Having a crush on my crush?

Challenges. This was all about what challenges we faced together with Peter from friends which were both positive and negative

There were many challenges that we faced from especially our haters . People had started hating us because of the closeness we had together . Some could even go to an extent of texting us and abusing us lowering our self esteems . As for me , the insults put a negative attitude in me. I became too low to a point that I wanted to give up on him . I could not think anymore because i imagined how my life could be thereafter when we become real lovers since that was only friendship that had I had already begun being discouraged. This was the lowest points of my life since even my best friend Shaly was not near to console me . She had already started avoiding me for a new friend she had found. I hated her so much . How dare could she do that to me yet I had tried all my best to maintain my friendship with her without hurting her. Life was becoming too hard on my side .

There was this day that we had a morning lecture class and we had happened to match outfits with Peter and soon after the lecturer had arrived ready to begin teaching, he spotted Peter and I due to our shinning outfits we had put on . Guess what he did to us. He abused us so badly telling us to style up since people did not match clothes at college level. I felt like collapsing that day . It was not our plan to wear the matching outfits, it had become a coincidence and we were not matching everything. We had only matched our sweater tops which were both grey in colour . The lecturer really embarrassed us in front of our classmates who laughed terribly at us . What a hell!. After we were through with our class, I went straight away to my room without talking to Peter . This was because of the embarrassment I had gotten from the lecturer and I wanted to go and have my own time alone. Maybe I was speeding things too first unlike they were supposed to be done. Once I reached the room I laid on the bed and bursted in tears. I felt sorry for myself and promised to remain strong each and everyday. I did not know that Peter could follow me to my room . I was not surprised to hear him knock on the door. Immediately I saw him , I wiped all my tears and went to open the door for him . We spent the remaining time together consoling each other and promised to be strong for one another. Peter was somebody who never cared about the insults which was uncontrary to me . Whenever I felt insulted, I was that type of a person who could not be able to bear the insults myself unless someone was by my side to comfort and console me. Even though this was part of life , ours was becoming too terrible each and every day. Peter thereafter went back to the hostels and I was left alone because my roommate Shaly had not yet come back. I wished Peter could propose to me at such a time but then again I was wrong. It was the time that our semester was coming to an end and we were required to revise well for our coming exams . At my college there was always this rule that students who got the best grades , were always awarded an immediate scholarship to go and continue with their studies in abroad countries. This was always a positive encouragement to us as students to revise well for the examinations since everybody admired studying abroad which could only be achieved through passing of the examinations well to enable one get the scholarship. This was a very busy week for all of us since we were to start doing our examination the following week. Students were very busy with their studies .

Peter spent all his time in the college library studying as I spent my time in my room studying too. The only time we communicated with Peter was at night after a tiresome long day of doing revision. We only communicated by means of using phones through messages. I was not a fun of messaging but this time round I had to understand the situation . I hated the fact that Peter spent most of his time revising without creating time for me too even if people were in examination mood. I had began being jealous and low since we had become too much close and I had started realizing how much I was missing his company. I decided to request him to come over my place but he refused claiming to be busy with his revision. I felt low and promised myself not to text him again. How could he be rude to me ? Or maybe he was studying for his to secure a scholarship for himself? I could not understand. I thought for a moment and realized that I was loosing my best friend and Peter at the same time after he had started ignoring me. I planned on how I could lie to Shaly that Peter and I were not in good terms because I knew this all that could make her happy. I did not want Peter to know all this because it was my own plan and am the only one who knew how it could benefit me. It was very late in the evening when Shaly arrived. She had spent all the day in one of our friends studying and she seemed to be too tired . I made supper for her and did everything she requested me to do for her. Thereafter I was the one to start the conversation and I went ahead immediately and began telling her how Peter and I were not in good terms. She was very surprised on how this had happened soon than she expected.

Nobody ever thought that there could reach some point we could start assuming each other. My plan was hundred percent effective because it had worked perfectly well. Shaly was very happy and maybe she realized that she still had hopes on Peter . I realized change in her facial expressions. She was all smiles again pretending to comfort me . She did not know that it was a plan I had planned inorder to get back her attention fully just like it was before. Up to this time , she had never realized and imagined that I could know anything between Peter and her since she thought that it was a secret between them. Peter had already told me everything about her at this time. I knew her very well inside out but I did not want her to know that . Our friendship was beginning to be as it was . She told me stories on how she had been busy doing revision while as for me I was too stupid spending my time thinking about someone who never thought of me. I really felt sorry for myself but then kept consoling myself that I had done enough revision. After a long time of us sharing we had to sleep since the next day we were beginning our examination and so we slept . Very early in the morning the next day , my roommate and I woke up as early as possible did some cleaning and left for college in order to begin our end of semester examination. As soon as we arrived the gates were closed in readiness to begin the examination. We were all given specific rooms that we were to use for doing the exams till we finished. Immediately, we began our first paper for that day and unfortunately my crush Peter could not even wish me success which bothered me a little bit. This time round I acted like someone who no longer cared which helped to be strong enough .We did all the papers and were done with the examination , all that had remained now was for us to wait for our results before we could go to our various homes in preparation for the next semester which was supposed to start in three weeks time. After we were through, Peter came to apologise to me and explained himself the reason as to why he had been quiet on me . I could not believe my ears what I heard from him. This was actually what he told me that one of his friends had told him that I was a lesbian who pretended to have feelings on men which really hurt him and made him to be stressed. He had chosen me as a best friend of him and now he could not believe what was said of me . This again hit me so hard. How could someone spoil my name out there ? Why could they not open up to him if they also liked him instead of using my name in such a bad way ? . Peter had many girls in our class who had an eye for him simply because he was a cute tall dark handsome boy but he had requested me to be his best friend and I had agreed . My classmates, especially those who liked him too were becoming too much now . If they really liked him , they could just be open and inform him instead of dirtifying my name out there inorder to get his attention. I had never understood the reason as to why Peter had chosen me to be his best friend but I thought maybe because he liked me too just like I liked him. I had never bothered to inquire from him the reason as to why he liked me nor did I seemed to be bothered. Peter knew me very well and I bet he had no reason enough to trust whoever told him such s**t. I swore to fight whoever told him such stupidity whenever I knew her. He explained to me how he had decided to be quiet on me because all he wanted was piece of mind since it was examination time and he also had not wanted to disturb me with people's stupidity. This was really a good impression from him. He was thoughtful and wise enough. We shared a lot together promising each other not to ever listen to what people said of us but do what we believed could be best for us since we had so many haters.

