Having a crush on my crush?

The story is about a boy whom I had a crush on and he also had a crush on me. We used to study the same course with him.Nobody wanted to take a step and share his or her feelings. Personally I was so scared of telling him how much I loved him because he seemed to be a serious person who incase he wanted a relationship then he expected it to be hundred percent good with no games in it. To my side I never seemed to be a serious person but then I believed in the the love I had for this boy. I believe that together with him we could make a perfect match. One thing kept pushing me away from him ?the fact that we had feelings for each other. All the time I tried showing him a sign of being in love with him for example searching for him in social media like f*******: and texting him, he could ignore me. I really did not understand the reason as to why he could do such a thing but then I did not give up on him because I knew he loved me too just like I loved him and he had his own reasons as to why he kept on ignoring me. Maybe I was taking things too first than he expected , I really did not understand him . The following day we had our lecturer form assignments groups for us after finishing his teachings. It coincidentally happened that we were placed in the same group with him . What a good coincidence! I exclaimed happily. This was my happiest day ever. I had already started imagining how we had fallen in love through the group inform of having educative discussions which was not the case . After the lecturer had finished forming the groups he left and gave us some time to familiarize with the new members in the group. He only permitted us to ask each other our names and leave for the class since our time was over and there was another lesson that was supposed to take place. This was my perfect time with Peter my crush as his name was and my name was Tassy. So after finishing the introduction with the new other members in the group they had to leave . So as I was almost leaving too Peter called me back and informed me that he had something he wanted to share with me. I could not believe him since he had been ignoring me all the time. I wished he could open up to me and tell me that he also liked me back like I liked him. I started imagining what was in his mind . I became too stupid and started behaving like I was desperate. Am sure Peter realized how I had suddenly changed after he had signaled me that he had something to share with me. My best friend Shaly who had been waiting for me for a longer time got annoyed and told me she was leaving. She was going to the room where we stayed . Shaly was my college roommate and my best friend at the same time . We shared secrets together and we were open to each other just like sisters do . We had known each other during our admission day in our college. I remember we were on the same line with her and I started experiencing some headache pains . Neither my parents not I had remembered to carry the tablets for relieving pain and it happened that Shaly had carried some . She offered to help me with hers and I really appreciate her for her kindness. It was at this time that her parents and my parents became friends and suggested that we become friends too and get a room so that we could stay together. I immediately agreed with my parents and it was from that day that we went after finishing our admission and searched for a room where we agreed to be staying together. Shaly was very kind and nice to me . She always encouraged me to always keep working hard inorder to make my parents proud of me . She was very hardworking girl and I really loved her . We shared a lot together and did everything together. So there was this day that I decided to be open with her when I told her that I had a crush on Peter who was our classmate. zI remember her response when I told her for the first time how much I liked Peter. She only told me that Peter seemed to be a nice guy who could not easily break a girl's heart .She wished that Peter could love me back just like I loved him . Since Shaly had taught me the power of not giving up, I was not ready to give up on Peter even if he kept on ignoring me whenever I tried to seduce him. Peter was a tall dark handsome guy . He never liked to associate with people and nobody knew the reason as to why he disliked having many friends. He spent most of his time in the college library studying. He was also hardworking just as Shaly was and so I was the only one who was lazy but then I could trying working due to Shaly's motivation. I really wished Peter could open up to me and tell me that he loved me back just like I loved him but he did not . One thing I knew about relationships was that it was always the boy's duty to gather enough courage and face the girl he liked or had a crush on and open up to her but this time round I was wrong. I thought of doing it myself but then I was too shy to . I had never had a boyfriend before since most of them were just friends to me and I feared falling in love because I believed what my mother used to tell me . My mother was and is always strick when it comes to relationships and she always warned us on how useless boys were that s*x is the only to thing they wanted from a girl and dump her immediately after getting want they wanted. This always scared me therefore making me to never have a boyfriend. This time I was too confident with Peter because I knew he loved me back just like I loved him but he never opened up with me. There was this day that we had attended our morning lecture and it became to an end early because the lecturer wanted to form groups to be used for doing his assignments and so he formed the groups after finishing his teachings. What a good coincidence because Peter and I had been put in the same group where he was also the group leader. I was very happy that day because I began having some hopes again. The lecturer gave us some few minutes to familiarize ourselves with the new members in the group. We familiarized ourselves and soon after we had finished Peter called me aside as the other members were departing to their destinations. This again signaled me that something good was cooking. I was very happy even though I had not known what exactly he wanted to tell me. I could imagine what exactly I could be told that day . The nice words I had been yearning for from him. He took me to the college hostel and ordered some coffee for the two of us . We sat there and shared a lot . He talked to me so much about his family and background as we took coffee. Peter came from a very humbled background where he was also the first born in the family of six children. His parents were very poor in that they could not even afford some coins to pay for their children at school. Most of the time his siblings spent their time home because they lacked school fees . He told me how he had struggled looking for a job after finishing his final examination inorder to ensure that his family never slept hungry. He was the sole bread winner of the family because they all depended on him . I really felt sorry for him . He explained to me the reasons as to why he spent most of his time in the college library that all he wanted to achieve was the best . He had struggled and saved some coins which he used to buy a laptop because his friends had given him some online jobs connection which required him to have a laptop and so he got his few coins through doing online typing jobs . The few coins he could get helped me pay his fees and also sustain him together with his parents and siblings. Peter was really a hardworking boy who wanted the best . He also opened and and