When She's Gone

chapter 6

Two days had passed and the symptoms of me being pregnant are showing. Sometimes I crave over different foods and drinks. Raizen and I never talk anymore. I don't even have the care to prepare him coffee nor breakfast or whatever. It feels like he doesn't matter to me anymore

Not that my feelings for him are gone, its just I'm tired of talking or begging. For now, the baby only matters to me so I had to take care myself. I should not indulge myself in stressful things or situations so I am avoiding him for now

"what should we do now baby?" I whisper as I am caressing my stomach. I wanted to go outside to buy some fruits like banana because I feel like eating it, and I thought, I may be caught in danger again. I am now afraid to go outdoor, Selina's kidnapping made me traumatised. I don't want it to happen again so even though I am much in the craving state, nah I rather stay here for safety purposes

I went to the kitchen to see some food but then I saw Raizen. He is sitting on the island counter holding a glass of wine. He was supposed to be in his company right this early but whatever, I don't give a damn to him now, foods matter to me and to my baby

Our eyes met. I take a huge gulp before averting my gaze. I went to the fridge to get some food and now I realised there's nothing inside but some meats. Oh geez

"are you looking for a fruit?" I heard him say

I looked at him and he took a sip to his wine. His eyes were glisten. I bet its because he is drunk right at this early

"I'm asking you?" he said when I didn't pay attention to him

"I'm just looking for water" I lied and I forcefully get a bottle of water from the fridge. He got up from his seat and stood next to me

Shit! Whenever his near, my heart beats eratically. I could smell the scent of the wine from his breath and when his forearm touched mine, I felt a sudden heat

"you are lying, why do I feel that you're looking for something to eat--like fruits" I distanced myself a bit away from him

"who are you to say that?" I said in a matter of fact tone

I saw him sighed

"When were you spoke like that to me?" I rolled my eyes at him

"Come on! you never care about the way I talked so what changes now?" bravely uttered by me. He is irritating me but at the same time, he's making me nervous without any reasons

Raizen sighed again and he looked at me with a disbelief on his eyes

"do you have any specific fruits you wanna eat? I'll go and buy some fruits you want" he said forgetting what I had said. I rolled my eyes for a second time, what is he trying to do right now?

"oh please stop that act Raizen! I knew you're hiding something in your sleeve" I said coldly

I was going to leave him here in the kitchen but then, he suddenly grabbed my arms and pushed my body to his. My face was slammed into his wide and hard chest. The mixture of his perfume and the scent of the wine engrossed to my nostrils. I went to look at his face. His deep brown eyes were staring at me, with a hint of gentleness and care. He even licked his luscious lips and I couldn't help but to take a gulp

So unfair that he looks so good in every angle

"Stay here. I will buy you fruits" he simply said with a care

"whatever" the only thing that I could said

He's confusing me. Why the hell he is showing a sudden care to me? Is he plotting something big to me

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I am currently here in my bedroom, resting after vomiting. Not a long minute, I heard someone knocking outside of my door. I forcefully stood up and went to open the door and there was Raizen. Standing while holding a medium size plate which contains grapes and peeled sliced bananas

I raised my brows

"For you" he offered the plate. I do not want to accept it due to my pride but the smell of the said fruits, it watered my mouth

"thanks" I simply said after getting the plate from his hand. He was going to say something but I closed the door automatically. Seeing him made me remember how worse his parents are and the anger that I had for them made me hate Raizen more

I don't know what his deal is but I am sure I would not easily sway by it. I'm done with his wrath. I even remember the memories that I had forgotten and I am sure that even if I tell him the truth behind everything, he would still not believe me. For him I am a lying and a cunning bitch

So back to myself, I directly put the plate to bed. I do really want to eat some fruits especially a banana and now here it is. It took me a minutes to finish eating and I was really satisfied with. I went downstairs to wash the plate and there I met Raizen again

"Let me wash it for you" here he goes again. I am now irritated to his actions

"Raizen can you please drop that fuckin act of yours. You're starting to annoy me" by the tone of my voice, I hope he would clearly notice that I am really annoyed by him

His jaw dropped when he heard what I had said. I smirk silently

"Eley, Can we talk" wow he dared calling me Eley again

Eley was his nickname for me way back when we're still in college. He was the one who only calls me like that

"So you're back calling me Eley again huh! Wheres the slut, w***e or the b***h nickname of mine!!" I immediately uttered as I faced him with my cold face.He was taken back and I saw him gulps twice and guilt was written over his face

"I--I knew I made some mistakes but please let's talk properly and calmly" oh the audacity of him to speak like that to me. After everything he has done, he thought a simple and a calm talks would put everything in place

"You know what, lets just have a divorce Raizen" I said without hesitation. I wanted to be away from this family and of course to Selina. I wanted to live without fear, regrets and pain

Raizen's eyes widened and for some reason there's a fear of it

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to be continued