Diary of Secrets (bxbxbxb)

Chapter 4

"Awww look at him, he looks so adorable" I heard a voice say in my stuporous state. Next thing I know a bright flash hits my eyelids making them snap open. 

"Oh s**t I forgot the flash was on" Dakota snorted. I glared at him then hid my face in my arms. I absolutely hate having my picture taken. "Aww Jacey, don't hide away, you were just too cute sleeping that I had to take a picture" he cooed. "Kotaaaaaaa" I blushed, if he meant it in the way that i'd want him to mean it, I would be head over heels. I bet he's gonna use it as blackmail though.

"Delete it" I say but it comes out muffled.  "Nope" he retorts and I hear him shuffle away from the recliner and plop on the couch. I peek around my arms and see him show the twins his picture on his phone. They all laugh and comment on my sleep face. Ugh, why. I pout but then think up a plan. Stealth mode activated. They are too engrossed in their conversation that I sneakily get up slowly going behind the sofa. I wait a couple seconds of Dakota scrolling through his phone before extending out my hand quickly and snatching his phone. 

"Jace!" I hear him yell as I dart up the stairs. I run into our room before shutting and locking the door. Next thing I hear is his heavy footfalls coming to a halt at the door before the knob is jiggled. "Open the door and give me back the phone" he huffs out.

"Nope" I pop the 'p' and I shuffle up into my bed to search his gallery. I go to the photo he recently took and hit the trashcan button. What I did not expect, was another picture of me to pop up after it was deleted. I don't know when he took this one, but it was of me laying extended on the recliner watching the tv. I started to scroll through more pictures in his phone, I know bad but I was curious. I seen a couple more of me mixed in with pictures of Damon and Sebastian. I debated on deleting all the ones of me but then he would know I snooped. I kept scrolling through and then there was a selfie of all three of them smiling into the camera. I want that one. "Jace!" I jump at the sudden shout. s**t, I gotta hurry. I quickly send the picture to me, my phone vibrates in my pocket and then I delete that I sent it to my phone. 

All of a sudden the door bursts open revealing Dakota smirking up at me. "Forget that mom has the keys to all the doors in the house?" He bounds toward my ladder and I cower back while throwing the phone down on to his bed. 

"There, there...don't kill me" He scoffs "I could never kill you Jacey" He walked over and grabbed his phone and looking through it. His head snapped up to me.

"Why'd you delete it?" he said with a frown. 

"You know I don't like my picture taken...especially asleep, Kota" I say softly playing with the edges of my comforter. 

His eyes softened at his nickname "I wasn't gonna show anybody" he pauses before continuing "....well besides the twins and maybe mom" I roll my eyes.

"I'll get more" he smirks down at me when I finish climbing down my ladder.

"No" I deadpan "I'm watching you Wazowski...always watching" I joke and he chuckles ruffling my hair.

"Come on, Mom is on a date tonight and we have to figure out dinner" he says turning toward the door.

"A date? with who?" I ask curiously while following him down the stairs.

He shrugged "She didn't say but I guess we will ask her tomorrow, she said she will be back late and not to wait up" I hummed in response. Mom hasn't went on a date in ages and I almost thought she sworn off all men after our dad cheated on her. We get down into the kitchen to see Damon rummaging in the pantry.

"I'm looking for the instant potatoes" He says before looking back at Dakota and I. "Uhmm...should be on the second to last bottom shelf in the back" I instruct. He bends down and reaches between some cans. His jeans complimenting his ass nicely. I glance at Dakota and see his eyes are trained on Damon's rear as well. I raise an eyebrow in question and I think he felt my gaze because his eyes flicker to mine and widen slightly.

"So what are we having for dinner Damon?" Dakota says now avoiding my eye contact. That was weird. 

"Salmon with mashed potatoes and steamed broccoli, is that okay?" Damon replies while walking over to the stove and setting the packet of instant potatoes on the counter next to it. 

"Yeah that's fine with me" Dakota says before exiting the kitchen and into the living room I would assume.

"Do you want me to help?" I ask as Damon gets out a pot and a pan. He looks at me with a smile.

"That's nice of you to ask Jace, but you don't have to, it's not too hard to do" he lightly chuckles. 

"I will grab the salmon out of the garage fridge" I tell him and slip on my house slippers before heading into the garage. We have a fridge/freezer in our garage to keep all our meats and bigger items in so they don't clutter up the inside one. Damon and Sebastian also keep their beer out here so Dakota or I don't try and take any. I've tried it before at Matt's and ew, they have no problem there with me. I grab the salmon out of the fridge and make my way back inside. "What are you seasoning it with?" I ask taking off my slippers.

"I'm thinking garlic parmesan" Damon replies thoughtfully. I grab out the seasonings and set them down on the counter with the fish. I move over to the other side of the stove and hop up on the counter to plant my butt there. Damon looks at me with a pointed stare "Really, on the counter?" I just smile in return and he shakes his head tsking at me. I start kicking my feet lightly while watching him work meticulously putting foil on the pan then greasing it up with some olive oil. He lays the fish down and starts seasoning it before popping it into the oven.

"How was work?" I ask him so it's not completely silence.

"It was alright, I'm trying to persuade my boss to get some days off during your spring break so we can all do something fun" he leans against the counter adjacent from me. He works at a gym across town, which suits him because he is majoring to become a physical therapist.

