TO THE Z WITH YOU

Time has passed since the virus and I’m still stuck here in my house I don’t wans die here or at least I want to go to Avril Lavigne concert or some bands. I’m still here, doing nothing all day. I don’t have a friends to hang out or to tell how my life’s going. Maybe I’m just going to sleep all day and wait to die. I wake up and I hear someone screaming for help. I don’t want to go outside. I’m scared. I called my mom but she’s not here. I don’t know what to do or who I’m going to call the police? I don’t know. I open my window and I saw someone’s eating the girl brain. What do I do? I’m started to panic. I don’t want to die like this I don’t want to eaten with this ugly disgusting zombies. I still have a dream I don’t want to die. I cry all night and I was trapped here. I open the refrigerator and I’m glad it still have foods. We have pack of noodles and others can foods, at least the food will last a month or week. I rewatch the zombie movie that my mom’s favorite. I have to learn something in the movie. So many flashback that come in my minds. Some of them are happy memories and some of them are not. I’m starting to think I’m going to die. I don’t want to be like those zombies. I still have a dream. I still want to live. What if my mom was still outside and became one of them? What I’m suppose to do. Mom, I’m sorry for everything I don’t have to be alone. You said that I just have to cry and you’re here for me but you’re not here with me right now. I’m scared that I will end up like them, I don’t want to eat someone and I don’t want to lose someone. I don’t know why I still keep on praying as if he will listen and manage to stop what where experiencing. I don’t know if I still believe in hope or miracle, everything now was grey. We don’t know when this apocalypse where going to stop or it’s just we have to deal with it. Week passed and there’s no news the radio was still don’t have signal I don’t know what to do. I was stuck in my apartment watching someone eaten, watching zombies. I don’t have enough food to eat. I feel like I’m just going to stuck here forever waiting for someone to help me or waiting for my death. I don’t want to eat, when I open my mouth I remember those people eaten by zombies. I got it the world is going to end and who cares if I kill myself right now. I grab the rope and I tie it on Chandelier, I’m done. I decided I just going to kill myself there’s no hope for me here I don’t know if mom was alive or not. I don’t want to live here not like this, this is hell. I grab the rope and I tie it around my neck. I’m ready to die but I some flashback that came in my mind. Memories of my mom and my dad back when I was a child. I started to cry, I can’t die. I have to find my mom. I have to be strong for my mom. I don’t want to die like this at least I have to see my mom before I die. I packed my things I need. I grab my dad shot gun. I’m glad I know how to shot. There’s a pack of bullets. I open the window and I tie the rope so I can go down. My apartment was on second floor it was not that tall, I guess I’m lucky today and I don’t have to deal with my phobia. I manage to get down safe there’s no zombie around me. I get into my car but I remember I live in city there’s so many cars around and I don’t know If I can’t get out. I know zombies was aggressive when they hear sound, loud sound. So I just walk silent when I see some zombie, it’s just one zombie so I grab my baseball bat and I hit his head until his head was cracked and his brain was out, disgusting. I walk and walk like there’s no zombies here. I don’t know where I’m going I don’t know maybe I’m just going to go to some place that not in the city, maybe there some place that don’t have zombies. I don’t know I just have to be alive. 3 hours pass and I don’t see any zombies, it’s weird. What happened to the zombie? I remember they are so many supplies like food supplies and my school. I have to go there alive. It’s 10 minutes to get there I need a ride and a clear road. “s**t” I shouted. There’s so many zombies. I run so fast there’s a bunch of zombie near in the car. I have to run fast, safe and silent. I grab my car key I remember my car was in my apartment. I’m so stupid. There’s only way, To go back. I don’t want to go back I’m here now I’m stuck here now. What else I’m going to do. I don’t have car there a lot of zombies near me, I’m the food now. I’m trap here. At the grocery store I guess it was safe there, it’s just 3 minutes of run. I run as fast I can get there. My legs are heavy my heart I can’t breath I have to get there. Three zombies, I have to use my gun. I grab my gun and pointed it to the zombie’s head. I remember my dad said focus on your target. I focus and I pulled the trigger