What you wish for

CHAPTER 7

ALICE

Me? A safe word? I knew safe words existed. I just wasn't aware I would need one. Being in this moment with Jake was something out of my book. Something I only wished for. But as he walked into my room and brought out the Shibari rope, I wasn't sure what to think. One of the things I always wanted to explore being tied up. The problem was that submitting and actually seeing the beauty in myself. Self love. That was something I harshly admit I struggle with. As Jake explained, taking the rope and finding its middle, it made it easier to relax and play along. The gentle approach towards getting me comfortable.

I knew about the art. I wanted to attend a class on it, but I was to afraid. My brain telling me I was to fat to look anything like the models or bunnies. So my research was all I had. The two smacks he gave me on my butt made my butt juggle. Jake taking it in his hand and squeezing it... Why was that a turn on? Then he called me babe, and my body just started reacting.

I was putty in his hands when he called me a good girl. Twice today . Wonder if he would collar me? That took me off guard. Why did I want that?! "Alice?" I snapped out of that though. Right, safe word. What would be a good safe word? "Uh coffee?" I asked confused. A deep and very alluring laugh escaped his lips. "You sure? You could go with stop or red?" He suggested. It seems dull, don't know why... but it just did. Coffee just sounded like a good way to distract the two of us. "No" I told him with a soft smile. "I will stick with coffee" Jake kissed my forehead again. "Coffee it is Babe." There was the babe again. I bit the corner my lower lip lightly, wanting him to say it again. Jake was playing mind games, games that made me forget about my past. Games I wanted to keep playing. It made me feel good. But for how long? There was that voice again. I thought it was to good to be true. I pushed it aside the moment I heard him ask "Do you have a medical kit?" I nodded and pointed to my kitchen area. "Its underneath the counter. Want me to get it?" He shook his head, I looked down at the rope Jake now had around my wrists. I took a breath. I heard the counter door open and turned to sre what he was doing. He clicked open the medic tin and took out the safety scissors." What's those for?" I asked curiously. He closed the tins lid and walked back to me placing thr scissors on the table behind him. "Just in case this gets to much for you. I want to get you free as soon as you say coffee" I nodded and watched him go back to tying. I took a few shallow breaths as I continued to watch him make sure the rope wasn't to tight. Two to three fingers leverage in between him working.

"Are you doing alright baby girl?" Just watching him do this was actually getting me excited. I could feel it. I felt warm all over with the way my body was reacting. Embarrassed? No, not even close. Jake was looking at me closely, trying to see if I was still fine. I nodded. "Uhhuh" I didn't think I could speak full sentences. "I would need a yes or a no." Smiling seductively he held my hands where he made a loop around both my thumbs earlier.

"Yes, I'm doing fine." The way he looked at me lovingly, the trust in his eyes.

Panic rising again as soon as he took the two loops from around my thumbs. The silence must have caused him to think something was wrong. A hand on my cheek. "Alice, you seem worried. We can stop if you want me to take it even slower" Can one even go any slower? He was caring about how I felt, like he could pick up the moment a panic attack wanted to creep up on me. "I'm doing fine. This is just really new to me. I can't explain it but I feel safe" Jake went back finishing his handy work and the extra rope was now just sitting in his open hand as he took in my words. "That is what I'm trying to show you. You will always be safe with me." His words were so comforting. I moved from one foot to the other. "A little horny are we?" I didn't think I could blush any deeper. I nodded. "Don't be embarrassed. This is pretty normal. Besides, if I have your consent, I would love to give you your first orgasm" Holy s**t. I was completely flabbergasted. My body screamed yes. My mind slowly catching on that it didn't matter if what it thought I was going to overcome this fear.

