Chapter Forty Two
What am I doing? What is going on with me right now?
I had to know better than this. I could not let myself be taken by such weak feelings. I could not let myself. Let myself go through this at all.
No, it was not just to myself. And I had to be kinder to myself. I could not let myself fall for him again. I could not do it to myself. No. In that moment, right as I was tempted to kiss him back, I pulled away instantly.
“ Now that you have broken the rules, I'm definitely not letting you sleep in this bed tonight. You should go”, I said, holding that opinion very firmly. And as much as I thought he was going to fight this, I thought he was going to defend himself, saying that this is his room and I had no right kicking him out.
But he did not even do that. He did not
