Diary of Secrets (bxbxbxb)

Chapter 5

Damon's P.O.V

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After dinner, Sebastian and I go into the living room and sit on the sofa. 

"Do you think I went too far?" Sebastian asked with worried eyes referring to the kiss on Jace's hand.

"Nah, I don't think you did Seb" I assured him, wrapping an arm around his shoulders. "His cute little blush made a couple appearances tonight already" Sebastian looked at me curiously. I told him that I stood in between Jace's legs on the counter and heard him catch a breath and when he was glued in his spot I glanced down and seen his cheeks redden, I didn't mean to get closer but I couldn't help myself and wanted to feel him closer to me.

"Oooh you naughty boy" he teased pinching my side. I chuckled and glanced at the living room entrance before leaning over and capturing Sebastian's soft lips with mine. He let out a content sigh and leaned in closer, letting my tongue in his mouth after I licked across his bottom lip. A throat cleared making Sebastian and I jump away from each other. Looking back, Dakota looks at us tsking.

"You're lucky it was only me" he whisper yelled as he stepped closer to us. A second later, Jace bounds into the room behind him. 

"I'm going to go finish my homework so I don't have to work on it tomorrow" Jace says softly. He's too cute for his own good. 

"Okay, pool day tomorrow?" I ask him and he smiles and nods before heading upstairs. As soon as the sound of the door shuts, Dakota threads his hand through Sebastian's hair and yanks his head back covering his lips with his. I groan at the sight and lean over the back of the couch and smack Dakota's ass then knead it. He moans into Sebastian's mouth.

"As sexy as this scene is, he's upstairs and can come down whenever" I say adjusting my pants due to my growing erection. Dakota whimpered but parted from Sebastian. He came around the sofa and sat in between us. 

"I told him I was gay" He mentioned looking at Sebastian then at me. Both of us fairly surprised.

"What did he do or say?" Sebastian asked.

"He looked surprised so I asked if he was okay with and he said he loves me just the same" Dakota smiled.

"So he's cool with gay...that's great!" Sebastian says enthusiastically. I love seeing my boys happy. I can't wait to see if Jace will eventually be with us. My whole world would be complete. 

"He asked if Corrine and I were dating" Dakota laughed and it made Sebastian and I laugh as well. The sweet girl is a lesbian. Although I have had plenty of talks with Dakota about the cuddling, cause even though they both swing for the same teams, it's still unnerving to see him cuddly with someone other than Sebastian or I. That's just Dakota though, he's a cuddly little s**t. 

"Alright, I'm gonna go down to the gym for a few reps before bed" I say getting off the couch and heading downstairs. I take off my shirt and turn the stereo on just loud enough to hear, since it is bed time. I hear footsteps come down the stairs and look to see Dakota and Sebastian bound down the steps.

"You honestly don't think we would miss out on seeing you all hot and sweaty, did you?" Dakota comments taking the exercise ball out from the closet and sitting on it staring at me. Sebastian sits on the stationary bike and slowly pedals and watches as I sat on the weight bench. I shake my head "Perverts"

"Don't act like you don't like it, plus you need a spotter or two" Sebastian retorts "Touché" I say with a smirk, leaning back to start my mini workout.

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Jace's P.O.V

'Dear Diary,

Yesterday Dakota told me he was gay. I never noticed any indicators. I mean I guess that fact that he never dated anyone, the only person he only ever brought over was Corrine. That's why I thought that they were dating. Part of me is hopeful, what if I told him I was gay?  No, I'm still his brother, just cause I'm gay won't mean he would be like 'omg let's be together'. Stupid, Jace. It kind of makes me wonder about Damon and Sebastian now, cause they haven't brought any girls home either or talked about dating. Maybe, it's something I should ask. It warmed my heart how concerned and caring both Damon and Sebastian were yesterday when I burnt my hand. If I could've, I would given them both a big kiss on their lips to show how appreciative I was of them. Spring break starts this coming Wednesday and it makes me happy to have a break from school. Gives me a chance to try out my toys too when my brothers are at their classes or work. It's embarrassing but at the same time exciting. Today, we are having a pool day. I just hope I can contain myself and not oogle at them. I can't help it if I do, I'm a horny teenager who knows what he likes. Even if it happens to be forbidden. 

Jace'

I finish my short entry and close it putting it back under the pillow. I hop down from bed and go into the bathroom to brush my teeth and get ready for the pool. After putting on my swim trunks, I head downstairs. Mom is dancing in the kitchen making pancakes while listening to the radio.

"Mmm smells good mom, how was your date? who are you dating? when are you bringing him over?" I question fast.

"Whoa, whoa..good morning to you too...it was good, none of your business and I am not bringing them over until I know it's right" she says making me huff. 

"Can't blame me for being curious mother dearest" kissing her on the cheek.

"Pool day, I assume?" she comments glancing at my shorts. "Yup!" 

"Alright well pancakes are almost done so get your brothers" I nodded and head to the living room to find it empty. Dakota wasn't in our room when I woke up. I head upstairs, seeing the door cracked open, I check Sebastian's room. Nothing. Must be in Damon's. I walk down the hall to Damon's room and halt after hearing a 'shh'. Curiosity killed the cat and I snuck closer to hear a low moan. My eyes widen and my d**k twitched at the sound. An exaggerated 'fuuuuck' came from a familiar voice I know well. Dakota. I take a couple breaths and place my hand on the knob. I want to see what is going on. I mean it sounds like I know what is, but I could be wrong. I twist it quietly opening the door just a crack and peeking through. And what scene is happening before, makes my jaw drop and my boner instantly hardens. 

