Messiah Jordy
Having kept my life a secret these past months made it harder to come clean right now. A lot of thoughts ran through my mind. A lot of 'what ifs' and doubts and fears. The greatest was what his reaction would be when I told him everything. It was funny how scared I was about his feelings for me being altered.
Slauson had been amazing, and I cared about him, but I thought my feelings were just ordinary. I thought it was all because of how kind he treated me.
Right now, at the verge of making one of the biggest decisions of my life, I figured I might have been fooling myself all this while.
Being scared of losing him spoke volumes about what my true feelings for him were, and how f****d up this whole thing just got.
My poor heart ached as I imagined him loathing me when