No sooner had we finished our papers that the results came out. Guess who was top? In our class, Peter had become top with the highest grades ever that had never been attained in that college. He had passed highly in all the units which therefore clearly indicated that this time round he could earn himself a scholarship to study in abroad countries. I was very proud of him because that was what he deserved. He had worked tirelessly hard during the entire semester and his hard work had bore him the best fruits. I had also passed well even though my grades could not be compared to Peter's. I knew I had made my parents proud of me since they only wanted the best out of me. My mother could call me everyday just to remind me to be a good prayerful hardworking girl. Peter was awarded lots of presents from the vice chancellor for being the best student of the term we had stayed at college. Many lecturers congratulated him including the one who had insulted is on the issue of matching outfits through presents. Am sure he was shocked to see Peter's name being called as the best student of the year since he liked looking down upon . I was very proud of him . He had always encouraged me to be a hardworking girl which I listened to him and did just as he always told me. One thing made me feel low that day. I got jealous about Peter getting a scholarship to go and study abroad because I was going to be left alone. After the examination had been released, were allowed to travel back to our homes for a holiday. All I was thinking about was Peter . I did not want him to leave me behind. How I wished he could not go and leave me behind. I thought of convincing him to stay with me till we were done with our college level but he could not agree with me . His time had come and it was the perfect time for him. Peter and I were the last ones to leave the college gate since we had a lot of things we shared that day . He was supposed to book a flight the next month immediately before they were all booked to leave for abroad . We promised to love each other truly even if we knew distance was going to separate us. We did not go home that same day . Peter came over where I stayed and slept over that day. We shared lots of things that night. He gave me a ring and promised to always be faithful to me . We did all crazy things friend could do. It was at this day and night that Peter proposed to me and I immediately agreed to his proposal. I loved Peter so much and he admitted that day that he loved me too. He told me how he had waited for this perfect time for him to propose to me . He had bet that if he could win the scholarship, it was the best time he had swore to propose to me which he did perfectly. I was overwhelmed that night with tears of joy. I had been eagerly waiting for this time. Peter had lastly admitted that he was deeply in love with me. We chat that night happily as we watched some romantic movies together. We also made love together that night which was the best thing that had ever happened to me. My feelings for him were very strong and they kept rising each and every moment I spent with him. I had finally met my perfect partner. It was also at this same night that Peter broke my virginity. I had been a virgin girl for a long time waiting for Peter to propose to me and be my first and last man I ever wanted to make love with. The memories I had that night were the best thing that had ever happened to me. I now had a chance to refer to Peter as the love of my life. What a joy! .

The following day, Peter had got many plans . He requested to introduce me to his parents but I did not want to .We came from nearing towns where my town was the nearest to our college while Peter's was far. So I requested him to visit my home and my parents. I wanted to be the first one to introduce him to my parents as my boyfriend. We woke up prepared ourselves and we were ready to set off. I informed him that I was to take him to my home and he agreed. The next time he was to be the one taking me to home for introduction. We booked a bus which drove us up to my home. My younger siblings were excited to see Peter's because I had informed them earlier that I was coming with a visitor. They all loved him. My mother too was very happy and proud of me that I had finally got a boyfriend. We shared the meals they had prepared for my visitor as I did introduction. I introduced him to everybody in the house including our maid and they all loved him. My mother blessed us and prayed for us. She wished e could stay true to one other till we married and have lovely kids . My father had gone out for a church mission and therefore Peter did not get the chance of meeting up with him. He had promised that he could come to visit him when colleges resume back after the holiday and have a word with him. My father was not strick like other fathers , but he was always careful with his children especially girls to ensure that they were never hurt. All he had wanted for us was the best of luck. He wanted us to work hard at school so that we became very prominent people in the future. After we were done , we had to escort him to the bus station to book a bus which could take him straight to his home. My younger siblings and I escorted him up to the bus station. Before he could go , he bought for my siblings biscuits which made them love him even more.

Finally he bid us goodbye and went to his home. I started missing him already. His company was always the best thing ever that had happened to me . He was such a loving and caring boyfriend. How I prayed that I never loosed him in the coming days. Mother also came to warn me as usual to be careful with pregnancy. She advised me not to fall in love too much because maybe someday he could come to hurt me. I did not have time to listen to mother , this was because Peter had blinded me with his love. I only wanted him by my side. I wished he could have proposed a little bit earlier. What could Shaly do if she knew that Peter had proposed to me and we were lovers already? I thought deeply inside my mind. I knew she could hate me most because her crush had fallen in love with me. Suddenly, Peter texted me crying. I wondered what had happened to him. He told me that the bus he had board had an accident and that they had only survived twenty people him being one of them while the rest succumbed to death. This almost gave me a heart attack. They were rushed to the hospital for checkup.