Dont Let Me Fall

Ally's P.O.V. "Get the f**k up you s**t!" Mary screamed, welcome to my hell Mary is one of my many bullies, she's a popular, just like other schools, we have the nerds, the jocks, the artist/musicians, the drama freaks, and then we have the outcasts/emos/goths/punk/scene kids.... bet you can't guess which one I'm part of. "Are you listening?! You stupid cunt?!" She yelled grabbing a fist full of my hair, "I said get the f**k up!" with her fist full of my hair she pulled me up to my feet, I screamed in pain and flailed my legs kicking her in the stomach. She let go of my hair, and I started to run, only to have her stupid boyfriend, Jake, push me back towards Mary. Fuck! Why does this always happen? Why did I have to be born?! I felt someone kick the back of my knee, it buckled and I hit the ground, I tried to get up again...but before I could I felt someone grab my hair again and knee me in the face, I looked up seeing Katie. Another popular, but she's my cousin and Mary's little sidekick. "Why hello Ally." She said sweetly, with a devious smirk as she pulled me to my feet and punched me in the stomach and then in the face repeatedly. When she was done with me, I fell to the ground and Katie, and Mary just spit at me and walked away as nothing happened. I had a hard time getting up off the floor, but I did....eventually. I don't even remember when the bullying had started, all I know is that Katie was the reason for it, she knew how hard my life was, she knows what I've been through, she was nice through it all....but then she'd walked into my room to see blood dripping from the cuts on my wrists she helped me clean them up....she was a caring cousin until the guy she was dating at the time r***d me, and I told her....she didn't believe me, she thought I was making it up so she told the whole school about everything. I guess I do know when it all started. "Hey, can you help me?" Someone asked from the hall to me right. I looked over and saw a handsome guy, he was wearing the same band shirt as me, Sleeping with Sirens. "Sure, what is it?" I asked dropping my gaze. Don't get any ideas girly, if you get to close he'll see how fat, and disgusting you really are, how worthless you are. "I need help finding room," he looked down at his time's table, "305." "Okay, follow me," I said kindly, still not looking at him. The walk to room 305, was long and filled with awkward silence. "I'm Keath, what's your name?" He asked. I just stayed silent, he doesn't want to know my name, he couldn't care less about me or my name, so I'm not going to waste my breath. "This is your class, have a good day," I said turning on my heel and walking away. "You too, and thank you for your help." He said sounding a little hurt. For the rest of the first and second period, I couldn't get his green eyes and black flippy hair out of my head. I couldn't stop thinking about what would happen if I told him my name... Haha, you really think a hot guy like that, would ever. Ever. Want someone that's as useless and ugly as you? Don't make me laugh. My demons do have a point there, I mean he's gorgeous and I'm ugly, he's living, while I'm simply just surviving, he wouldn't want me, no one will. My scars are ugly, they stand out like a sore thumb. I'm too fat, yet I haven't eaten anything in three days and I'm hungry, a sign that I eat too much, I've been r***d, and no guy wants a girl that has been r***d, its disgusting, no one wants a girl that's afraid of s****l contact, because she can't give them what they truly want. So, in the end, I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life.