Sophia’s POV
I had just walked into a lounge close by as I didn’t know what else to do. Feeling hopeless and emotionally drained, I get to the bartender’s stand and order for a vodka. That’s exactly what I needed to calm my nerves and if possible wipe away the pain from what I had just witnessed.
“Here is your vodka ma’am,” the bartender said.
I wasn’t an alcoholic but this was the only I think could help me right now. I took it from he bartender and gulped it at once. I immediately and asked for another.
“I guess I needed more cause I can’t feel any effect,” I thought.
After gulping about 5 shots, I suddenly felt tipsy and instead of forgetting the scene from earlier. It played in full force in my head. I bowed my head on the table crying.
“Why….. why….. why……,” I kept crying with my head down
The scene from earlier after I had seen the duo having s*x;
I had held down the tears but they were raging to pour out any minute and I didn’t want to give them that joy to see me weak, hurt and crying. I had a lot to say most especially, “Why…..”
This was my sister and my fiancée for crying out loud.
I couldn’t process anything in my head. I just wanted to leave, run if possible. But all I could do was turn and try to walk away.
Just as I was about leaving,
Brian called out, “I hope you know that I was only with you because you are so gullible and submissive. But how do you expect me to stay with you when you wouldn’t let me have you. I can have any girl, I want with a snap of a finger. All I wanted was to have s*x with you and that’s all. It was a bet I had with my friends, to make you fall in love with me then have you in bed”.
“Not until you came up with your plan of s*x after marriage. Well, your sister here, who I believe is better off important to me gave me an idea of having a fake marriage with you. After that, I could get what I want and that would be all….,” he continued
“Babe, that’s enough information. Just let her be. I had already told her that there is no such thing as a perfectly planned life. I guess she has learnt her lessons,” Chloe cut in.
I was hoping she would tell me that Brian tried to r**e. Since of course, she was underneath him. But then she goes further and says;
“Just so you know, you were actually adopted. That means you aren’t my real sister. Dad found you on the streets when you were three years old and adopted you. I promised not to tell you but why not. I am tired of hiding behind your shadows. With you always claiming that you can have a perfect life”.
“Wow, you surely have a lot of drama packed for our dear, Sophia. Anyways, hope you realize that your stupid to-do list is hereby useless,” Brian says mockingly.
“What did I do to deserve all of this….,” that was the only thing going through my mind.
How did we get to this stage.
I tried to hold myself so I wouldn’t fall and watch them see me weak. I tried so hard to hold the tears back and turn away. I need to get out of here.
“No wedding….. Perfect plan cancelled” I heard Chloe laugh out.
I walked out, not knowing where my legs were leading me to.
Back to the present;
I was now feeling tipsy as my head was banging and felt like it was swaying from left to right. I think I need to use the toilet but first I needed to pay the bartender.
I sluggishly and uncoordinatedly take out my credit card from my bag and give to the bartender. He returns it and I put it back into my bag but then something falls off from my bag when I tried to close it.
It’s the silly to-do list.
I opened it and scanned through.
“What a joke,” I snort.
I couldn’t care less about this list anymore and the part about keeping my virginity. That’s crap because I was going to lose it today.
“All men are the same, so why try keeping it for anyone,” I thought
“Life is all s**t and trying plan it that’s senseless,” I slurringly said to the bartender who is looking at me with a concerned look.
I throw the book away to God-knows where. I don’t care about planning my life anymore. I would live it any way I want.
I walk towards the toilet to pee. I pass through bodies as the area was well crowded and it was at that moment, I realize the kind of lounge I had walked into. It was an exquisite lounge filled with hot guys and sexy ladies.
I look at one corner of the hall and see some group of hot men throwing a party.
“Maybe, I can get someone from amongst them to have s*x with,” I reasoned cunningly with a smile.
I finally got to the toilet but at the entrance I find a guy and a lady making out. The man had his hands inside her top while fondling her breast.
I would have looked away on a normal day and probably felt disgusted but today was different. Especially after the first scene I had witnessed today.
I moved past them while trying to steady my pace as I was tipsy. I walked into the one of the female toilets.
“At least everywhere is sparkly clean,” I laughed out.
I sat down on the seat and took a pee. Immediately after that I resumed crying, how did I get to this point. Just earlier today, I was fitting my wedding dress and had landed my dream job.
I cried and there was no end to it. Just where did I go wrong? Was I wrong in loving? Was I wrong in thinking life could go as planned?
“I guess I was all wrong, and now I won’t give a f**k,” I said promising myself to stop crying.
I cleaned myself up and walked out of the toilet. I guess taking a pee helped.
My head was a bit lighter and I could achieve my goal tonight - Get dis-virgined tonight. I just needed to find a man
“Ouch…..,” I said
I think I just bumped into one.