My Little Flower

Trying To Remember

(Beast aka Kyle)

Knight has been acting strange, well strange for me. Especially when it comes to the young woman he saved as a child. I noticed they call her Wildflower, Wild or little one. I don't know why but I sense something about her is calling to me, like a memory trying to surface. Just before I can reach it though it's gone. I had lost most of my memories over seven thousand years ago. Due to an injury I had from a battle I ended up in a comma. No one really explained to me what happened. When I awoke my body was fine but my wolf was not. So I know she can't be from my past.

But still I can't help feeling like I know her. It would be two hundred years after I woke up from my comma that I met Leah. She didn't mind that I couldn't remember things. She never gave me the sad look that those around me gave, when I said I can't remember something. Leah was what made me happy after waking up from my comma. I had felt like something was missing, like I had forgot something important. When I first met her I didn't feel anything towards her. I just felt hollow like I had no light in my life. It wouldn't be until almost a month of her presence that something happened. Her smell had changed but only slightly and there was a light pull I felt to her. I had thought that she was my mate even though my wolf told me otherwise. My wolf had been gravelly injured and I thought it was a side effect that he couldn't tell she was our mate. Leah had also told me that I was her mate so how was I to know she wasn't. Even after another man claimed that she was his mate I still believed that she was mine. Like a memory trying to surface, to remind me of something important. That pull I had felt towards Leah is nothing compared to what I feel for this young woman. Even when she was a child I could feel myself wanting to be close to her, needing to be close to her. I guess it has something to do with her reminding me of Leah, but maybe I was wrong. Growling interrupted my thoughts from my wolf, Knight. "She is nothing like that woman." I ignore him, he never liked Leah and hated me for mating with her. Like I said I had thought she was my mate, but my wolf had refused to mark her. Now looking at the young woman I wonder if I was wrong. The way my wolf reacts to this young woman, Wildflower, has me wondering if she is my mate. My wolf hasn't let me have control for very long since the morning we experienced excruciating pain. I had woke up to extreme pain as if someone had rapped their arms around me. Digging their nails into my arms to hold on to me. I felt like I was being crushed. Next thing I know a piercing pain shoots from my right shoulder. I feel as if all of my energy is being drained. As sudden as the pain came it was gone. Knight had flipped out and taken control as soon as the pain was gone. He had started running in the direction of Eclipse pack land.

When we reached the main house of the Eclipse pack he gave me control back but that was short lived when a sent I recognize from years ago travels to me. Before I realize I was in a room with the woman who had escaped back then when I and Knight saved Wild. Knight was asking her about someone, who I wasn't sure. How would he know when I don't, it just doesn't make sense. By the time Knight gave me control again it was when Wild asked me for my name.

I haven't heard from him in years and now he is taking control more than he ever has. I get bits and pieces of info from him like he some how knows her even though there is no way since she is but a young adult. I mean come on, we only met her the one time and it still baffles me how he knew where to take her. How he knew where she was to begin with. I have heard him mention about the past, but it makes me wonder if he is confusing her for someone else. Someone I have forgotten, someone who was obviously important to me.

He has refused to leave her side for even a moment. The only time he left her side is when Josh and Chase showed up telling us to take a shower. I just don't understand why he would trust them but not me. It's my body too and I have no problem sitting here waiting for her to wake up. I just want my darn wolf to talk to me, tell me what's going on. Is that so hard to ask? But no he keeps telling me to figure it out and start remembering. Did I mention how good of a relationship I have with my wolf, it's great. Note the sarcasm there. Most people get along great with their wolf me as far as I can remember we have hardly ever agreed. "Well you remember something at least." my wolf sneers to me.

Then when Leah showed up and was talking to him as if she knows what had really happened left me even more confused. I felt like my mind was trying to remind me of something important that I forgot.

The door slammed open revealing the man who had once claimed that Leah was his mate, Rico. Knight was getting angry, him and Rico where yelling at each other. I was trying to calm Knight down, with no luck. I am beginning to think it's going to be a blood bath until I hear a voice from under me.