MY Brother

I remember exactly when everything changed. When my life started to tumble out of complete control. The moment that my feelings of admiration for my brother turned into complete infatuation. He was the oldest and I, five years younger than him. He was the kind of brother that doted on his younger sister. He protected and watched out for me. Taught me and always included me in things. There wasn’t a single time he ever raised his voice or was mean to me. It was a relationship that every parent hoped for. Mom and dad never needed babysitters. Gabriel was ALWAYS there when they needed him too. He was also always mature so he was incredibly responsible and respectful. I never had to knock before I went into his room. Or tell him beforehand. It had become completely normal for me to just come hang out with him there everyday throughout the day. I just enjoyed being with him and felt calm and comfortable in his presence. So the day I caught him in bed, f*****g his girlfriend, yes it changed my view on him forever. I had opened the door quietly, peaking inside and I couldn’t make a single noise. All I could do was watch and watch I did. I was 14, my brother had just turned 18 and he was a senior in high school. He had been with a girl for four months and I didn’t know a single thing about it. Probably because he hadn’t mentioned it or her at all. Not once. Only after I caught them together did I finally learn the entire truth. My truth, OUR truth. He was buried balls deep in her and she was whimpering around his hand, plastered to her mouth. I swallowed so hard when my eyes shot up to the side of his face. I could see that his mouth was open, teeth gritted. His eyes were closed so tightly and I couldn't take mine off of his. And his face. In that moment I really appreciated how attractive he really was and it floored me. It burned me. Chills erupted over every inch of my body and my mouth went dry. And then the jealousy ripped through me. My heart skipped and I could feel myself shaking. I grabbed onto the door frame and gasped silently. WHAT. WAS. WRONG. WITH. ME!? I don’t know what provoked him but he was suddenly looking at me, still thrusting into her. It took me a minute to realize that he was grinning. Our eyes locked and I bit my lip hard. “You’re such a good girl for me.” His voice was deep, so f*****g husky. He was talking to the girl he continued to thrust into but he wasn’t. He was talking to me. She moaned against his hand while my brothers eyes never left mine. Thankfully hers were closed. I felt a warm, aching feeling building between my legs and I couldn’t help but whimper quietly. The shock of the noise leaving my lips made me bring my hand up to cover them. It made my brother grin even wider. For a few moments he took his eyes off of mine and I watched them wander down to where my legs were squeezed tightly together. He licked his lips, watching for a moment before he brought his eyes back up to mine. And then his mouth moved again, silently. Taking my attention, forcing me to look. He was mouthing to me then, making sure I fully understood the message he wanted to relay. ‘You are MY good girl Gracie baby. You’re mine.’