Road To Revovery

Chapter 20 Dead End

Avery's POV

I get out of that bar as quickly as I can, running across the parking lot without even looking around to see if there were any cars coming my way.. reckless I know, which seems dumb now that I think about it.. but I didn't want to waste anytime.. I just want to solve this mystery for myself so badly that I can't seem to help or even contain my enthusiasm without throwing myself out into the chaos that is this large crazy world.

I can hear Elijah yelling for me from behind. I bet just wanting me to be careful in this possibly dangerous situation.. but I just spin around smiling and waving his way as I yell in response, "I'm fine and I'll see you inside." I watch him nod as the both of them have to stop at the sidewalk to let the cars pass before they can cross.

I get into the gas station in no time at all running to the front counter but there is a man buying something in front of me so of course I anxiously wait my turn. I bounce on my toes as the man turns around smiling at me before leaving the building. So I look up seeing I have the clerks attention as I step forward.

"Hello sir, sorry to bother, but I was wondering if you have the video footage on your security cameras from 4 months ago? I know this is a strange requests but I have amnesia from a coma I was put into after a wreck and I'm trying to retrace my steps from that night." I quickly explain to him.. not beating around the bush by any means as I hear the store door open behind me gaining my attention.

It's Elijah entering with Stevie stepping in right behind him and on her phone. I smirk their way as I turn around to face the clerk again to relieve my answer. " I would really love to help you in your unique situation I swear I would but No ma'am I'm sorry.. and I don't normally tell this secret to customers but in your special case I will.. um.. the cameras are just for show.. they are fake to make people think they are real.. I'm sorry but I wish you the best of luck with trying to retrace your steps." He explains to me sadly as I feel my smile turning to a frown at that realization of his explaination.. this sucks.. how else am I suppose to figure out what happened to me that night? This has taken a hard left turn that I didn't expect, leaving me at a dead end.

"Thank you sir.. have a good rest of your day." I turn around slowly as I send a small smile to Elijah and Stevie who send it right back as we all walk out of the store one after the other. I drag my feet across the parking lot and towards the car.

"What am I going to do?" I ask no one in particular just venting to myself at that point as I throw my arms up in defeat.

"Well we could always try to talk with your ex and just ask him what happened after he carried you out.. I mean he is the one who had you last that we saw." Stevie suggests as if this explaination is just obvious.. but I quickly shake my head hating that idea.

"No way.. he has lied to me every chance he has been given to be honest with me.. so I don't know why this chance would be any different.. and even if he was honest with me I don't think I would even be able to trust it because of all the lies I have seen and confirmed already." I shoot down her idea but making sure she knows why so I don't sound like a complete b***h.

"Well I guess we are at that stand still point in our own investigation.. so now our only option is to talk with the cops and see what information they have about all of this.. maybe they have something more that could help us out or clear things up.. we could even tell them what we know so they can reopen it if they think it's a closed case." Elijah states to me as I groan out pinching the bridge of my nose in annoyance of his comment because I know he is right and that's the next step. I just don't want to do that.

"I don't know if going to the cops is the best thing.. like you said before Avery, you don't know if you can trust them." Stevie states to me shaking her head in disapproval about my comment and even Elijah's.

I groan out not knowing exactly what to do.. because maybe Stevie is right and I shouldn't go to the police.. what if they are paid off or at least under his thumb already.. they could just screw me over by lying to me or even leading me astray.. But maybe Elijah is right.. Maybe I need to go to them because they might have the last pieces to my puzzle to help me get the rest of my memories of that night back.. Maybe they will help and have information to help with all the questions I keep accumulating.. They might even want to help me and are not under his thumb.. That was just an assumption and maybe the wrong one.. Oh what to do.

I let out a big huff of breath, running my hand through my hair, trying to figure out what to do. in taking my next steps. I think I know who to agree with, but it's not going to make the other one happy.

"Ok thank you both for your great opinions I do appriciate it I really do.. but I think I'm going to go to the police, as bad as that may sound. I just assumed that they might be under his thumb, but they might not be.. and maybe they want to help me out.. Who knows.. But I won't know until I go to them.. because I don't know if I can trust them or not, but I DO know for sure that I can't trust my Ex.. So I'm going to the police.. I think they are my best shot at figuring out what happened to me that night." I try to explain as best as I can so hopefully she doesn't get mad about me picking Elijah's opinion over hers.

She groans out as I open the door and climb into the vehicle.. She reluctantly gets into the car with Elijah quickly hopping in the driver's seat. Stevie obviously has some trust issues when it comes to the cops, but hopefully this trust from me is not stupidly placed with the officers.

I'm getting more nervous now as Elijah pulls out of the parking lot and driving across town. I feel him put his hand on my leg, automatically calming my rapidly tapping leg that I never even noticed, that I started nervously fidgeting.

"It's going to be ok baby." He softly coos to me as I feel butterflies filling my stomach. "I just have those nervous butterflies in my stomach right now at the thought of going to them and I don't know why." I respond back to him as I feel his hand rub up and down my thigh trying to calm my nerves and honestly it's starting to work.. He just knows exactly what to do to make me feel better.

"I have always believed that the butterflies in your stomach are not a good thing.. That they are a natural warning from your body to stay away.. I bet I'm right and we shouldn't be going here and your body is tell you that, without you realizing, or even listening." Stevie states crossing her arms across her chest while still shaking her head in disapproval of my decision I guess.

"Well they're my only option Stevie.. I don't have anyone else.. I'm sorry that you obviously have a problem with the officers. I don't know if it's because of this issue or another personal one.. But my only options are to go to them now or just wait until I get my memories back.. But who really knows how long that would honestly take?.. and not to mention that I don't even know if I would get my memories of that night back. mostly because of finding out I was drugged.. I don't want to take that chance right now.. I just want to put all of this behind me so I can have a great future.. with Elijah, without having to worry about any of this..Is that too much to really ask for? I know it's hard to explain to you, but not knowing what happened that night is killing me inside. I hate not knowing who I am or what I did or how I did it.. It's stressful beyond belief... I just want to know so I can close that door to get a fresh start with my future. I deserve to have a good future.. I know I wasn't the best person before, but I realize that now and I have done so much already to try to change that opinion of myself. With people around me and for myself because I'm not going back to that person that I use to be.. I can't, not after everything I have been through. I'm sorry you're scared but.. So am I.. It is terrifying knowing that this could all explode in my face but I have to try to get this closure for my sanity.. I need this so I can finally move on. please don't make me feel bad about that.. I'm trying to make sure that no matter what happens with these results that I'm a better person then how I started.. Isn't that all that matters? I just want to wash my hands of this awful life and starting a new one." I explain with the best of my abilities to her as I run my hand over Elijah's that's still on my leg. He takes hold of my hand and bringing it to his lips kissing the back of it, making me smile.

"I think that sounds perfect and no matter what we find out in there, just know you have me here at your side." Elijah states causing me to smile even bigger then nodding at him. "Thank you for everything Eli, you don't know what it means to me." I say as I watch him pull up and parking at the police station.

"Ok let's go talk to them together.. I even have the picture of the videos we looked at.. so we will make sure they know what we know." He explains as I let out a deep nervous breath then nodding.

I find my self just holding the necklace that Elijah gave me as I rub it between my fingers, letting this little action help calm my nerves before I decide to state.

"Let's just get this done with." I instruct as I open my door to get out and head in.