JOY🌹

The faint sound of the waves and the gentle breeze, the beach is where I feel most at peace with my self and its where we first met. I take off my sandals so I could feel the cold sand in between my toes, everything just reminded me of him, I looked up and just stared at the sky I wanted to take it all in; the way the stars lit up bringing life to the sky, the moon he always said he preferred it to the sun with its serene presence as it cast it's soft glow over the world, its where I decided to end it all. A soft breeze sent chills all over my arms I held myself and turn my gaze to the ocean, tears run down my cheeks as memories of that day come flashing through my mind, I can't take it anymore waking up everyday without him, going to school and trying to pretend like he never existed, like what he did doesn't have any effect on me. I have to do this. I just want the pain to go away. I just want to be with him, I go deeper and deeper into the water until it was just below my neck, I close my eyes and with a small smile whisper "I'm coming Jack" and completely submerge myself into the water, at that moment it felt like I was being dragged into a dark abyss where every other feeling had no relevance and the weight of the water slowly stealing my breath away. While I surrendered myself completely to the water, I was dragged out of the water to the shore I grudgingly opened my eyes to see the face of a familiar looking girl staring down at me angrily "Rosie are you alright?, what were you trying to do?" I just stared at her uninterested in whatever she had to say "answer me Rosie!". I sit up and hug my knees "Are you done?", her eyes soften and she sits beside me I watch as her petite body sits close to mine and she stretches her bare legs into the water, with the little she has on I wonder if the cold has any effect on her, if it does she doesn't show it she turns to me and looks me dead in the eye "you know what you we're about to do will solve nothing it will just create more problems" guilt tugs at my heart but I try to ignore the feeling "who are you anyway?" she looks away from me to the water. ''I'm Joy".