The pain of temptation

Yes, it is that new beginning that i been eagerly awaiting. Although nothing so special happened, the very thought of a new stage and another experience in my life gave me hope. Hope for a better tomorrow. And it was. But it was thorny. And he was better on the outside, and the inside of that hope was only that hope that dies last.  Let’s start the story from a time when I wasn’t yet angry at society. I wasn't even mad at myself then. It was a carefree time for an adolescent ready to sail into new waters of love and true friendship. When I stood at the door of the new school, my future was created in my imagination. A vision of my future. New opportunities that will cover all my weaknesses. New support for my talents who have been thrown into the shadow of ridicule and humiliation for years. And you know why? Because I was different. I had different views of the world. But I didn't understand that then. I was a naive being full of understanding. I had understanding and justification for all those who threw me into the shadows. And then when I realized that I didn't have myself and that I needed to find my way. I simply wanted to escape the series of years that had brought me suffering in many ways. It was no problem to run away from people, but from memory it was simply impossible. I don't think I'm better than other people, but I think I'm special and different. But it was not easy to deal with. After so many years, it is not easy to get used to a new opportunity to start a new life. All in all, I accepted to build a new and smarter self. To make up for what I missed. My mother always said there was a right time for everything. But I didn't have it. Or at least I thought he wouldn't be. I do not know. I wasn't very smart. Something I was really looking forward to, followed a couple of months later. It was my 15th birthday. Many have spoken and many will say, birthday as a birthday, but it was not for me. 15 has always been my favorite number for some unknown reason. I knew I would try everything I hadn’t wanted before.Until then, an important task awaited me. To find people similar to myself. Different and special in their own way. Different and special from the ordinary stereotype of our society. In fact, I may have never been different, I just lived in the wrong environment. And then .... Then came my 15th.....