She Didn't Cry Wolf

Different Together Part 2

We spent time talking about Christopher's case study and all he went through, just like the shopping. This also felt like a bonding experience but I wasn't certain if I was bonding with Christopher's situation or with Colin as a Doctor. He did give me a few pointers on what to read and helped me understand things better which was such a relief. It might have been only a few hours but it felt like days of information. It was time for bed and we walked to the room, he was used to going to the bedroom he knew which was where I was downstairs. An old habit I suppose, then he went upstairs to one of the other bedrooms. I cleared all the books and pages, placed them on the chair nearby and found myself sleeping with the lamp on dim. Same fuzzy images in my dreams but again, not enough to wake me. In the morning, it was still a torrential downpour and I made my way to the bathroom, as the house was quiet I had assumed Colin was either gone or asleep. I went upstairs and the bed was made up, so he is gone. I went down the stairs and took out my towel and a few items for the bathroom. Placed in my waterproof earphone, played some music and walked to the bathroom.

Perks of living alone, you could walk around naked and sing as loud as you want without anyone telling you to stop. Dancing is most certainly required especially if you feel good but walking into a shower and finding an already naked man there smiling at you and pointing to your ears. Let the earth swallow me whole right now. All I could do was turn around into the water and hide myself because running out and hurting myself was not an option. I don't know if it was a few seconds or moments but he did leave the bathroom and I didn't think I'd get out because I was too mortified.

When I did finally come to grips with everything, I walked out of the bathroom on my tippy toes. Believe me, I made sure to look around and then made a mad dash to the bedroom. After getting dressed and drying my hair, suddenly the power went off. I walked out of the room and found Colin already fixing it, "I have been meaning to get this fixed but I haven't gotten round to it." I was less mortified this time because I was fully clothed, "Nobody would be able to come through. The weather report doesn't look good at all." I made the most awkward of all jokes, "We're not completely in the stone age, at least we have fire." Again, what's going on with me every time I'm near this person I'm just bursting out in stupidity. I decided to walk away with what little dignity I had. As the power was out all I could do was text as the telephone was off and unreachable.

Text Message

From: Alexandra

To: Pippa

I've been trying to call you but I can't get through. I can't come to Dans, there's been weather warnings of flooding. I hope you are okay. I'm worried about you.

My aunt normally gets in touch when she is about to stay over for long periods of time, you can't imagine my relief that she couldn't come through.

Text Message

From: Pippa

To: Alexandra

I'm safe, yes there is quite the storm but I'm indoors. I have enough to carry me over for a while and a few new friends.

I left my phone on the bed and forgot about it. What more could I do but make a fool of myself with Colin or text my aunt. I decided on neither and got my books out for studying, I heard a soft knock on the door and could smell the best food I had ever had in my life. "What is that?" Colin brought in the meal, "Creamy Tuscan Chicken. It's the least I could do for you." It took everything in me not to devour it all in five minutes, "There's plenty." Earth, now is the time just take me, it's all I could hope for around this man but it never happened. Somehow I just became more and more awkward around him and all he did was smile at me.

For the most part of the day, we were apart. I was studying and he was on his laptop and occasionally the phone. Why was I looking at him, sitting on the sofa? His back was in full view of the mirror, I could see his black hair, neck and shoulders. Whenever he shrugged down to his computer, probably looking at his patient's information. When did I stop studying and start examining him? Pull yourself together Pippa! I had to close my door but then all I could do was pout because I couldn't see out anymore. What is happening to me for goodness sake? Yet when I heard those faint steps, my heart pounded and I could just look at the door and wait for him to knock as I clenched my pen and book in anticipation, almost holding my breath. Even my toes gripped the sheet just waiting for him. He only passed as I saw his shadow moving past the door, when he went away I sunk into the bed hoping this would stop. I didn't know how long he would be staying but I was thankful I wasn't alone.

I wasn't alone, I was not alone. I have a boyfriend, his name is Fyler. Yes, we haven't spoken in a while and the distance made things harder but I still had him so what is going on with me? And almost as if he read my thoughts, I received a text message from him.

Text Message

From: Fyler

To: Pippa

I'm sorry, I thought I could handle us being apart but I can't. Long distance relationships are hard. Please think about coming back home, to me and to our lives here in Baidford? I'll be waiting for you, I love you.

I couldn't respond at the time. I wouldn't know what to say. I don't want to leave Dans and I don't know what I'd feel going back. I had to think about it and I needed Colin out of the house to do that. I started looking into it, yet the more I looked the less interested I was. Yes, we had the option of studying there I could simply transfer but did I truly want to go back? Closing my laptop was all I could do and as I did, Colin knocked on the door. I got up and opened the door, "I should be out of your hair soon. I just got off the phone with the mechanic, as soon as he can, he will be here." Those words shot my heart more than looking at the laptop and I found myself standing on the top of my toes and kissed him. There was a stillness, something calmed within me and just when I felt my feet going down he wrapped his arms around me and lifted me up.

Everything moved and stopped at the same time. He walked us to the bed, my legs were wrapped around him. It felt like I was floating, his hands went from my waist slightly lowering me to the bed. He took off his shirt, then mine. As he kissed my lips, his fingers tickled and traced down slowly removing what I had left. He looked into my eyes, I looked into his eyes and felt him inhaling my every being and exhaling his onto me. I didn't want it to end, I didn't want him to stop and I begged him not to a few times but morning would come and I'd find myself all alone in the bed holding onto the sheets. Before regret could seep in, he came into the bedroom with something to eat. We ate in bed, together and I simply shut the world out for a few days.

The storm did stop and he had to go back to his place. I eventually found the courage to respond to Fyler.

From: Pippa

To: Fyler

I'm not coming back.

That's all I could manage to write along with tears as I did. It was not the hardest decision to make but it also wasn't the easiest. As I was giving up my old life for something new, it only seemed fitting that it would eventually end and I had no intention of looking back.