"I forgot about spring break" I comment and he laughs "It's in less than a week Jace, I would've been counting the days down to break by now"

"I usually do, Ive just....had a lot on my mind lately" 

"Like what?" he questioned with a curious gaze.

"Nothing for you to worry about" I muster up the best smile I could to deflect further questions. Reluctantly, he switches topics and talks about some of his new routines he's doing at work for his clients. 

After talking for awhile with minimal feedback from myself. I'm not too much of a talker, but they are all used to it. Damon walks over and stands in between my legs as he reaches above me to grab something on top of the cupboards. 

I suck in a breath and my heart starts to thump fast in my chest with the close proximity. I feel his warmth radiating off of him and then he leans a little closer where our crotches touch and my face instantly reds. I glance up at his concentrated face and my mouth turns dry and I struggle to keep my breathing regular. A part of me just want to wrap my arms and legs around him and pull him closer to me. But I can't do that though. He grabs whatever he needed and steps away. I noticed it was the vegetable steamer, that we use for the microwave.

"Are you okay, Jace?" he asks and I still feel a blush on my face as I look at him with a nod. "Do you want to start the potatoes?" 

"y-yeah" I reply with a small voice and hop off the counter grabbing a measuring cup from the cupboard behind me. I measure out the water, milk and butter and wait for it to boil while Damon cleans and cuts the broccoli before popping it in the steamer and into the microwave. I add the contents of the packet into the pot after turning off the stove and mix it in to make the creamy potatoes. Of course, me being a dumbass I somehow burn the side of my hand on the pot. 

"Ow!" I hiss in pain "s**t, here run it under cold water" Damon quickly took my wrist guiding me over to the faucet and turned it on, holding my hand underneath it. 

"You've got to be careful" he says in a gentle tone near my ear. I shiver slightly, now noticing my back is flush against his chest. He's gonna kill me with these close positions.

"It's just a small burn, no big deal"

"What happened?" I look up to see Sebastian walking into the kitchen.

"He was making the potatoes and burned his hand" Damon said and I felt the vibrations through his chest. He has such a deep voice too so it's even more sexy. Sebastian gasped and quickly came to our side. Well f**k me while running, just gotta add Dakota and my dream will be partial reality. Only thing missing is the nakedness and touching of my body.

"Are you okay Jay?" I swear he's like a mother hen, but it makes him all the more lovable.

"I'm fine, Bash, just a little burn...I'll be okay" I reach over to turn the faucet off and inspect my hand. the red mark is maybe half an inch long. "See, not bad" Sebastian frowned at me before taking my hand and lightly kissing the area. His soft lips leave a tingly sensation on the nonburn areas of my hand.  I would love them to press against my lips. I blush at my thoughts and with my eyes locked with his I slowly take my hand back as the microwave and oven beep. 

Damon clears his throat "Dinner is done, Sebastian will you set the table?"

"Sure" and he grabs utensils and plates from the cupboard. "Will you tell Dakota dinner is done?" Damon asked as he started to cut the salmon in portions.

"Yep" I reply and walk into the living room to Dakota, who is lounging while watching a movie on the sofa. Stealth mode activated yet again. I creep on all fours to the side with his head laying down. I pop up quickly and yell "Boo!" and this man let out the girliest scream I've ever heard from him. I hunch over on the floor laughing hysterically as he glares at me and throws one of the decorative pillows at me.

"Not funny" he says getting up and starts tickling me. 

"N-no no no no haha....please Kota...s-stop" I screech in between laughs.  He stops and I stare up at him calming my giggles, my vision blurry from laughing so hard. "Dinner is done" I pant. He reaches a hand out and I take it, jumping up on my feet. We all head into the dining room at the same time, taking a seat and starting to eat our delicious dinner. The dinner is filled with chatter of each other's day. Sebastian works as a receptionist at our local hospital. He is going to school to be a registered nurse. Definitely suits his naturally caring personality. Dakota was at his friend's house, Corrine, they've been friends since middle school. I always wondered if they were dating, they cuddle on the couch when they are over here, but I've never asked before. Soon, we finish and Dakota and I are on dish duty so Damon and Sebastian leave to the living room.

"How was the mall?" He pipes up as we fill the sink with water and soap. 

"Fine, just bought some clothes" I shrugged "How was Corrine's" 

"We worked on some essays, then watched her baby sister" He started to wash the dinner dishes and I rinsed and dried them.

"Are you guys dating?" I blurt out, glancing to the side at him.

He laughed "No, Corrine and I are just close friends...plus she's a lesbian..why do you ask?" he gave me a curious stare.

"I just...you guys seemed closer than just friends...thought I'd ask" I say in almost a whisper averting my eyes back to the dishes and setting them in the dish rack. He hummed in response. 

"Jace" Dakota says getting my attention back to him "I'm also gay" My eyes widened at how casual he just put that out there.

"Oh" I get out, mind racing, he never gave any signs that he was gay. I clear my throat "Sorry, I didn't know" He chuckled.

"I never told you, so I didn't figure you would've" he ruffles my hair "Are you okay with that?" he asks cautiously. 

"Yes!..I mean of course, it is Kota, I love you just the same" If he only knew how true that statement actually is. 

"Good" he smiles and pulls me into a tight hug. I wrap my arms tightly around him and rest my head on his chest inhaling him quietly. I really hate how short I am. "I love you Jacey" 

"I love you too Kota" I squeeze him tighter with a smile on my face. If I can't have them, I will forever cherish these small moments.