and I hit it in the head. The zombie was approaching me fast I pull the trigger and hit it again I hit it again and again until her brain came out and her eyeball fall in the ground. I hope there’s no zombie inside the store I closed the store door before the zombie’s know where I am. I lean in the door, heavily breathing. I thought I’m going to die. I thought and I’m start to cry. I wiped my tears. I change my mind there’s no time cry. I grab my gun and load it. I checked the store if it have zombie here but I’m glad it don’t have. There’s so many things and food here. I grabbed some meat and some seasoning. I’m glad it have oven here. I check the bathroom If there a zombie I only can see was blood and some body I think it’s dead, it doesn’t have meat on her bone I can see her bone and his intestine was out. Her body was a mess. I grab some white large towel to cover her body I don’t want to see it. I lean my gun in the shower towards me, I know it’s kinda uncomy bathing with some corpse and a gun I rather bath with it than I’m the someone bathing with. It was a dream to be trap in the store with so many foods and clothes I don’t have time to be happy but it’s feel like I’m just here, enjoying myself alone with zombies outside. I cook some beef stake it’s so delicious and I make coffee with full of cream I found there a double deck I grab some Christmas lights I hang it in my bed, I turn it and I grab some pillows, blanket and some stuff toys. I grab some wake talkie I don’t know why. I open my phone and I plug my earphone I listen to some music. The song is are you bored yet? //wallows ft.clairo it’s like some disco song, I put it 30 volume. I remember my crush when I listen to this song, we don’t have any relationship. We talk for like 2 months and I don’t know if he really want or like me. It’s just mixed emotions but I’m glad he’s a zombie now. Serve him right. I’m really serious about him but every time I asked him if he really wanted to be with me, I’m ready to commit. And I want label but I guess he’s not ready to he didn’t want me. I ghost him before this apocalypse. I guess he’s a zombie now or alive. You can really just let go someone. You don’t have to love them someone, you just love them half. Don’t invest so much time to someone and you’re just gonna end up strangers. Why I’m saying this? I’m in the middle of zombie apocalypse I have no time to be in a relationship. I have two check if I close the door the front door. I grab flash light. I walked in the aisle I saw something I just a cam and some make up. I want to have some memories. I grab some eyeliner and lipstick. I don’t know how to use it but I’ll try, I always wanted to have one but my mom don’t let me to have it. I don’t why but I guess I have it now. I manage to have some picture, what are the called? I don’t know it’s like vintage cam, that when you click it automatically print. I remember polaroid, atleast I have ten pic here. I stick one of the pic in the mirror and I wrote “ lmao I’m alive”. I need to sleep, bye. My dead ass woke up 9:00 AM in the middle of the apocalypse. I need to have some food I eat some cereal and milk and pancake and meat, sausages. Before that I brush my teeth, doesn’t mean you’re in the middle of apocalypse doesn’t mean you don’t have to brush your teeth. I shower and I find some clothes to use I’m glad super glad that I’m in the store. 10:00 AM, I feel like I’m looking for something so I just keeping looking if some cool have here. And I’m not wrong, I found some cool stuff a Ae68 Ah Ha! A Japanese race car I don’t know I it’s just a car but it’s so cool. I have the car key. I’m ready to go, I’m in the mood killing zombie while listening to THE WEEKND// BLINDING LIGHTS. I pack some things. I’m ready to go. I grab some many bullet I found some archer and arrow. I start the car and it’s okay I’m ready to go. I hope the road wasn’t that traffic. I manage the leave the store safe. I went to south. I feel empty, I leave the city where I born. I feel like I’m a new born. Starting my life with this hell. I’m going to find my mom. BEFORE THE APOCALYPSE “mom!” “don’t shout” “ I’m sorry mom, I don’t want to go to school” “ I just don’t want to go to” “no, you have exam today” “ mom! I said I don’t have to go, you’re so annoying!” “axe, you don’t shout me like that” “ are you listening?” “I said you have to go to school!!” “I SAID I DON’T WANT TO GO TO SCHOO! WHY YOU ALWAYS DON’T LISTEN TO ME! I HATE YOU” “ okay fine “ I hate my mom she always like that. My mom doesn’t know how much I suffer when my and dad got divorce. I feel like he doesn’t want me. She think it’s my fault that my dad doesn’t love him anymore. It’s her fault she cheated on him. I wish she disappear. “s**t!!!! Malas!” I