Beneath the cold moon

willow ,Willow wake up you are having a nightmare. I set straight up to see my grandmother staring at me with that look in her eyes . I was covered in sweat and my heart was racing . I was shaking so bad my teeth where chartering. Child are you okay.? yes grandma I am .. I don't have the heart to tell her it's the same nightmare I have had every night since I turned 18. And one of the reasons I ran away to her pack . I pray every night it won't happen but it always does . Child what where you dreaming about this time . I know I shouldn't but I lie . I don't even remember granny .So I couldn't have been that bad I say laughing . What time is it ? It's 5 in the morning kid go back to sleep . I know in my mind I won't be able to .So I look at her with a smile playing on my lips . She knows what I am about to ask her . Fine go shower and I will start breakfast and yes then we can go for a run. Ever since I ran to my grandmother's pack she hasn't really asked any questions on why I left home. She just welcomed me with open arms and love and support. I will have to tell her soon . Since I got the dreaded letter in the mail yesterday . She will have to know my reasoning for leaving. She gets up and plants a kiss on my forehead . I make my way to the shower and let the hot water relax my tight muscles. I didn't want to deal with my old life and pack. or let alone my parents. I let my memories of my 18th birthday play over and over in my mind . I just didn't know if I could forgive them for what had happen. I was their daughter and the oldest at that . but their whole world is my younger sister Megan . A person who I wouldn't trust with anything . she is pure evil or at least I thought she was. I grabbed my towel and dried my longer silver curly hair and then wrapped it around me and stood and looked at myself in the mirror. I know I wasn't has pretty as megan but I wasn't ugly by no means. unlike her and my parents I had silver hair and icey blue eyes . they had black hair and brown eyes . they use to tell me that I was a mistake and the moon goddess made a huge mistake with me . but like my grandmother always says the moon goddess doesn't make mistakes . I grab a pair of shorts and a tank top and throw my hair in to a messy bun and make my way down stairs. I can smell the bacon so I know that means she has made biscuits and gravy and bacon. what is she up to today cause she knows that's my favorite. maybe she knows what's going on and doesn't wanna say anything . come on kiddo breakfast is done and getting cold. everything smells amazing granny . thank you. the first bite melts in to my mouth . I will never get tired of her feeding me. the last 2 years here have went by so fast . I love it here .the crescent moon pack is a amazing place to live. Everyone here welcomed me with open arms and never asked any questions . They treat me like they do everyone else . That's why I'm dreading going back to the winter moon pack .Everyone there treats me like a outcast and a mistake . The call me names and are just rude to me . But it all got worse when the soon to be alpha turned out to be my fated mate .that's when all this started., and I am sure going back is just going to reopen all the old wounds that had closed and healed since being here with my grandmother. So are you going to tell her today or do I need to tell her . shush up Knox I will get to it . you have been telling me that for 2 years and nothing . I hate when my wolf was right and believe me .knoxs loves to be right she doesn't let it go . fine I promise to the moon goddess I'm telling her on our run this morning . good it's about time knoxs spits back at me I helped granny do the breakfast dishes . then went out to the porch to wait for granny to get changed.knox was pacing back and forth ready for the shift and to run .she loves runny with Lilly. granny made her way to the porch in a pair of running shorts and a tank top. you ready to go kiddo ..Lilly's pacing and ready to she her grand pup .. I stepped off the porch and went behind the tree to undress and place my clothes in a bag tied to my ankle to keep them safe. the I felt Knox take hold and soon I was on all fours. knox troats around to the porch and was met with Lilly waiting on her . come on pup let's see if you can keep up with me still. knox howled in laughter your on old lady. and a way we went. the feeling of the wind in our fur and the grass on our paws was pure heaving right now. it made my mind clear some. but I knew once we get to where we were going . I was going to have to tell granny we ran for a good hour and made our way to our favorite spot in the forest . it was a place I swear was made by the moon goddess her self. we made it to the lake and sat for a minute before we shifted back. you ready for this knoxs asked me. she knew I wasn't but it had to be done . I shifted and put my clothes back on and went and found granny sitting on the dock with her feet in the water . okay kiddo what's bothering you. man she didn't wast no time .oh hunny i could tell something has been bothering you the last few days . so come on and get it off your chest . we can deal with what ever it is together. this is why I loved this woman. no matter what she was always by my side .I knew it was now or never so I took a deep breath and relived my past well as you know I really haven't talked to Mom and Dad in the last 2 years ..yeah I know this so what is bothering you kid . well yesterday I got a letter demanding me home in the next few days . I'm dreading going granny cause the all treat me like I'm a outcast and Mom has told me I was just a mistake and I shouldn't be here .and to top all that off on the day of my 18th birthday I found my fated mate . oh kiddo why did you leave then ? He rejected me . he told me he would never make a mistake and outcast his Luna .and then to top it all of . he chose Megan to be his chosen mate . the tears started to fall at that point. she grabbed my hand and just held it while I cried and told the rest of my story .but the worst was yet to come in my story and I was dreading reliving that part