The Players Secrets

Angelica Heart P.O.V "Angie! I heard the news! Seriously, again?" Amber burst into the door, yelling. She quickly drag me to the couch. 'Owh, storytelling time.' My heart skipped. I rolled my eyes. "Well it's hardly the news. I don't even understand why everyone so busybody with my love life. It's not really entertaining, you know?" Amber gasp. "Angie, you know, when you date more than five hot guys with perfect tick in any girls checklist, and you break up with each of them, it's bound to be the gossip materials around here. Especially when you are the one who ask for the break up." The way Amber said the last words in low tone almost like she's whispering to me really make me feel a tinge of gratitude as I know she is scare of offending me although I would not feel that way. Amber Swan, as her name represent, has always be a gentle yet possess fiery spirit that make her become straightforward person with a tender heart towards peoples around her. She has been my best friend, my secret keeper, and my defender. She is like a sister of mine although we are nor related by blood.I think we kinda stuck together for so long that make people who know us called us twin. I take a deep breath and roll my eyes "I know. It just won't work out. He went way too fast. Apparently, he was influence with the idea of I being a player and he been thinking that he can get his way with me in short amount of time. I told him I hate being push around and I can't do this anymore. He is a great guy though. He just way too pushy. He did apologize for being a jerk but I can't do this. Darn. How the hell rumors can turn a nice sweet guy like him into some bulky pushy jerk? It's definitely gonna be a fun day tomorrow." "Awww, Angie. I'm sorry. This is all start by that douche, August Day. He really ruin your name due to some petty attempt to protect his stupid ass. Wait till I get him. I'll teach him a lesson." Hissed Amber. "Amber. Don't worry and don't waste your energy on that guy. After all, he's attempt actually make an average girl like me gain the attention that usually earned by the girls with everything I am not although I ain't enjoying this spotlights. Plus, I believe that tomorrow wouldn't be that bad." I hugged Amber to calm her down. As gentle as she may seem, Amber actually a proud black belt takewondo. People will be amaze that this girl who actually a cheerleader and a ballerina is also a master in self-defense art. She is the perfect specimen of a woman being a smart, pretty,modest, and strong at the same time. Better yet, she is dating one of the sweetest guy that I had ever met apart from my dad, Abraham Shadow. Her best friend, me, on the other hand, just a plain Jane. "Owh yeah. And why is that, exactly?" Curiosity filled Amber gaze. "Before I get up from my last date with him, I dropped him the bomb. I told him, I hate pushy guy because I am a virgin and all virgins hate pushy guy. We get scare of this kind of peoples. You should see his face. It's priceless. It's worth my effort of telling him that freaking truth." I keep smiling. The shock and guilt I see on my latest ex really make me feel better in a way. This is because I know deep down in his heart, he is nice guy but then he let that stupid rumors clouded his judgment." Amber jaw dropped. "Seriously??? You said that?? Well it's not a surprise. You definitely a person who always do something abruptly especially this kind of stunts. You never cease to amaze me. Well, less worry for me about you tomorrow. Let's sleep." "Yeah. Let's do that. I'm burned out!" I replied. Laying on my bed, I keep thinking about the rumors and the situation of my life tomorrow with all eyes on me. Well, I know how it start. I start dating August Day on 1st August. We met each other few months earlier during Shadow party. He such a charming guy who has squeaky clean image and it seem so perfect. We got close to each other and August 1st, we officially date. It went well for few months. One night, when he took me on a candle light dinner and gave me a ring as symbol of his love, little did I know he was planning something afterwards. We had a heartfelt meal and we head to the top of the roof of his apartment and hanging out,looking on the stars, he suddenly roughly pulled me and pinned me down. Then, the scariest thing happened. He used his body weight to hold me down while his hand roaming all over my body. This doesn't felt good. I only felt scared. "Let's do this. I gonna make you c*m hard. You are so sexy!" I screamed. "No. Aug, stop! I don't want this." "Oh, Come on. Let's have some fun tonight, shall we? I have been waiting for this for some times already." He looked into my eyes with fierce eyes. I can't see the guy that I had been dating all this while. All i see was some beast trying to r**e me. "No! Please don't! I don't want this! Please! Don't do this to me! August, stop!" I screamed these words while I could felt tears running through my face. "Hey. Come on. You know you gonna