said. The car stop but I’m glad I’m not in the city anymore. I don’t have gas where I can find gas station in the middle of the woods? It’s so uncool I have to go carry this things. I’m just gonna go to the woods I think it more safe in the woods rather in the road I don’t know. I walk until I find some place to build a tint I also find some place, place in wood that are feel safe. I guess I’m going to cook some noodles. The star tonight was bright I don’t want to fall asleep in the middle of the woods but my eyes feel so heavy so I’m just going to sleep here. I hear some crack, leaf crack I grab my gun and I open the my tent slowly. My heartbeat was so fast I pulled the trigger slowly when I open my tent it just a deer. I didn’t shot it even though I want to taste the meat of the deer. Someone say the meat of the deer was nice but I guess I’ll try if the world was okay. I pack my things up my tents. I done have time to have breakfast. I walk and walk until I found some place to stay. I saw some school here I just it don’t have zombie here. I mean it only 2 weeks since the apocalypse. I don’t think the zombie where walk here. I drive here for like a whole day but I don’t think so I grab my gun. I pointed it when I saw someone it was a girl. I don’t want to involve in everyone businesses. I turn around and I hear some gun shout. “s**t, she’s a zombie?” I saw some guy holding a gun and he point it on his neck then he pulled the trigger. I understand the girl was her daughter he lose so hope that one day the world going to be okay. Her daughter don’t deserve it but she doesn’t deserve to live in this kind of world, she’s so young. I carry my things and walk away from them I don’t want to be involve. I guess the only choice you have to choose is to kill your self. It’s hard to decide or decide to someone but I hope I’m not the one who’s pulling the trigger to someone’s head. When you’re young, you want to grow up badly but when you’re old enough to understand the world, you want to go back as a kid. Adult life suck, you lose so many things or people. I guess you have to enjoy so many the memories and when the here. My dad commit suicide when my dad found out that my mom was cheating on him. I don’t know why I’m still finding my mom or maybe I’m glad that she’s not here but then again she’s still my mom. I found some house. Do I have to knock or what? I point my gun and I enter the house there’s no one here. I close the door and I check if there’s a zombie or what. I don’t know where I am today but I know I’m alone. I check the kitchen if there have some food or water. I’m lucky today I found some food. I don’t know where the people live here but I guess they fighting for their life now. The where happy family. He have two kids, his wife was beautiful. I guess his son was same old as me. Not my type but he was tall, handsome. Maybe if he’s alive or what I’m going to date him. I cook some noodles and it have some rice here. Eggs and some coffee. Last time I eat this was two weeks ago but I’m thankful I’m alive. I brush my teeth and wash the dishes I don’t know why I still doing this even though I know I don’t live in normal place. Maybe it because I always do this and I’m stuck and the memories. I went to the room I don’t want to steal or I just need to barrow some things like pillow or blanket. I went to his son’s room. I saw some guitar. I grab the pillow, I saw he’s cellphone I don’t want to open it but the last person he text is he’s mom. I go back to the kitchen, I don’t I would like to sleep in living room. I play some song on he’s phone my phone was low bat so don’t ask me why. He have same taste in music but he’s dead. I’m listening to music when I hear something in the front door I aggressive grab my gun I don’t know if it was zombie but I guess I have to kill it. I slowly open the door when someone opening it I pointed my gun, when the door open. I shocked to death I thought it was someone but it turn out it was him. I mean him!! “What the hell are you doing at my house??” he said “It’s your house?” “yes my house!!!” “oh okay, came in” He come in and close the door. I follow him in his room I don’t know why I follow him. “why are you following me” he said “ you’re not beaten?” I pointed my gun on his head. “Wtf?” he said. “Put your clothes here” He started to undress and I saw his muscles, he have a good body. I search it if his got beaten but glad his not. “You’re good, sorry” “its okay, you can go now” “why?” “Why?” he walk in the front of me and I don’t have nowhere to walk. “Why? Because I going to get dress” “Oh okay” while my face was red “im sorry you have a nice body” I said it and I run to the stairs That was so embarrassing. I thought he was dead but I guess he’s not. He’s hot.