After All This Time

Chloe finds out

Dear me,

Chloe and I were shopping this afternoon, she didn't ask further questions anymore. We're in our hotel room now and we haven't really said much to each other. She's watching tv currently. It's some british show, I don't really know what it is. One of these days I'm going to have to tell Chloe about my past and I really don't want to. My whole life I keep those thoughts of my dad beating me in the back of my head but when I kiss Chloe or when I hug her or just be with her, all of those thoughts just went away. Now that I'm going to have to tell her, I don't think those thoughts will go away again when I'm with Chloe. She makes me happy and I want to stay it that way. I love Chloe and I trust Chloe, but what will she do when she finds out about my scars? Sincerely me.

I put my diary away. I look at Chloe who is looking really confused at the tv. "Can't follow?" I ask her and she turns her head to me. She looks confused for a second until she realises that I was talking about the tv show she was watching. "Yeah apparently this guy is cheating on a girl with another girl but he's also married to some other girl, it's very confusing." Chloe says and laughs. I crawl closer to her on the bed and sit on my knees next to her. "You okay?" She asks and brushes the hair away from my face so she could see me better. "Yup." I say smiling brightly.

"Why are you so happy?" She asks chuckling. "Something wrong with that?" I ask offended. "No I was just asking." Chloe responds. "I'm just happy that I'm with you." I say and I lay my head down on her chest. "Awh sweetheart, you're too cute." She says and kisses my head. I get up again and kiss Chloe on her lips. "Kiss me again." Chloe says. "Nope." I say and I get off the bed.

Chloe gets off the bed too and starts chasing me around the room. She eventually caught me by hugging me from behind. She picks me up. "No Chloe let me go." I say laughing. She lays me down on the bed and she hovers over me. "You can't just tease me and then run away from me." She says and plants a kiss on my lips.

"I'm sorry." I say giggling. "Shut up." She says and kisses me again. She eventually goes down and starts sucking on my neck. "Chloe." I say moaning a little bit. "It'll leave a mark." I say trying to tell her to stop. Her parents will notice. "Shhh." She says and holds a finger on my mouth. I roll my eyes. She won't stop. I'm enjoying it though. Chloe's hand goes under my shirt and I feel her hand on my scar on my stomach. Yeah the worst one.

Chloe stops kissing me and she gets off of me. She lifts up my shirt a little and she could see my scar. I quickly get up and pull my shirt down and look embarrassed at the floor. "Emma?" She asks but I turn around and a tear falls down my cheek. Oh gosh she found out. I have to tell her now I guess. "Emma, that scar." She says, she doesn't get much out.

"Is this what you didn't want to tell me?" She asks me but I don't say anything. I'm still with my back facing her. "Emma, talk to me." She says and she turns me around. "Emma?" She asks and I stop looking at the floor and look into Chloe's eyes. "I'm sorry." I say and start sobbing. She brings me into a hug and I cry on her chest. "It's okay sweetheart." She says and rubs my back.

"Do you want to talk about it?" She asks me. I shake my head as I'm still pressed against her. She picks me up from the ground. I wrap my legs around her waist and she carries me back to the bed. She sits down with me still pressed against her. "Don't leave me." I beg. "I promise you, I'll never leave you." She whipers into my ear still rubbing my back trying to comfort me.

"I want to tell you but I'm scared." I say quietly. "You don't have to be scared, I love you no matter what." She says. I break the hug and look at Chloe. "Okay um, My uhm dad." I stutter trying to get it out. "My dad did that." I say and look away from Chloe's eyes.

"Your dad did this to you." She says getting angry. I wasn't quite sure if she was angry with me or not. I just nod my head in responds. "How could he do that?" She asks a little calmer. I hate to get really into this. I'm not comfortable telling people about my past. The only person I've ever have to tell was Mark, my social worker.

"He um, he got drunk often after my mom passed away and he was angry a lot and he took it out on me and now I'm stuck with these scars." I say quietly. "Oh Emma, I had no idea you have had to go through that. I'm sorry." She says and hugs me. "You're not leaving me after this?" I ask her.

"Of course not, You see this neckless I gave you a few nights ago?" She asks me pointing to the neckless around my neck. I nod. "I don't know what it means in the actual books but I will Always love you, no matter what you tell me or no matter what you've gone through in the past. Nothing could ever make me stop loving you."