love this. It's not like it's your first time. Let me make you feel good." replied him while tried kissing my lip. I keep moving my face right and left to avoided his kisses. " It is my first time! I never do this! Please stop, Aug! I don't want it. Please. I'm begging you." Hearing my words that been said through my sobs, he abruptly stopped all his actions and sit up in kneeling position, seriously showed me he was taken aback with those words. "Seriously, Angie? I don't know you are a vir... a VIRGIN. I'm sorry. I thought you are playing innocence and I just... Believe me Angie, I would never do it this way if I know it. Please don't cry. Please. Come on. Sit." He pulled me up, adjusted my clothes, and hugged me tightly. I just felt relieved he stopped it. I kept crying and August kept hugging me. We stayed that way around half an hour until I calmed down. Then he said, " Angie. I'm sorry. I never meant to scare you off. I hope you can forgive me. Can we start all over?" "I can't. I'm sorry. I can't just let this go. You no longer the guy I trust, Aug. I can't do this. Please. Let's end it here. I can't do this." I kept struggling my way out from his arm. I just want to feel safe and being in his arms make me felt nothing like that. He kept me in his hug although I'm struggling. " Please, babe. I know i make a huge mistake. Give me another chance please." "No. Please, Aug. No. I might able to forgive you someday but there's no way I can stay and be together with you after tonight. No. If you do have any respect left for me and you do care and love me like you claim, please let me go. Don't make me suffer any longer." He did it. He let me go after I uttered those words. I still thankful for that. It proved to me he did felt sorry on his action but to keep dating a guy who tried to r**e me, it's impossible. "Fine. I'm sorry. I never mean to harm you in any way, Angie. Know that I love you and I will always will. I will keep watch out for you from afar." He said those words with tears in his eyes. That's the end of it. The relationship that I thought would last forever. When i got back to my room, I told Amber about it and we cried a river together. She even told me to move into her house as she stay alone and she won't let me left unprotected. She also decided I would get my own room in her house. The next day, there was new gossip all over the place. Apparently, our unfortunate event had been discovered by someone but that person got it all mixed up. That person claimed that I had s*x with August and it supposed to be incredible as they always claimed August have great s*x techniques in bed. However, apparently, I, who just had s*x with August, decided his performance not good enough for me and decided to dump him that night. Then, more rumors came out. From I who just an ordinary girl just want to date the top notch bachelors to I'm the girl who can't get enough of s*x. When the rumors start for swirling around, August came to see me and ask for forgiveness, and said he didn't do anything and he asked me to believe him. Knowing his personality, I told him I believe him but Amber doesn't trust his words. Amber keep believing that he's the one who spread the rumors to avoid peoples from know the truth of that night. For me, he can continue his action that night but he didn't. He may did it out of love toward me or out of worry that I gonna go to police, but he stopped that night. For that, I gave him a little bit of doubt. Well the rumors never stopped. I had four other boyfriends after that which could make peoples jealous of me when I date them as I just a plain Jane who have no enough curve nor have pretty and perfect face like girls who deserve to date these guys. They r like the nice guys who are bless with extra things that added their credibility as great bachelors around. It's ended with I asked to end it and this action cause more rumors about me swirling around the areas. Soon i get the nickname of HeartBreaker Player. Can't they give me catchier nickname? Gosh.. I got up from my bed into sitting position. All I can think is how these peoples judge me that easily. They don't know I ask for a break up because as good and kind as they are appear to be, at the end of the day, they would lose their patience and try to push me to have s*x with them. Not making love to them, to have s*x with them. When I keep digging, it turned out that they date me after hearing the rumors. That's why when I ask for the break up, i will drop the truth bomb to them. Tonight, it's make the fifth person after the accident. I really keeping strike records here. I lay myself back on my bed. "I really thought this time it's different. I really thought he is the guy that have no ulterior motive. Why does he's the same as the other guys? Why this rumors even exist? I just want to find that true love. I won't trust any guys anymore. I had enough. No more date for me from now on." I cried silently and helplessly throughout the night until I fell asleep.