asked me whether I could agree to be his best friend and I did not hesitate . I agreed immediately because I had hopes that some time later our friendship could grow deeply to lovers and that was always my prayer since that day. He had trusted me wholly and shared all his secrets with me because he wanted someone who could always encourage him and keep his secrets. My friend Shaly did not wait for as she usually did previously and I imagined maybe something was wrong with her. One thing both Peter and Shaly hid from me is the fact that they knew each other .They kept on pretending like they did not know each other. After I was done with my coffee day out with Peter we had to part ways . On arrival to our room with Shaly , I found her and she seemed to be bored . I did not know what the exactly the reason was and I did not bother to ask her so I decided to cheer her up my gossiping Peter with her and telling her how my day had been together with him. We sang all her favorite song and she finally cheered up . She also told me how her day had been , how she had been happy that she had placed also among the group that seemed to comprise of serious people and she was the group leader. I was proud of her because that is always her wish to associate herself with people who take their studies seriously. We finally slept in preparation for the next lecture which was to begin very early in the morning. So in the next day we woke up early finished our preparations and left for the class . Shaly had started changing her behavior towards me and I had realized that but I did not want to bother her . I had to give her sometime. I thought she had issues with her boyfriend whom she could always talk to me about. The most interesting part is that I had never seen the boyfriend she used to talk about and I had never seen her going to visit him . She had gone once the day after our admission and from there onwards she never went back again. I began thinking that maybe her boyfriend was stressing her even if I could not gather enough courage to ask her. After we were through with the morning lecture again Peter signaled me to remain behind as I waited for him to finish making some consultation from the lecturer. Within a few seconds, he was done and he again asked me for some coffee at the school hotel and I agreed with him. As we took the coffee we chat many stories both very interesting and sad stories . We talked for a lot of time sharing everything together except for the part that Peter could not admit he had a crush on me. After a short time of sharing we again part ways as he left for his hostel room and I left for my room. This day again was very different. Shaly behaved differently. There is thing that I came to know from Peter after several meet ups with him. Peter and Shaly knew each other before. Peter had told me that both of them came from the same village and that they were home mates . He had told me how Shaly loved him so much yet he did not like her . Shaly had even told her Parents about how much he loved Peter and since both parents of Shaly and Peter were family friends, Shaly's parents had come to Peter's home and requested them to ask their son to love back their daughter just like she loved him . Peter had also told me how his parents had forced him to love Shaly and he had refused since he did not have feelings for her. Shaly had even waited for Peter to apply college so that she could thereafter go and apply the same colleges that Peter had applied which led them to being admitted to the same college. I was a little bit jealous of this but then I kept consoling myself with the fact that they never dated even after Peter being forced to love her. I came to realize the reason as to why Shaly's behaviors were changing each and every day . The both of us had been having a crush on the same guy . What a hell!. I swore never to give up on Peter because I liked and loved him and he loved me back just like I loved him. It was to be a war between Shaly and I . I promise myself to fight for what I believed belonged to me. Shaly did not know that I had known the reason for change in behavior and I promised never to talk to her concerning her past life with Peter . Peter had also requested me not to talk to her anything negative about both of them and so I had to listen to what I had been told. There was this day that he also decided to open up and told me the reason as to why he kept on ignoring my texts I had texted him on social media. It was all because of Shaly . He did not want her to imagine that he wanted her to be jealous since were best friends. Peter was careful not to ruin the closeness in relationships we had together with Shaly. I understood him and promised not to be bothering him on social media with my texts because he had requested me to do so. We kept on becoming best friends as days went by . We shared much together without hiding anything from one another. I kept gathering courage each and everyday we met with him. He taught me the meaning of being hardworking and how to conquer the hardship in life . I really liked him so much and my feelings for him kept growing strong each and every day we spent together with him. As for my roommate Shaly, I never bothered to talk to her anything about Peter . I could not understand the reason as to why she hid Peter's story from me but I believe that she had her personal reasons. Who is this boyfriend of hers that she used to talk about? Can he be Peter or he also had some boy somewhere? Those are the questions that lingered in my mind but I swore never to ask her because I did not want to spoil our friendship which was already being spoiled. One day I decided to invite Peter to our room to share lunch with us and he obviously came . I remember that day I had told Shaly on the previous night that my friend Peter was to come and have lunch with us and she seemed not to have any issue with that . When the day arrived, Peter came but that same day very early in the morning Shaly had gone out with permission claiming that she was going to visit her boyfriend who urgently needed her with my permission. I knew what she was running away from and she did not know that I had already known and because I did not want her to start thinking that I knew I allowed her to go see her boyfriend and I remained with Peter .We shared the lunch together as we talked which was usual for us . He asked me where my roommate had gone and I told him exactly where she had told me she was going. Peter really felt sorry for her and he already knew that she was running away from him. But Peter did not like her , he only liked me and Shaly knew it . So after we were done , I escorted him to his place and came back to my room. I really felt sorry for Shaly. How could we love the same? This was really a confusion to me and the way I had been bragging to Shaly how I loved Peter without knowing that she loved her too. It was really sad but I could not allow myself to lose on Peter. The next day again I decided to surprise Peter by inviting him over for dinner at the college hotel and bought rice and fish. We enjoyed the food as we talked on low tones .Peter was really very happy that day more than ever. He even told me that he had never before been surprised by a girl and he felt really very happy. He did not know the meaning of all this . He told me how he is dreaming and praying that God gives him a girlfriend like me who Surprises him. He had told me how much he would love being surprised and gifted by her girlfriend . This was the best day ever according to him. As for me , I thought he could propose for me that day but then still I was wrong?. Was I too first?