Secrets and Broken Hearts

Chapter 11: Shattered Ice

I leaned back against the solid wood, breathing heavily, and turned the deadbolt with a sharp, final twist. For a second, I let myself believe the physical barrier and the lock would keep him out, that he would stay in the main lounge nursing his wounded pride while I regrouped in the safety of the room.

Instead, a sickening, terrifying realization hollowed out my chest.

Deep down, beneath the anger, beneath the glittering pop-star armor, and beneath the five years of carefully constructed hatred, the truth hit me with suffocating force.

I hadn't fallen out of love with him at all.

Standing out there just a few feet away from him had proven the agonizing opposite. Every single emotion I thought I had buried—the raw devotion, the fierce ache, the magnetic pull—wasn't gone. It was deeper, darker, and more powerful than I had ever felt in my entire life, terrifying me more than any monster ever could.

Seeking distance from the overwhelming chaos in my mind, I turned away from the door and walked slowly toward the dark, sprawling window overlooking the glittering NYC skyline.

Suddenly, the air in the private room grew frigid, the temperature plummeting by several degrees as frost seemed to nip at the edges of the glass. The hair on the back of my arms stood straight up. A shiver raced down my spine as I felt a familiar, intoxicating presence materialize right behind me.

He was right there.

My breath hitched in my throat. I whipped around, my spine stiffening instantly. "How did you—? I locked that door!"

Nicholas stood just inches away, his crimson eyes locked onto mine with a terrifying, unblinking intensity, completely unfazed by the dead bolted door.

"I didn't go through all that trouble with your security guards just to stand outside a closed door, Ana," Nicholas said, using her new name with a deliberate, heavy emphasis that proved he had finally accepted who she had become. His voice was a low, rough murmur that scraped against my nerves.

"Get out," I hissed, pointing a trembling finger toward the exit. "This is a private room. You have no right to just—"

"I have every right," he interrupted, taking a measured, deliberate step closer. The raw desperation in his tone made my breath catch. "I know I hurt you. I know what I did five years ago was unforgivable in your eyes... but I made a mistake, Ana. There were things I couldn't tell you back then, and truths I still cannot reveal to you now."

"Oh, spare me your excuses!" I shot back, a bitter, furious laugh breaking past my lips as I crossed my arms defensively over my crimson corset gown. "You made your contempt perfectly clear. You called me weak, you played your games, and you walked away without looking back. There is nothing you can possibly say that will change what you did!"

"You think it was a game to me?" Nicholas’s voice rose, cracking with a sudden, violent wave of emotion that shook the quiet room. "You think I wanted to leave you? Look at me! Look at what my existence has been like every single day since I walked out on you!"

"I don't care!" I yelled, my own control finally snapping as five years of suppressed grief and rage boiled over. "I don't care about your excuses or your torment! I rebuilt myself out of the ashes you left behind, and I won't let you unravel it in five minutes just by showing up with a guilty conscience! We are done, Nicholas. It’s over."

I turned my back on him, my stiletto heel clicking sharply against the floor as I marched toward the inner exit, desperate to escape the suffocating pull of his presence.

"It's never been over, Ana," he whispered, a low threat of absolute devotion.

Before I could take another step, a rush of displaced air signaled his movement. A hand, shockingly warm yet impossibly strong, clamped onto my waist over the bone-tight bodice of my crimson corset gown.

A sharp gasp escaped my lips as I was yanked backward, crashing hard against the solid, unyielding heat of his chest. My breath vanished entirely. Nicholas’s large, possessive hand slid smoothly down from my waist, slipping straight beneath the heavy silk of the skirt where the dangerously high slit parted, his burning touch searing right against my bare thigh as my own fingers tangled fiercely, desperately into his dark hair.

Before I could even think of calling upon my magic—an option I never even considered, knowing I couldn't risk exposing my true nature to the mortal world, while also terrified of what a stray spark might do to him, still believing him to be entirely human—or shove him away, his other hand cupped the back of my neck, fingers tangling deep into my ash-blonde hair, anchoring me in place.

And then his lips crashed onto mine.

It wasn't just a kiss; it was the reawakening of my soul. In all the years since he left, through every glamorous tour, every flashing camera, and every hollow encounter with men who tried to catch my eye, I had never let anyone else in. At twenty-six, having spent half a decade evolving into a guarded, ruthless survivor, I had never wanted another man. No one else existed, because my heart had stubbornly remained locked in the past, entirely his.

The sheer, overwhelming heat of it scorched straight through my veins, an electric shock that paralyzed my limbs. Every defense I had spent years building—every cold wall of ice and ambition—shattered instantly under the frantic stroke of his mouth.

My body betrayed me before my mind could protest. My fingers, instead of pushing him away, curled instinctively into the fabric of his jacket, pulling him tighter against me as a breathless, traitorous moan slipped past my lips. He swallowed it greedily, his tongue sweeping across mine in a deep, possessive rhythm while his hand gripped my hip tighter, igniting a wild, aching fire burning deep inside me. His teeth grazed sharply against my lower lip, a delicious, punishing sting that pushed every coherent thought right out of my head.

Then, a sudden jolt of fierce survival instinct pierced through the intoxicating fog.

No!

With a sharp gasp, I violently jerked my head back, wrenching my mouth from his. Shoving my hands against his chest, I put distance between us before my palm flew up through the air with a blinding, desperate speed, cracking hard across his cheek in a sharp, resounding slap that echoed off the walls of the private suite.

Nicholas’s head snapped to the side from the sheer force of the blow. A heavy, stunned silence crashed over the room.

My chest heaved as I glared at him, my hand still tingling from the impact, ready for him to rage, to pull away, to unleash a fury of his own.

Instead, a dark, dangerous thrill flickered in his crimson eyes. A low, vibrating growl rolled deep in his chest. Before I could even blink, his hand locked around my waist with unbreakable force, yanking me violently back against him until there wasn't a single fraction of space left between our bodies.

"Is that all you have, Ana?" he murmured against my lips, a rough, dark edge of hunger in his voice before his mouth crashed back onto mine in a second kiss, far wilder and more intense than the first.

This time, I didn't fight it. The remaining shards of my resolve dissolved completely. A soft, surrendered gasp parted my lips, and instead of pushing him away, my hands gripped the lapels of his jacket, pulling him down to me as I kissed him back with an equal, ravenous desperation, surrendering entirely to the storm we had unleashed.