebastian due to their work schedules and classes during the week. I seen Dakota at bedtime yesterday and have yet to see him today but he should be home soon anyway. I hear the front door open and voices enter the close to silent house. Speak of the devil and he shall appear. Dakota and Corrine appear above the back of the sofa and I glance up and slightly blush at what I have previously done while thinking of Dakota and the twins.

"Hey Corrine" I give a small wave.

"Hiya Jace, how've you been?" she asks with a wide smile. Corrine is a beautiful girl, she has long dark hair and light blue eyes. She's about my height, maybe an inch taller or so, and has a slender but curvy figure.

"Good, spring break started now..How about you?" I glance back at the tv. 

"I've been good..Oh, I love shameless, Mandy is bae" she comments nonchalantly. 

"Pshhh, Carl and Lip are bae" Dakota retorts which earns an eyebrow raise from Corrine. "So...?" she says questioningly. 

"Yes, he knows I'm gay" he confirms

"Good for you D!" She said as they came around the sofa. I get up to not be a d**k and scoot over. Corrine sits on the other side and Dakota sits in the middle next to me. She cuddles into his side and I couldn't help the tinge of jealousy that scorched through my veins. I fold my legs under me and rest my elbow on the arm of the sofa and put my chin on my palm as I resume watching my show. 

About 2 episodes later, the front door opens again and I hear Damon and Sebastian's chatter come into the house. I know, you're probably wondering why they go to work/school at the same time. They carpool because they go to the same school along with the fact that their workplaces are just down the block from each other and their work schedules aren't too far off so one waits for the other until they can come home. Sebastian says it's better for the environment anyway. Which is undoubtedly true, so no complaints here. Maybe I could carpool with Dakota next year, I'm going to be attending the college he goes to. He's studying to be an accountant. The man is insanely good with numbers.

"Hey Jace, Dakota and Corrine" Sebastian greets warmly while both him and Damon file into the living room. 

"Hey guys.. D, wanna go finish our calculus before I have to be home?" Corrine asks. Dakota nods and they get up and bound upstairs to our room presumably. Sebastian and Damon take their places. Damon wraps an arm around my shoulders in a awkward hug. "Hey Jace, excited for break?" 

"Yeah, I already finished my homework" I reply and he ruffles my hair "Of course you did, our smart little Jace" he coos. I snort and swat his hand away. 

Dakota's P.O.V

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"So he knows your gay but not about your brothers?" Corrine immediately asks when I shut the door to Jace and I's bedroom. 

"Nope"

"Are you going to tell?"

"No" I say leaning again the ladder of Jace's bed.

"Why the hell not? I swear you boys are so dense" she scoffs laying on my bed "You could feel the jealousy radiating off of him when we were on the couch" 

" You're delusional" I comment not wanting her words to get any hopes up. "And you're stupid" she retorts throwing a pillow at me from my bed. I whip it back at her and she fires it back yet again and then throws the other one at me. I quickly grab both of them from the floor and whip them back at her and go to grab one of Jace's pillows and throw it. Noticing too late that it felt heavier than normal. It whacked Corrine in the arm and she lets out a big yelp holding her arm where it hit.

"s**t, are you okay?" I ask looking at her arm, she grimaces "Yeah but what the f**k does he have in his pillow?" I inspected the pillow and dug out the object. A composition book. I read the front 'Diary of Jace' I chuckled at the reference. That boy loves Breaking Benjamin. I go to open it but Corrine slaps it from my hands and it falls open to the first page on the floor.

"Dakota Montgomery! That is invasion of privacy" she narrows her eyes at me. I bend to pick it up and nonchalantly start reading the page. My mouth drops in astonishment and Corrine goes to grab out of my hands and I whip away from her.

"Hold on a minute, this is important" I say looking over at her. 

"What's important, is not reading s**t you shouldn't be reading" she deadpans. I roll my eyes. 

"Cor, he said he's in love with us...That's pretty important"  I start to skim the rest of the writing "Awww he wants to run his fingers through my hair, I'd let him do that whenever he wants" 

Despite her efforts to get me to stop she takes my hand and sits me next to her so we are both skimming the page. I snort "Damon, a daddy?" Corrine giggles a little "Well your little bro is a cute little twink, they need a hot daddy in their life"

I scoff "And what am I?"

She rolled her eyes "No offense D, you're hot and all but you are not a 'daddy' "  

I shrug "Well at least you admit I'm hot" I say with a smirk "Shut up" she slaps my arm. 

"Awwww my Jacey baby doesn't think he's special" I pout. Boy is he wrong. He is so smart, he will make a great Dentist one day. His shy demeanor makes him all the more cute as a button. I want to love him up so much to show and have him feel how special he is. He is like the missing puzzle piece to our loving circle. We move on to the next page and I blush and instantly turn the page away from Corrine when I read the first line.

"Hey why can't I look?" She whines "Because he's talking about a dream about me and I don't want you reading that" I state and skim the rest of the entry. Ha, so I was right, he enjoyed sitting on me. I feel a little triumphant that I made him feel aroused like that. After reading that one I flip to the next page, skimming it quickly.  My eyebrows raise at the mention of toys. Picturing our sweet little Jace, on all fours playing with toys gets me all hot and bothered. I adjust myself and Corrine snickers catching my movements. 

"Must be steamy" she teases "Shut up" I huff out. I calm myself down as I turn the page and my mouth drops yet again.

"f**k!" I yell quite loudly. Corrine slaps my arm shushing me. I skim it and then turn to the next page and read that. I hummed and smirked thinking about what he did before I came home today. After that I notice there's no other entries. I stand up and frown before shutting it and tucking it back into the pillowcase and placing it back on Jace's bed. "Why the long face buttercup?"

"Jace caught us and at first he thought it was super hot but then he got upset and sad/mad that we didn't include him" I say with a sigh "We didn't even know he was gay...well I do now, but the others don't obviously...That's probably why he was upset in the pool" I add the last part quietly.

"Talk to him about it" She states like it's the simplest thing in the world. I give her an 'are you kidding me' look.

"He would know I snooped if I just randomly brought up everything I learned, Cor" I lay back on my bed and cover my face with my hands "I need to talk to the twins about this first, before even confronting Jace about anything"

"Yeah that'd be smart, but just be careful, you don't want him feeling betrayed by invading his privacy...like I said in the first place" she added smartly.

"Yeah, yeah but I found out some important s**t so I'm slightly okay with what I did...only slightly" Her phone then goes off indicating a text. 

"Alright my mom needs me home to watch Bella...See ya later D, hope everything works out and keep me updated" I give her a salute as she exits the room. 

Jacey, Jacey, Jacey...what am I gonna do with you?