Chapter Two
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Irish hand's were trembling, and her lip's were as plain as gray. His body was weak but not his heart and mind. Sitting and staring at the casket in front of him. Floating awareness even when her brothers were crying beside her, each groaning seemed to be just a wind in her hearing.
She couldn't understand, even though she tried to understand her mother's loss. His beloved mother had left them.
"Condolence bhie.."
He just looked at it for a moment and didn't cry. It was his mother's last night but he hadn't been forced to get out of his way.
She gently grabbed her 1 sister's back. Their oldest daughter was nearby. It was like a bomb in her ears when she received the sudden death of her mother. Her mother suffered from heart attack and her heart didn't made it. He stood up and went inside their house. As the mass is about to begin.
"Isha, Let's prepare your eulogy later, after mass. They said aunt.""
He simply nodded softly to what his cousin had said. She felt like she didn't have a mood to talk to people even when talking to her. Actually, I'm not really ready! Even when she insists she's ready she's not her heart. She walked into her bedroom and slid into her mother's frame. Her tear's fall and her heart mourn in desperation. She couldn't afford to lose her mother! Her mother is too young to die. He pulled out the letter his mother had given and reread.
My dear son,
I don't know why I'm writing this message for you. You've just never spoken to you, and I understand that. You always remember that your dad and I loved you so much, even though once we couldn't help but I knew it was for your own good. I want the best for you, so even if I'm not in the world you're going to be fine. And I do believe in you son. On Wednesday, I'll see you wearing a white toga and holding a diploma. All I ask is for you to learn Good, Support you in all your dreams. Love you nak..
Love,
You're a beautiful mom
He immediately tinkered with the letter when he heard his brother's call.
"Isha, You're out, it's over."
When he came out he met with a lot of eyes, eyes that he didn't know whether he was sympathetic or judgmental.
"Our mother was kind, and helpful too. That despite those who didn't like him and insisted he didn't keep up. But she's gone. He's not going to come back any more. But I know, She will take her path to god.. MA, WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH."
That's what he said his brother was crying before he sat down. The lookavy looked sensational in her eyes.
"Let us speak to their youngest daughter."
She walked slowly to the front, next to her mother's casket.
"Hi, To those who don't know me, My name is Irish-the-youngest daughter. Thank you so much for attending my mother's last night."
He took a deep breath before continuing the speech.
"She's my everything,my mom. And I was really shocked when I received the news of his sudden passing...."
Her hands tremble again.
"I was on boarding house that time and I was preparing for my midterm exam. I don't know what to do, as long as I suddenly go home out of time."
Her breathing becomes hard. He feels like it's just a mistake to break down in front of the man.
"Actually... H-not really prepared. Even when my mind says I'm accepted but my heart can't accept. I was never prepared!!"
She raised her eyes, trying to stop her tears from coming. He's not a robot with no emotion. He was also a son who had lost.
"I love her.." He said last before passing the microphone. She didn't want to move on because she was sure she was just crying, so she tried to stop it.
She has to be strong, at least now, not for herself, but for her siblings who have already sent in emotion.
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The sun is bright and the blue sky is a wonderful look. The birds around sing along to the windshire. But that wasn't good for her, Because this day she was scheduled to never see her mother again. She simply wiped away tears when the last prayer began for her mother.
"Farewell mama." I love you so much.' " He whispered that he knew it was just air. Hopefully his words will lay the ground on his mother on the other side.
After the people left the people talked to them.
“Papa, Masyadong maaga para pag usapan ang bagay na yan..” sabi ng kapatid niyang si Lyena.
“Kailangan, dahil hindi natin alam ang kinabukasan..”
Nang tumahimik silang magkakapatid ay sinabi ng kanilang ama ang magiging parte nila sa kanilang hindi kalakihang lupain. Ang isang ektarya ay sapat na para sa kanilang limang magkakapatid. At ang napunta sa kanya at ang bunso niyang kapatid ay ang kinatatayuan ng bahay nila kasama na ang lote na nasa paligid nito. Nagpaalam siya na papasok siya sa kanyang silid. Niyakap niya ang kanyang sarili at nagsimulang umiyak ng paimpit.
“Isha, Ayos ka lang ba?”
Natigil siya ng marinig niya ang boses ng kanyang kapatid na si Julie.
“A-ayos lang po ate..” mahina pero buo ang boses na sagot niya.
Bumukas ang pinto at nakita niya ang ate niyang matamang nakatitig sa kanya habang siya ay pilit na ngumiti at pinasigla ang mukha niya pero sa kabila non ay hindi siya umubra sa ate niya.
“You don’t look okay. Kailangan mong itulog dahil tatlong gabi na hindi ka umidlip man lang..”
“Pero kaya ko pa-“
“Isha, Tanggapin mo na wala na ang inay! Hindi ako tanga para hindi maramdaman na may mali sayo. Hindi ka man lang umiyak, ni kahit isang luha… Kailangan mo lang tanggapin isha, pakiusap. Wag mong pahirapan ang sarili mo..”
Itinaas niya ang kanyang paningin ng maramdaman ang mga nagbabagang luha na gustong kumawala sa kanyang mga mata. For three days! Pilit niyang nilalabanan ang sarili niya..
“A-ate.. Ba’t ang sakit? Pakiramdam ko ay hindi ko matatanggap.. Kaya ko namang ngumiti e, at tumawa na din HAHA.. Pero ang bigat ate.. Pakiramdam ko ay nawalan ng kulay ang buhay ko..”
Niyakap siya nito kaya hindi niya na napigilang humagulgol na parang mata. Ang bigat sa damdamin niya!
“Gusto ko siyang yakapin, hawakan ang kanyang mga kamay pero natakot ako.. Ate, bakit kailangang si mama?”
Pag alala at pagkaawa ang nakikita niya sa mga mata ng kanyang kapatid sa kanya.
“Hindi natin hawak ang ating buhay- alam mong iyan lagi ang sinasabi ni inay..”
“Pero ate, hindi ko alam…”
“Pilitin mong tanggapin. Bumangon ka muli. Nasa likod mo lang kami Isha.. Hindi ka namin pababayaan, Pero sa ngayon, Ipahinga mo sana ang katawan mo..”
Marahan siyang tumango kahit na patuloy parin ang pag iyak niya. It wasn’t easy to forget and set your loveone’s free from your grip-at iyon ang pilit niyang ginagawa kahit na labag sa loob niyang gawin iyon. Sana lang ay malampasan niya ang dagok sa kanyang buhay.
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