Shift Valley

Preface

I’m guessing that maybe I am just not a woman who is easily excited. Or maybe I’m not grateful enough. My life has been beautiful up until now. But I feel I need more. More than what I’ve been seeing, deeper than what I’ve been feeling. There are parts of me that still ache for that. Every moment.

These days, I take a walk outside every morning. The spring weather is so pleasant that I feel my breaths get lighter and my state of mind turns soft. 8 am every day, I take a walk near Mymer lake. At this time, I don’t feel any stress and I don’t think about my worries. The spring air is the sweetest thing I’d feel all day. I would walk for hours, and all these beautiful feelings would stay the entire time. They didn’t leave me. Keeping me warm, keeping me hopeful.

But the walk back home would be the coldest. And I dreaded it every single time.