Sebastian is laying on Damon's bed moving his hips up into Dakota who is on top leaning down kissing him and Damon is behind Dakota thrusting in at a steady pace. Dakota moans softly into Sebastian's mouth when Damon start to go faster grunting. Holy f**k, that is so hot. s**t, I forgot I'm supposed to be telling them breakfast is done. I slowly and quietly shut the door and step back even slower to not cause any noise. I can't just yell that breakfast is done, my mom would question why I'm yelling while I'm up here. I am just gonna go to my room. 

I get up in my bed and grab my diary and start writing again. 

'Dear Diary,

I have another entry today because you would not believe what I just saw. My dreams are unfolding in front of me. I just caught my brothers f*****g. f**k, it was so hot. I'm sure if I stood there any longer, I probably would've started to masturbate while watching. I wish I was the one sandwich between Damon and Sebastian. Mmmm, then Dakota straddling Sebastian's head while he f***s my face, having myself being filled entirely by them. Okay, I can't get too excited. I literally have to go to breakfast right now. However, now that I think about it more. Why wouldn't I be included in their...thing, that's going on. Granted, they don't know I'm even gay, let alone interested. But I can't help but feel a slight sadness tinge in my chest at the thought of being left out. I could not be what they like or maybe they are happy just being the three of them and aren't interested in having me join. The men I love, love each other but not me *sigh* now I'm just making myself upset and sad. Why do I overthink things all the time? '

The bedroom door opens. I quickly stash my book in my pillowcase and act like I was doing nothing. Dakota comes through the door with his swim trunks on.

"Mom said you were supposed to get us for breakfast" He says looking at me with a raised eyebrow. 

"Oh yeah, I forgot" I said sheepishly and move to climb down the ladder.

"Why are you red? Did you just finish m**********g?" He questioned when I turned to look at him. My face burned.

"N-no..you just startled me" I say quietly moving around him to head downstairs. I didn't say much during breakfast. I kept my eyes cast down to my plate, eating slowly. I didn't dare spare a glance at any of my brothers at the table. No one seemed to have noticed the extra quiet attitude of mine. Breakfast was done before I knew it and I head out to the pool first. I sat at the edge putting my feet in, sloshing the water around with my legs. I really wish I had an actual person to share my thoughts with, some feedback would be glorious right about now.

"Cannon ball!" Dakota's voice yells as the patio door is slid open and I hear his feet slap against the concrete surface before his figure flies over my head and into the pool. The wave splashes up on to me, soaking me instantly. I glare at the figure in the water, then he surfaces spouting water from his mouth at me. his hair plastered against his head.

"Could you not?" I spit at him.

"Oooh someone's got their panties in a twist" he teased as I heard more footsteps come from the door. I roll my eyes and don't comment.

"Why are you so mad Jacey?" he swims over and stands between my legs putting his arms on each side of the concrete next to my hips. Why? Just, why do you have to do this to me? 

I don't answer and kick him lightly in the stomach with my feet. "Rude" he comments.

"What'd you do?" Damon asks using the stairs to slowly step in the pool.

"Nothing! I just cannon balled and he's being mr.grumpy gills" Dakota exclaims with his head turned toward Damon. I may be acting a bit childish, especially when they don't know that I'm upset/sad/aroused because of their actions, but my emotions are still valid. I can't just casually bring that up. Like, hey, I saw y'all f*****g and it was hot but I wanna know why I'm not part of it. That'd go over soooooo well. I keep my face neutral as Sebastian sat next to me, dipping his legs in the pool as well. 

"What's up Jay?" he asks nudging my shoulder.

"Nothing" I reply staring out into the distance. Damon rests his elbow on the other side of me and places his head on his hand looking up at me. Ha, who's the short one now.

"Come on Jacey, we are supposed to have a fun pool day" Dakota says inching his hands to my sides.

"Don't" I shift my eyes to glare at him. He grins evilly at me and begins the tickle torture "Dakotaaaa!" I yell involuntarily laughing at the attack. I move and jump on him, making him fall back to go under water, he wrapped his arms around me so I went under with him. He didn't let me go as we surfaced again. I was kicking and trying to get out of his grasp. 

"Not letting go until you tell us what's wrong" he tightened his grip around my waist.

"Nothing!" I exclaimed and stopped flailing around "I'm just not in the mood" I spoke quietly. Sebastian and Damon frown at me. I felt Dakota lean down to my ear.

"I'm sorry if I upset you Jacey" he whispers letting his chin settle on my shoulder leaning his head to the side to look at my face. Ugh, it is quite irrational to take it out on them. They don't even know, I know.

"It's not you, just upset Matt got grounded and we can't hang out until Friday" I lied "I wanted to see the new movie coming out Wednesday with him and now we have to wait" that part wasn't entirely a lie, there is a new horror movie coming out, I was gonna ask Matt to go at school tomorrow. 

I felt Dakota let out a breath of relief. "Aww Jacey, I could always go with you, if you don't want to wait" 

"Hey, what about us?" Damon asked gesturing to him and Sebastian

"I thought you guys had work..." 

"We do but in the morning" Sebastian adds

"but anyway, okay a correction, we could always go with you" Dakota says nuzzling his nose into my hair. 

"Okay" I say quietly with a smile "Thank you" It is really hard to stay mad at him. He is just too adorable. 

"Alright, someone grab the football so we can play" Dakota announces. All of a sudden the football splashes into the pool and we look up to mom in her swim suit, sunglasses and large hat. 

"I'm going to sunbathe while you boys play, please do not splash too much" she says resting in one of the sun chairs.

"Okay mom!" we all yell in unison. Sebastian grabs the ball and we start our day of fun in the pool.