ROMAN
I bring the cigarette up to my lips and take a slow drag, my eyes on the ceiling of my bathroom.
This is the first bath I've taken in three days. Honestly, I didn't expect all this s**t to affect me this badly. I've been thinking about the whole thing nonstop, and Nikki hasn't left my mind for a second.
I wish I could call her and ask her to meet me just so I could have a chance to explain everything to her from my point of view.
It's best if I don't, though. It's time for us both to head our separate ways. I played my game and lost, pathetically at that. She's better off without me in her life.
It's not like I can get rid of Carmen, anyway, so why should I try to pursue something with Nikki when I already know how this story ends?
I smash the cigarette against the side of
