It's nice walking in the garden early in the morning, it gives me time to think. I think about the lives of my children and what they could be with their mates by their sides, will I have grandchildren? These thought make me happy, but there are things that do not make me happy. Mine and Debra mate bond has been reconstituted but its been a difficult transition, she still has feelings for her chosen mate and I do not blame her. He took care of her and our kids when our bond was broken and for that I will always be thankful. He is also a good friend and now has a new mate that he adores, but what if we can never rebuild what love we had and the mate bond is just making us feel in love when we really aren't? Why do I have these thoughts? I need to get this out of my head quickly, as he turns