I nodded again feeling like a cat got my tongue. "Afraid?" He asked, I shook my head. "I'm just not used to this." Jake leaned in and kissed me. The most gentle of kisses. "Don't worry Alice. I won't do anything that you wouldn't want me to." But I want you to give me an orgasm. My body must have shown what my mind just screamed because Jake caressed my shoulders moving down over my breasts. Stopping for a mere moment to squeeze them. I opened my lips slightly as a gasp escaped. "Like that?" A hitch in my breathing. "Yeah" The constant communication. Jake was an expert at that. He continued to trail soft caresses down my body. He leaned in and kissed my neck, making his way up to my lips again. When he did, his hand was at the juncture of my pants. His thumb already wanting to press down on my c**t. We were in my living room. Was he going to...? "Not here, baby" I pouted, and gave a squick the moment he picked me up. "I would love to make you come in every single room of this apartment but I think it's only fair it's in your bed" A few quick strides and he was the end of my bed. Still unmade, but I dont think either of us cared even in the slightest. He sat me down and I could see the bulge in his pants. I looked down at my tied hands thinking must have thought about this. I was very uncomfortable with my body, even if I was working on it. He knelt down and undid my jeans before slipping it off as I lifted myself a bit. Sitting back down he started trailing kisses down my legs as the jeans were taken off me. He kept an eye on me. Making sure i was still fine. I nodded licking my lips slightly just to moisture them up. When both my legs were from my jeanse he made the same trail up kissing. I layed down as pleasure build more. I could feel how wet I was. The kisses stopped and I lifted my head a bit, seeing Jake stand and go the living room bringing back the scissors. "I hope you're not to fond of that pair of panties" He even made underwear sound sexy. "No?"

"Good" He leaned between my legs again and cut through the fabric. My eyes widened as the fabric was cut. He took the fabric from the centre and again continued kissing. Before he reached my soaking centre he stopped again. I softly moaned as again this build more pleasure. "I will go slow. If at any point this gets to much... What's your safeword?" He asked. I had to register what he asked, then told him "Coffee"

"Good girl. Now, lay down" I did what I was told. He placed his hands on my thighs, spreading them ever so slowly. He lifted one of me legs to the base of my bed and leaned in. I felt his breathing on my wet mount. A deep breath and then I jumped. Pleasure going up my center "Holy ffff" my breathing hitched, Jake holding my legs in place. "Alice"

"Hmmm?"

"Good?"

A nod

"Yeah, don't stop please"

I heard him grin

"As you wish"

JAKE

Fuck she smelled so good. The way she withered underneith me as I licked her. She really was the sweetest honey I have ever tasted in my entre life and I didn't wsnt anything else. Her soft breathing and moans had my erection strain in my pants. I placed my thumb on her swallen bulb and she lifted of the bed ever so gently. She was so responsive. It drove me and my bear insane. I moved my thumb up to her c**t and she screamed in pleasure. f**k, i wanted to make her come around my c**k, but this wasn't the time. She wasn't ready. The velvet nylon wasn't to tight, but would leave small indents with the way she moved under my touch. I kept it on her, to see if she would like it. With the way she gripped them not really sure what to do. I was already looking forward to show her more of this. I went back down and really started to lick and suck, making sure savor every taste of her. I altered it with my fingers. I trailed kisses up her amazing thighs as my middle finger glided in between her fold. It slipped into her, and I stopped. Alice froze for a second. Was she actually this pure that she didn't even use the vibrator she had in the trunk? "You alright?" She nodded. "Yeah" small words, singular words. I continued to slip my finger into her and she bucked. Her walls clenching around it. "Close... Holy shhhhiii..." More of her erotic moans. I knew she was close. And I wasn't going to let her hold out on feeling her first orgasm. "Come for me Alice" I told her. I softly blew on her c**t and my finger moved in and out of her and i watched as her fingers clenched around the rope, her body buck and she scream out in pure bliss.

I cut through the rope and climbed onto the bed kissing her as soon as our eyes met. I held her close, her hands now lose and free. She threw her arms around my neck for a second before she lay down. I held her close and rained kissed over her telling her how much of good girl she was, how amazing she was. I could feel a tear soak my shirt. She was crying. But it wasn't a sad cry it was one of feeling appreciated and loved. I heard my phone in the kitchen vibrate and just left it to ring. I would check it later. For now i was going to take care of Alice in the moment. Tomorrow will provide for itself