#His Ray of light.

NOT OK.

Jemiah pov

I can't believe he would ask me to do that. what does he take me for? I said sitting on Jessie bed.

I had gone straight to Jessie house the moment I left the jerkfaced soon to be husband. I was so furious I couldn't go home I didn't want my parents to see me in my distress and get sad. my dad already felt bad about kind of selling me off.

immediately I got to Jessie house I had started rambling how bad the date went. I told her every single detail of what happened *i already told Jessie and Lia about the reason for getting married, they were surprised at first before gushing about how hot he was. saying am lucky to be NY hottest bachelor.

*i know he's hot, not need for them to keep throwing it at my face.

"I would you calm down, don't let him get to you, it's not like you forced him to marry you. if he didn't want the marriage he should call it off himself but he can't because he's tied. he's just trying to vent out on you. don't let him get to you OK? "Jessie asked smiling and hugging me

ok" I answered hugging her back.

"now let's go make dinner before Lia comes, you know how she can be with food"jessie retorted winking.

"lol, I know, and she's so fit "

"she's one lucky b***h "Jessie said smiling.

*that's one thing Jessie and I share and that's "FAT* or

curvy or plumpy is just a name to soothe our inferiority complex.

As much as I try to tell myself am OK. I can't help but know *am not OK with my size, I wouldn't blame Ryan if he finds me distasteful to marry. I have gone through worst with other guys.

*i signed in defeat and followed Jessie downstairs to prepare dinner. since her parents travelled Iia and I decided to spend the night with her *