#His Ray of light.

HOPELESS

Oh my god baby, it feels so good, I am in heaven right now, yessssssss. Just like thatttttttttt………the woman screamed .

Fuck me harder….,.,,,……yes, just like that. Don't stop. Am going to go crazy if you do.

I stood frozen close to his door in utter shock as realization watched over me, Ryan brought a woman home and he was having s*x with her right under this roof on our wedding night. And they weren't trying to hide it .

My feelings were all over the place. Hate, anger, jealousy, pain, disgust, shame.

I couldn't stand it anymore I ran downstairs not caring if they heard me with anger and tears streaming down my face.

I easily found my way to the kitchen and made myself a quick food from what I could find in the fridge.

I wiped my tears angry at myself for being too vulnerable, this was what I signed up for, he promised he was going to make this marriage a living hell for me. And he had succeeded. And it happened in less than a day.

This marriage is hopeless, there's no hope of love between us. I will just have to get used to being his wife only to the public eye.

I was not going to let him get to me, I will ignore him and let him do whatever he likes.

With time I will ask him to do IVF with me at least so I can bear kids in this hopeless and loveless marriage. Those kids will be my consolation.

Yes at least with Ivf I don't need to be intimate with that jerk. He can continue his playboy ways while I raise beautiful kids. And if I ever need to satisfy my s****l urges I will use a s*x toy. I won't stop so low by sharing my body with different men like him.

My mood brightened with that brilliant idea. I quickly ate my food. Washed the dishes and headed upstairs.

I walked briskly to my room, got in, and slammed the door as loud as I could so they would know I heard their shamelessness.

I busied myself with my phone browsing through i********: before I slept off.